life is full of regrets

2011-08-04T09:26:00.004+08:00

Think the worst out of me, and you will get over me very soon :)
i had you once, i don't ask for more.
im just being someone you wanted me to be, just to please you .
but me myself i don't feel easy at all.
it's like me lying to myself that i'm like this but in fact im not.
i did tried, its not that i didn't.
it's the best for the both of us.
we would be happier this way.
i love you but sometimes, we have to let go.
it's not always about hold.
sometimes the more you try , the more tired u get in the end.

2011-08-02T10:57:00.002+08:00

Okay well.

there's always a point in time where people have to let go not because they want to but because they need to.

and they would be happier that way.

i choose to be happy and forsake this relationship.

this relationship is always about argument, disagreement.

no one is willing to give in and ended up none of us are happy.

just feel all tie up serious, i don't have a space to breathe not even for a moment.

we did, we got back together but after a week it's still the same or should i say things gotten worst.

trying my best to focus and give in everything i got,

but the fear of getting played, i couldn't control.

before we were together he told me she's more important, he likes her, he's happier with her and as for me he hates me, he feel so irritated when I'm around.

and all of a sudden he just came back out of the blue because i beg him to .

i seriously don't know what to believe, i tried to i really did tried to believe that he's not playing.

but everything just got up into my head and keep flashing back about what he say.

worst of all, THAT moment, THAT part really makes me doubt that he's serious.

he promise me he would watch wu xia with me but ended up going with her,

how i felt ?

will he ever understand?

and another incident was we intended to meet on a thursday 2 weeks ago,

he told me he couldn't make it because he's sick and ask me to meet him friday.

but on friday he went clubbing with friends and he say on sat but sat he totally forgotten about it

and ask me to meet him on sunday , and sunday he told on monday because he's tired.

and yes he did turn up on monday , but a spoil mood.

and somehow we got together on that day.

how will you feel if you were me ?

just feel so not important right?

somewhat like he's playing right?

and you know what, so what if we got back together..

he say it's not him who wants me back, it's me who beg him.

so all this really make me doubt him a lot.

he can even call me a bitch , a slut, retarded, stupid, fucktard and ask me to fuck myself.

how could i endure all this seriously, it's happening everyday.

i am a human as well, i have feelings.

and to him getting me back was just some play, asking for break so easily.

so just what am i ?

he's controlling me to the extend whereby i couldn't take it as well.

he's not such a control freak back in the past but why now like this.

maybe the difference is because i ask him back and not because he wants to.

so now since its really over.

i shall just let go.

so much for everything, happily ever after.

relationship really is a pain.

2011-07-19T09:14:00.003+08:00

Too much just too much.
i could no longer think of anything else.
who is lying, who is not i really dunno.
D told me about him, being a bastard.
but when i confronted him he say he will never do something like this.
and he even say something like what will i gain from it.
im really am lost.
i need someone to talk to and all but all i could think about is D
i'm already trying my best.
but no one could see how much i really tried.
i really don't want to lose him.
when ever i think of it , him falling for that girl and all just makes me paranoid.
i really dunno what to do.
im afraid i really am.
he's already hating me, i don't want him to hate me any further.
a point of me just tells me to give up and move on , but another point of me is asking me to stay and not to give up.
i really dunno what to do.
but the truth is i really dont feel like giving up
if i knew this would happened,
i would never have wanted it, treating him like this.
i have just lost the best boyfriend i could ever have,
but i just took him for granted all along.
he's never happy when he's with me ,
but he still choose to stay for a little longer.
what type of gf am i ,
y have i turn into someone like this.
i screw everything up with my both hands.
all i wanted to just a chance to mend my ways again,
but it's hard really hard.
i have always wanted a lot of things from him,
because he didn't do it , i yell at him, make him suffer when he's with me.
if i could i really wish im the one who is suffering in the relationship and it's not him.
i have been covered by pride, ego, and etc and i have forgotten what i wanted most it isn't pampering, isn't about winning, isn't clubbing, isn't flirting, isn't drinking, isn't smoking but him himself.
if i have never listened to my friends maybe him and i could be better.
clubbing smoking drinking isn't want i wanted.
after we broke off i keep appearing at places where he and i used to go ,
the taxi stand where i make his hand bleed.
the chalet where i got drunk and he saw me dancing at the BBQ pit,
Kbox where we first started messaging after the chalet,
suntec where we had our first argument over the phone.
powerhouse where we first met,
toy museum where we first have our date,
if i were to told him i have been going back to ph after we broke off is to remember those days when we argue fight and in love i bet he wouldnt believe.
in fact thats the first place we met, there's alot of memories there with him.
i go there it's not because anything else but to let this memories flow back into me .
if i could get him to fall for me again , im willing to change anything and everything about me.
i don't want to lose him nor let him go.
i want to last form a fanily with him.
im not someone who believe in god,
but i come to a point where i willing to do anything to get him back.
so if there is really god,
HEAVENLY father, i know im not a good girl, nor a good girlfriend if you let me have a chance to get back with him and make him fall for me again, i will treasure it every single minute and second of my life loving him and not let the past of mine spoil everything, i would stop clubbing, smoking , drinking as for now on and to change what i used to be just for him.i wouldn't treat him like shit again, i promise exchanging my life with you if i didn't do what i say. please give me the strength . i can't do without him, but if u think im a bad girl and he doesnt deserve to be with someone like me again, please promise you u will protect him from hurt, from whatever there is out there and make him be happy always.

i will be waiting i wouldn't give up

2011-07-14T13:28:00.002+08:00

Oh well, he and i really ended ,like seriously.
i couldn't take it anymore.
so humiliating !
why do i always fall for the wrong guy and both also by the name of weikang -___-
ok well the first one treated me just as a replacement,
and this so call current one, just want things his way, he have never thought of my feelings.
the words he say is hurtful, so i really decided to give up.
:)
should have listened to everyone, but as usual my stubbornness kills.
there comes a point in life where you just have to open up your both hands and let go of those thorns which you used to grab tightly with.
wish him best of luck in everything.
maybe just like what ben say for a girl you should use your brain instead of your heart.
brain to only go for the looks and money so u wouldnt suffer in future better den your heart that always hurts.
well now still not the time i guess, the right one just haven't appear yet.
focus on my study like before.
relationship is always a pain, a slow form of suicide.
this time round im not as stupid as before to wait, to cry or to even intended to die over a guy.
what's mine will be mine what's not just forget about it.
live your life the way i wanted and not being controlled.
and you will be happy the way you are.
since i can't save this relationship, at least i save my dignity !
if he's going to hit me, scold me , humilated me he's not going to be a gd husband anw.
and worst of all he dont even care, i got a cut all i get was scolding and nothing concern came out from his mouth.
oh well just my luck :)
hope he will put in more trust in this next relationship and also not to be so much of a control freak.
im sure gonna miss him a lot

2011-07-13T10:33:00.008+08:00

OKAY well, hi im back peeps.
been busy with work lately so i didn't have much time to blog and also mainly because i forgotten my password -____-
oh well, attachment ended :D
PHEW finally ! but i do MISS my chefs, they were as close as family to me.
maybe going back shangri-la to work" still considering."
upcoming plans, waiting for my diploma in make up during september.
and oh ya too many things happened lately for example relationship ,
donny went back indonesia and also i got pushed down podium for nothing by some fat indian bitches.
kind of miss donny, his jokes his laughter and his existences he's one of the friends i had who is always there for me.
like that time when he saw me cry in class over my ex lover the sweetest thing he did was dropping down into tears and telling me as a friend it's hurts to see me like this.
LIKE SEE SO sweet of a friend.
(mainly also because of the background music wilson is playing at that perfect moment , which makes me think it's sweet )
like hey come on! which guy would cry in front of you ,cry together with u ! like so sweet la.
so drama i know haha. life is just like a drama anw.
and regrading relationship, derrick and i broke off like for real.
it's really a hard decision but there's just things which you have to let go off even if you don't wish to.
our personality just doesn't match at all.
putting two stones together is like causing fire to break out.
he's a person who wants everything his way, stubborn , protective, sensitive and high jealousy level.
with him i couldn't drink, smoke, club nor even go out or talk nor contact my guy friends.
"like hey come on , im with you u know i love you but i need a space for myself as well"
in other words, there's no space for me to explore more, meet more people and no personal space.
he's a nice guy like really, but things change somehow he started to hit me , scold me like hell control my ever single move.
which i kind of hate it.
he even ask me to fuck myself and die -...- " like what the "
so it's better to be friends or maybe not .. in case of murdering case in this relationship..
seriously which girl can stand her guy hitting her ~ like so ungentleman la !
and ok i admit it's partly my fault too BECAUSE IM STUBBORN and also because i have more guy friends den girls.
but look this world isn't about mixing with your own kind! lady and man both are human .
im not willing to change for a guy and lose all my friends because of one, cause if you leave i will be left with nothing..
and talking about change, changing for a person wouldn't last. you will be happy like ,maybe the both of you, if you both just could accept each other for who u really are.
not talking only about looks but also over the things you do.
who wants to be with someone who is faking things out.
i would rather be with someone who is him , himself and not someone i wanted him to be.
AND I SERIOUSLY HATE PEOPLE WHO SAY THAT IM FLIRTING when im just talking.
how i talk ,the way i talk is like that ,straight forward, hack care and i love playing around but that doesn't mean i'm flirting.
somehow it's really hard for me to let go of him, he's like the second one.
but what done has to be done. who say you have to be with the one you love.
i think he will be happier this way, i hope he will.
controling ,controling myself from not messaging him.
thats all for now,
:)

2011-05-08T12:00:00.002+08:00

you obviously dont know how sorry i am ....
i really am and i want you to know i don't want you to hate me!!!
DCWK

2011-05-08T11:56:00.001+08:00

2011-05-08T11:24:00.003+08:00

i couldn't think of anything nor anywhere, but here.
could just ignore this part, cause all i will be saying is about things which happened recently which kept me breathless.
all i could say was what happened four years ago, is happening right now.
i really feel like shit, i really dont know what to do.
i'm becoming a person whom i totally can't recognize.
i'm taking him for granted , only spare thought for myself and not him.
only now that he left, i realise. but i could no longer get him back to me .
things is already too late.
i really love him a lot he's the second guy.
if i wasN'T THAT STUBBORN, if i didn't say things out of anger, if i didn't do things to spark him, none of this would happened.
it's all my fault.
i shouldnt have joke with words i shouldnt have.
i shouldnt have gotten jealous over him and his sis when i know they are just friends.
i shouldnt have said that he doesnt care when i know he do.

there's just so many things happening, what friends say i just listen and forget about sparing a thought for him.
this happened 4 years ago because i listen to salt too much den believing him.
now listening to salt and got screw up again.
i really did say something i shouldn't have said that i think really hurt him.
i shouldn't have said he control me too much.
actually i don't mind people restrict me and all.
but after club and the new batch of friends make me feel wow wouldn't it be great that way.
but i guess i'm wrong.
not everyone will enjoy that type of relationship, it's too fake to be real.
and i don like it at all. i really wan him to be like how he used to be.
the past i used to tell vinegar and salt that club isn't good but now look i fall into that trap just because i don't wan to be left out.
i really dunno why i would turn into a club, drinking, smoking monster.
change in less den 6 months.
it hurts me a lot when he doubt me , the words he say are as hurtful as the onces 4 years back.
after wk that lie i haven't been lying since den, but why does he always treat things in a way like i had lied.?
what have i done to make him doubt me so much.
i admit i didn't wan to show that i love him because i was afraid of getting hurt again..
i really regretted.
i wish he would care like how he used to.
i wish he would love me like how he used to.
cause i'm starting to miss him right now.
and i'm starting to be afraid of losing him.

2011-05-04T10:52:00.003+08:00

a lot of things happening ,
but i'm still breathing.
thanks clynston and everyone that really helped and be there, really appreciated .
well nothing much for me to say for the past few days, have been busy work....

2011-04-17T14:38:00.005+08:00

6 april 2011
went shopping alone for clothes and food as i don't really love going shopping with groups. i prefer to do it alone , after that went over suntec to meet donny. head over to josephine's house and off to zirca to meet the rest.celebrate jane's birthday. ok well, it's not my day. i'm freaking bored. went home at 2. FYI the earliest ever. drank a lot but still too awake to do anything. don't even have the mood to dance. well i admit PH is still way better.

13 april 2011
went over vivo to meet leng and her cousin's friend. meet derrick and black for awhile and head over for food at marche. as usual order alot but ate a little . cab over to jab1 for some drinks i tell you, i'm freaking bored.the guy next table keep asking me to drink with him and all. got super bored so cab down to PH alone to find bear and the rest. ok well, was a little drunk, larry keep shaking his butt right in front of my face! as usual, jonathan, clemence and etc took care of me.

15 april 2011
went orchard for shopping :D brought 4 clothes 1 shoe and spend about 400 bucks.

16 april 2011
went tampinesmall ntuc to meet samuel , went over to jack's place for dinner. wait for jack and jieying for about an hour. after that went over to find puiman and train to PH :D hao wei drove me home after that :D

2011-04-06T13:35:00.003+08:00

26 march 2011
went over to pasir ris chalet to meet jieying, jack , samuel and dionna.
samuel drove us to GIANT to get some BBQ items.
went back chalet, black, derrick came over and head over to PH.
meet caileng there went back chalet to sleep
caileng snore -.-

27 march 2011
went e hub to get everyone breakfast.
after that derrick xiao hei and xiao xiao hei went home.
while the rest of us went ehub,
caileng and i got bored so went back chalet first.
i make jager bomb in ice cube :D
awhile later samuel drove caileng me and dionna to hougang,
went hougang mall walk walk while we wait for dionna.
went back chalet bryan came, izac came and his gf.
awhile later drunken samuel drive me home.

30 march 2011
ph with jack, bear, samuel, roys and the awesome gangs.
clynston came too..
jack drove us home.

2 april 2011
went to cut my hair, off to caileng house and
meet black and jack at vivo
awhile later they left so leng and i went to bistro
and met jieying , samuel at dian xiao er
PH again to celebrate bear and derrick's birthday.
ok well,
damn pissed off. cause i have to look after drunken puiman.
and she's damn irritating like ya for the first time.
saw roger.
did lot of stupid things in the toilet. LOL
play with cakes and all.
and went home with kianhao , puiman and bingquan.

5 april went over somerset to meet donny,
to get his gf something and awhile later devid came.
went fish and co to eat and wait for jane to come.
slack here and here
catch a movie and went over to donny house to cook dinner for ourself.
drank tiger and went home

2011-03-20T11:51:00.006+08:00

sorry for not blogging for so long have been working like hell for the past few weeks. so yup i'm back :D

9 march 2011
went over to vivo to meet harold for dinner,the food there sucks to the max. horrible! after that off to bistro for my lychee martini :D off to zirca with jane, donny, devid and some indonesia friends.

10 march 2011
work

11 march 2011
work

12 march 2011
work

13 march 2011
work. my chef went crazy ask me to pray to the salt god -.-

14 march 2011
work

15 march 2011
work

16 march 2011
went over to CQ to meet caileng, went rebel. saw joel :D went yello jello for a drink with alvin and his friends and off to look for harold, devid and donny. caileng was drunk, keep repeating herself like a mad bitch. LOL. was with kaiden and joel on the dance floor as caileng went over to look for harold.

17 march 2011
work

18 march 2011
work after work intended to go PH but didn't as i'm tired. and caileng ask me to go out with patrick and his friends to BQ but didn't went. luckily i didn't if not i will be soaking wet LOL.

19 march 2011
went over to rebel, saw joel again clubber! so many people nv go clubbing (jack and co., alvin and co. , AP and co. and yuzhi and co.) went ph instead since rebel is so freaking bored. went drangonfly and PH, was bored too -.- so went over to toxic bar but no table so back to PH. it's like a total was of time! waited for an hour for re-entry -.- totally no mood to do anything. gabriel brought drinks and tried dancing but i'm the only one doing that-.- and patrick almost got into a fight. fierce but MAN LOL! saw roger and he keep telling me that his friend is drunk lol! went mac cause it's super bored and back home.

2011-03-08T11:58:00.002+08:00

there's just so many things happening right now as in for past few weeks and so,and it's going to explode any moment now. the craziest thing happened, things which you could never expect came true. drama are real in some parts, i guess. i really wish i could be a kid again so i wouldn't have to worry so much and to think of those things that really could make you cry.

6 march 2011
D.D drove me to work. during work george keep looking for me. don't know for what. after work D.D send me to A.M house for dinner and back home, went over to lao ba sat to meet chef ben jane donny harold and devid. oh well, ate alot. devid brought chivas to lao ba sat and like so damn HIGH CLASS, if you know what i mean. harold send me home as usual like last time he always play with the lift, don't let me go home. kind of reminds me of wk too i guess.

7 march 2011
woke up, wen t over to tampines mall to get my lenses and off to cine to meet gabriel and caileng. after that went over to taka to meet devid and off to heren to find jane harold and kartono.
walk around intending to get tickets for "my ex" but all sold out. so intended to go over to the hotel which wilson was working at to find him. once met went over to cine again to sing :D i drank about 7 cups of beer. off to kopitiam for dinner/supper. and of cause harold send me home.

8 march 2011
i'm going to be a good girl, stay at home and no drinking session for me as well, for today. see no point in drinking and get get myself drunk to forget everything like seriously so dumb. no matter how much i have been through, i have to be strong. i seriously miss clubbing it has been 2 weeks since i went and seriously i miss cyril. haven't contacted him for like 2 weeks and i really wish i could. i just don't know what to talk about, and so afraid that i might disturb him. hoping that maybe he would message me sooner or later but i guess not. like what my friends always say he's a guy you met in club, what makes you think he would be serious about you. but it doesnt really matters to me now, cause i really like him alot. he maybe not that gd looking, not that much of a mr nice guy but i just like him i feel comfortable when i'm with him somehow. i don't need him to be my guy, just wants him to be happy with his life.

2011-03-02T18:49:00.004+08:00

28 feb 2011
went to work.
help chef ben cook lamb sauce.
after work wait for donny,
went over to flyer to meet chef ben.
nice place to slack, seriously.
can smoke, can date can do what ever you wan and FYI service guys are cute. LOL.
slack slack till 11 went over to blue jazz to meet the rest.
harold, jane, ang was there. drink a bit and azmi came.
sing, dance, slack went home.
harold send me home.

1 march 2011
stayed at home the whole day.
super tired.
know why ? caue on the 27 feb i work night shift, on the 28 work morning shift and i didn't go home straight i went for some drinks instead -.-
so it's like 2 hours of sleep nia.

2 march 2011
went facial and slimming session.
went for dye.
tm to get something from puiman.
NYDS for food and sasa for some cosmetic.
back home.

2011-02-24T12:16:00.004+08:00

i know i haven't been blogging for a very long time,
sorry about that peeps.
been quite busy with life, as usual working.
totally have no time to go online.
have been working for 10 hours everyday,
i'm lacking of sleep.
well today is my off day so let me talk about the past few days which i could remember.

19 feb 2011
went to work,
got scolded by chef ah lang.
for making a mess :X
(he's a perfectionist , so everything must be perfectly neat!)
got a function of 50 pax last minute so i have to cook everything last minute,
but all thanks to george's help i manage to complete everything on time.
went over to PH to find caileng, jack and the rest.
bistro for a drink.
guess what, cyril came over for me instead of going over to zouk.
caileng and i cried, well think too much.
feel so bad, keep asking dionna to join me for a dance and her bf was left there all alone LOL.
got drunk as usual -.-

23 feb 2011
went shopping alone while waiting for time to past.
meet donny and jane at CQ.
ate ramen. kai came.
seriously got damn irritated.
went clinic for a drink.
went zirca meet dennis, ah an, bob, ah hong, and etc.
CLUBBING WITH CHEF ARE LIKE SO DAMN AWESOME.
went out to look for cyril and peiwei.
yello jello for a drink.
cyril got me a necklace from swarovski
chefs in and out of kitchen totally diff.
super FUN!
dance in cage they shout from downstairs and den surrounded by girls lOL.
donny and ah an almost beat a guy cause i cried.
got quite drunk, vomited like shit.
cyril and peiwei went over to find angmo :"(
edmund saw me crying and so he keep telling me all the ren shen da dao li.
join edmund at his table went home.
reach home few hours later cyril text me :)
as for today off day :D

2011-02-11T14:59:00.004+08:00

last wednesday.
went leng leng house gamble
chinsen, weide, drew chan was here as well as puiman.
drew more and more tattoo,
chinsen left caileng for another girl ;X
zhengyuan my fake laogong too busy with work can't come!
shaozhenglose contact, got gf forget mistress.
drew become my lucky star and i became his.
for the very first time leng leng lose!
not much people came this year, but was as fun as before.
had steamboat as usual.
brought bibi there, he pee and shit.
and i have to clean !
after that otw home,
saw bear, clemence and larry.
(like always so qiao)
bear and larry keep on ask me accept "lemon"
=.=
went home after a while of slacking.

thursday which is yesterday,
went to work ,
make 39 main course, 15 pizza dough, cook 8 of them.
pizza di mare and pizza aloha :D
chef george told me about his love life,
damn sad , he took 3 months mc, his gf left him for another man.
so sad right when he need her the most he left!
after work went home.

friday which is today.
went for facial and slimming session.

i miss him somehow.
hope to see him soon.
anw monday! valentines!

2011-02-06T13:36:00.007+08:00

30 jan 2011.
off day :D
woke up at around 3 plus ,
puiman came over.
went GM house for steamboat with puiman.
GM mistaken puiman for me and me for puiman.
cyril and peiwei didnt join us.
reunion dinner as well

31 jan 2011, 1 feb 2011
work till late night.

2 feb 2011
after work.
an keep on ask me to kiss him, crazy -.-
went GM house.
played mahjong.
went off to bishan with J for a movie.
the green hornet.
manage to catch the last train which is at 2.30..
ok well the show , nice but not nice.
as in no storyline.
as usual J and i went crazy.
miss those days when we went out with bryan, shawn, etc for movie and all.
especially that hotel night.
when wen yong brought sprits, all of us went to the hotel for party to celebrate new year.
fun and unforgettable but now everyone busy.
so no time for meet ups i guess.

3 feb 2011.
it's the first day of cny and guess what i'm working -.-
an nv work.
so i'm like BORED!
before going to work, went over to find my new born baby cousin.
not the kind of thing for me i guess.
i hate babies still!
cause they are freaking noisy!
no offense but ya...
work till 11 and went for a drink with donny.
BORING!
shisha, beer and chit chat.
suppose to meet cyril and peiwei but cyril went for gambling session and peiwei just too lazy to go out.
so yup...
and i cut myself!
due to not paying attention to what i'm actually cutting

4 feb 2011.
off day :D
work up at 3.
went GM house, steamboat photos and bla bla bla.
brougth bibi there as well.
intended to go for a movie with ben and dict but they went for lan, supper for satay.

5 feb 2011.
work,
went zouk.
long q so went zirca.
regretted. a lot of aunties and uncle should go ph instead.
(went there with cyril and peiwei and of cause puiman)
puiman tipsy.
saw mingming.
went rebel, dance with this whole lot of malays -.-
(rebel malays, zirca old ppl)
after all the FUN!
went back to tampines with cyril and puiman for mac.
called clemence to send puiman home, cyril send me home to my door step.
ok well, in the cab suddenly my cut hurts,
cyril sayang :D

2011-01-30T14:21:00.002+08:00

28 jan 2011
shopping with limin and J

29 jan 2011
work.
after that went PH to meet kianhok cyril and their friends.
went caileng's cousin table and clemence table for a drink.
saw a lot of people, such as mariann, dio, meiyan, tes, kieth, etc.
cyril talk a lot of nonsense, i swear LOL
got a slight argument with puiman ..
met some new friends.
went tampines for breakfast with cyril peiwei puiman and caileng.
went leng house awhile, go home.
later going nex with puiman, steamboat maybe cyril joining us as well :D

2011-01-27T10:54:00.002+08:00

21 jan 2011
went over to meet cyril, peiwei, james, tommie..
went bugis loop, CQ, far east..
help cyril choose perfume.
didn't eat the whole day..
unwell..
tommie drive me home, cyril send me to my door step.

22 jan 2011
work..
chef give me eat foie gras :D

23 jan 2011
work..

24 jan 2011
work..
chef and chef fight... all the abcdefg come out -.-
ate buffet food..

25 jan 2011
work, photoshoot..
both chef nv come..
play pool with fake bf "chef an"..

26 jan 2011
work again..
go home alone..
cause everyone work morning shift.
D.D pick me up, he change car..

27 jan 2011
work again..
tml off :D
out with x3

(sorry no time to blog, too busy with work)
shall blog abt this coming sat :D

2011-01-21T09:25:00.003+08:00

17 jan 2011
makan tempanyaki with dio and leng.
went leng house.
her sis brought us go shopping for dog food.
after that back to her house for food.
bryan came.
dio and bryan go dating, leng and me go find pm.
after that M send me home

17 jan 2011
work at 1 ends at 11.
do spring cleaning :D
happiest day of my life.
all because of <3

18 jan 2011
work at 1 ends at 11.
spring cleaning again.
change all the logo and wraps.
went PH.
meet caileng, puiman.
kelly brought us up.
as usual clemence took care of me again.
saw harry. sheree :D

19 jan 2011
work 1 to 11 again.
vomited 5 times -.-
one in bus, 4 in rasa toilet.
fake bf cook lemon honey for me.
maroccan chef keep on disturb.
after work went mac makan with donny.
D.D send me home.

20 jan 2011
maybe going over to find <3

2011-01-16T08:59:00.002+08:00

12 jan 2011
went to work, started off late.
went to marocco kitchen to help marocco chef.
all my friends left, i work late shift alone.
was boring i guess.
intend to bath in hotel BUT toilet renovation.
so went swimming pool to bath.
no door -.- scary!!! at night somemore.
the whole toilet to myself.
sit on the table to make up :D
went vivo to meet bear.
in the end clemence came over to pick me up ,
went mac to meet bear , junhong and one fat guy.
went ph to meet puiman, caileng, kelly, dionna, alvin and etc.
i took away puiman first kiss.
puiman got drunk, i got drunk.
bear look after her, clemence look after me .
was like OMG.
keep on hug clemence and copy what he do.
and i keep on say i wan see cyril, call cyril. den clemence keep saying clemence better. LOL.
awhile later everyone went back to tamp but caileng and me carry on dancing.
went to join another group of friends.
this time round junjie look after me, soon later caileng got drunk.
after ph went 700+ to makan.
dunno who drive.
can't remember.
caileng smoke ! like omg ! drunken can do anything !
makan liao go caileng house sleep.

13 jan 2011
morning wake up , go home, sleep again.
meet puiman go see doctor.
went 802 makan meet bear . wilson, clemence and larry.
caileng came over.
went tm.

14 jan 2011
went to work,
enter kitchen empty .
i was like OMG!!!! Y NO PPL ALL OFF ?
help indian kitchen, all keep on disturb me !
say what i m their gf, i dont like indian :(
fake bf dont wan me liao. he nv really find me talk to me.
after that, went donny house, went bugis shisha.
and send donny off to the airport and back home.

15 jan 2011
went to steven's bro wedding at calton.
went tm to meet caileng after wedding.
intending to watch movie but she go ph instead.
so pei her go home take shoe etc.
den send her off.
went back tm to meet jerdi.
watch movie.
went back home.

16 jan 2011
as for today,
shall spend my day with D.D

2011-01-11T20:30:00.002+08:00

5 jan 2011
went merdandy with donny and jane.
shisha drink go home.

6 jan 2011
stay at home the whole day.
sick

7 jan 2011
off to work,
crazy day with my fake boyfriend ( my chef in charge who keep calling me his gf)
he keep on say alot of chef love my eyes.
went cold kitchen help that indian man with cutting of fruits.
i carry lots of watermelon -.-
the indian man quite handsome.
he is a fatherly man who knows how to speak chinese, malay, hokkien and his language.
back home after that.
but before going home went starbucks slack

8 jan 2011
work at noodle stall, they love my service :D
got a lot angmo!
forget what i done after that.

9 jan 2011
work with another chef,
my fake bf nv come.
so yup after that went merdandy with jane donny.
meet raissa, her friend and one angmo boy.
i hug that angmo guy, kiss jane and donny.
cyril came , i got drunk and i was like lying down on the floor when he arrived,.
so i guess impression gone.
(so now what i guess was right , maybe, he's gonna avoid me )
i like cyril .
i admit.
but at least im who i m i m not faking but who cares.
like someone doesnt mean you have to be with him.
he's happy, that will be all.
i took a cab home alone!

10 jan 2011
wen nex with puiman

11 jan 2011
went to work, today work with fake bf's cousin.
he damn talkative.
i swear! BTH.
slacking.
go home straight.
tml onwards doing marocco cuisine.
hell starts, cause the chef in charge of it is the one and only fierce chef!

2011-01-05T14:40:00.003+08:00

1 JAN 2011.
went ben house to celebrate dict's birthday.
watch them play poker and back home.
love his grandma's curry chicken not spicy one:D

2 JAN 2011.
went caileng house,
her sister brought a new dog.
brought bibi over.
hmmm, bibi GAY!!!
LOLS.
after that went grandma house for dinner.
went back home.

3 JAN 2011.
went to RASA sentosa for an orientation.
there's wii, computer, pool table, tv, rooms for us to sleep and play in :D
canteen look like restaurant :D
after orentation went cine to meet caileng.
after that wisma to meet cyril and james.
waraku, walk around.
brought royce went home

4 JAN 2011
first day of work.
fun, tired, bored.
chef keep on disiao me !
say i look like malay.
tell other chefs that i m a malay when he know i m a chinese.
he even say if he is my bf he will beat me cause i so black LOL.
say heng i no bf, cause no one to beat.
he lie to me say he is 20 but he is 31
donny tell the korean guy i'm interested in him -.-
say what i m 25 years old
cause the korean man 31
i'm not interested in korean -.-
but seriously he look like 23~
cityhall mac, slack with jane and donny.
cab home.

2011-01-01T08:12:00.004+08:00

yesterday.
woke up late, went over to meet kartono, jane, sujata, wilson, darren, gerwyn.
head over to long john for breakfast and off to sentosa for TANNING!
ok well enjoyed, was so called chase out of sentosa by the guard.
went banquet for food and off back home to change.
went 802 to meet caileng.
head over to orchard.
ate pontian, H.D and went over to meet cyril.
went makan with peiwei, james, tommy, cyril, GAY, caileng.
peiwei drove us over to CQ.
we had count down in the car hahahaha. got fireworks somemore.
zirca.
went VIP room, kian hok came over.
drink.
went down to dance with peiwei and kian hok and ken.
etc etc etc.
cyril, ken, caileng drunk like mad cow.
ken drove peiwei car till lang-ga.
from CQ drive to clementi.
theat 3 people who r drunk spend 1 hour vomitting at clementi.
peiwei, me, james, GAY.
BTH.
cyril even jump onto people car and treat caileng like his pillow.-.-
in the end james drive me home.
reach my house call mama come down send caileng home.
she is damn drunk -.-

2010-12-28T09:38:00.002+08:00

SAT.
went nex with jerdi and weiming.

SUN.
M drove me to nex,
went there to look for dic, min, jes, J.
couldn't find them, i was all alone with bibi.
and everyone was like looking at me.
even give comments about bringing dogs into nex.
LIKE HEY COME ON DOGS ARE ALLOWED!
went 315 after that went home :)

MON.
meet leng over at 844.
went over to meet boon, jared, ben.
went topone sang till 5.
shoppping~ went over to brought koii.
meet cyril and james.
went over for shisha and went back home.

TUE,TODAY.
facial :D

2010-12-25T12:07:00.003+08:00

YESTERDAY.
went over to 802 to meet caileng.
after that head over to find puiman.
brought koii :D
had lunch and head over to bugis for ginger tea.
went CQ to meet alvin, bear, clemence, larry and gang.
head over to ZIRCA.
soon after a while jane and donny join us.
get to know 3 guys from zirca and they cyril, kianhok and z
went upstair to the VIP room to have a drink with cyril and kianhok.
and went around with them and caileng to look for puiman
all of a sudden disappear and she is like drunk -.-
ok well she went missing for 3 times!
caileng cried and cried even more when she lost me
so touched.
dance beside larry, with donny and cyril.
was fun but worrying day i guess.
dionna came after that.
awhile later went home.

2010-12-24T09:12:00.002+08:00

hello peeps,
i'm back from australia :D
hmmm, this trip wasn't that fun, i guess.
due to the weather (rain)and mainly because i was suppose to go to italy instead of australia.
(italy got that bomb thing )
and also because i have been to australia for countless number of times.
ok well let me begin with my journey.

18 DECEMBER 2010
went to school for my last paper.
head over to westmall for lunch with jane, harold, donny, bernard, shanhua, wilson at sakae sushi.
went for smoke break and took a train back to Tampines.
this house feels so empty all of a sudden, bibi wasnt here, mum send him over to aunt's place.
cause she's going over to china for a business trip.
ate YIRU at the airport and flew over to australia that very night.
had lamb for supper on plane.

19 DECEMBER 2010
arrive at brisbane.
couldn't check in until 2.30pm.
so went over to skypoint for a view.
and FYI it's raining!
went to the beach and i saw lot of hot guys surfing, despite the bad weather.
those guys are hot ! their looks and muscles :D
and what i realize was they may look fat (upper body ) but their face and legs are like freaking skinny.
and most of the hot guys have fat girlfriend.
had chinese food, IT SUCKS.
xiao long bao have no juice and it's not meat it's full of parsley!

20 DECEMBER 2010
went RITZ for breakfast.
head over to dreamWORLD.
not that fun, i only get to play one game.
and it's just a roller coaster.
went back hotel to sleep.
korean food for dinner.
saw a lot of bootlickers
and makes me kind of pissed of.

21 DECEMBER 2010
went out for FISHING!
yeah!
i caught nothing :(
but get to know a guy from japan, 2 angmo and one from hongkong.
hahaha
they are like freaking friendly.
the hjongkong guy caught a lot of fishes
and anw i caught a crab !
LOL
ate seafood, rashes!

22 DECEMBER 2010
went movie world.
saw a lot of people who think so highly of themself and always look down on people.
just because they have money they think money can buy us everything.
MONEY AREN"T EVERYTHING.
WE LIVE BECAUSE WE WANT TO AND NOT BECAUSE OF MONEY.
why people even bother inventing MONEY, it's a killer!
it change people and causes arguement!
money can't buy true love, money cant buy a dead person back to life.
yes money can get you what you what and what you need but it's not everything.
seriously i'm starting to hate rich people!
cause they think money buys everything.
and also it's all about mian zhi.
why even bother!
how much does it even worth !

23 DECEMBER 2010
back to singapore
mum pick me up from the airport!

2010-12-17T18:30:00.002+08:00

Thursday.
Went to school for farewell party.
After that off to orchard to study with Jane and Donny
Dance in the bus, dance while walk den Jane say I'm a clubberholic
Den to trades hotel to sign contract for rasa Shangri la.
Den went clubbing.

Friday.
Sch for exam.
After that walk around and went home
Tired.

Tomorrow.
Go sch for exam.
Steamboat with Jane and etc.
Flying back to aus.
Comin back on 23/24

2010-12-16T03:42:00.002+08:00

Ok well I just reach home.
Went to school or beverage exam.
Sure fail!
Went smoking area wit Harold .
After that follow Jane go hilltop.
I fall down :(
After that went back home to change, go caileng house.
Can over to Dionna place and cab over to CQ
Slack awhile went rebel.
Dance with Dionna friend for awhile went zirca
Saw my army boy, Sean :D
So happy to see him!!!!
He become skinnier, no longer shy shy!
And somehow I dance with him.
Hahaha
Donny, Jane Kartono came
Open Martel.
Went cage dance with caileng suddenly Angmo came up
So dance with him lor.
HE say Tt I m cute, shy
Went toilet,
Otw back to the table got a group of Angmo surround me
Anyhow touch touch :(
Went back table tell Donny , he wanna go after them as in beat:(
Found out Dionna vomited so ran over to find her
Caileng fall down and Sean saw
And Sean was like ok a not and ask me if I m ok a not cause a bit tipsy Liao
And he hug my waist a say take care :D
Oh Sean~
after awhile went home
Cause gt sch
And really Appreciate it, Alvin and desmond wanna send me home.
But I took a cab.

2010-12-14T17:15:00.002+08:00

MONDAY, 13 DECEMBER 2010
woke up early in the morning.
head to school for IT exam.
quite easy i guess, i didn't study for it.
cause my book is in harold or sujata locker. -.-
went tm to meet dionna and cailing after school.
watched THE HAUNTED HOUSE PROJECT.
scary :(
after that off to EHUB to sing.
dionna dance nice nice :D
went home after that.

TUESDAY, 14 DECEMBER 2010
which is today.
went to school for pastry exam.
hmm, easy and i didn't study for it as well.
same thing book with either sujata or harold.
went s11 with ah yang, gerwyn, shanhua and darren.
after that yishun with gerwyn and darren.
head back home.
somehow i found out, everyone is always out no one will be at home until after 9.
so decide to stay at home pei wo qiang ai de bibi

2010-12-12T12:25:00.003+08:00

YESTERDAY.
stayed at home.
went CQ to meet donny, kartono, jane , devid and his girlfriend.
burgerking for dinner.
and headed over to zirca.
i keep pulling devid's gf to the dance floor, was quite high that time i guess.
donny keep on want to dance with me.
two guys wanted to join us and we just walk away. (jane and i)
(handsome sure dance but kns walk away)
and when i m dancing with a guy , donny pull me away.
and say ALL MALAY!
i was enjoying myself, i swear!
dance almost everywhere.
smoke, dance in the smoking corner with my shoe removed.
and donny say SLUT, kartono say BITCH.
Donny keep telling me he love me and wanna get married.
and i was like SHOCK, and scared.
alvinpeh saw me!
zirca not much angmo.
went home, house is in a mess,
bibi pee on the floor.
and as for today im going to stay at home to study cause tml exam

2010-12-11T13:19:00.003+08:00

9 DECEMBER 2010.
went to school,
for extra lessons.
went crazy , i'm super tired due to last night clubbing session.
keep drawing on jane's hand.
and i dance chicken dance LOL
after school went hilltop for dinner with donny, devid and jane.
went home with devid.

10 DEcember 2010
tung lok for lunch with eugene.
meet donny at orchard.
cine makan wonton mee :D
after that head over to bugis for shisha.
(jane, lirong, kartono and donny)
hmmm, jane talk about marriage and breakup and all.
reminds me of someone.
but nvm, it's ok .
after that head over to sultan for ginger tea.
and cab home.

2010-12-08T15:12:00.004+08:00

SUNDAY, 5 december 2010
went J house,
left my dog there and went over to nex.
nothing much i guess.
had sushi tei with ben, dict, darren.

MONDAY, 6 december 2010
went Tm for lunch with leng at pizzahut
after that went over to bugis for STEAMBOAT.
(ya 2 lunch)
along with meiyan, her brother, dionna, bing hong.
went bugis street shopping after that k suite for a song.
hmmm,, caileng and dionna keep on disiao me and bing hong.
keep on say bing hong keep looking at me got chance lol
(not interested, only interested in R)
after that meiyan and her bro left.
the rest of us went over to dionna house.
meet 4 of dionna friend.
one of them drove us to kovan.
i tell you.
scary, can fly!
like racing like that -.-
when it was 11.59 i was like ONE MORE MINUTE.
and cailing was like OH NO!
when it hit 12, i shouted happy birthday, bing hong and i started attacking her hahaha.
awhile later bing hong and i cab home.

TUESDAY, 7 DECEMBER 2010
went over to leng house,
after that cab to airport for xinwang.
at the airport,
we went crazy.
me: faster eat! 15 mins to flight
leng: okok.
i even sms R that im at the airport, flying off to see my stefan.
didn't know that he treat it for real LOL.
i'm not someone who go after idiols!
i'm not so bo liao.
we acted like foreigners. fun fun!
even play clubbing song and dance inside the toliet.
YES, AIRPORT TOILET.
went back to tamp.
went yoshi.
hmmm, it's sad , they are closing down. (moving)
cause it's the place i met wk , it's the place i met leng(so call), it's the place i met R, it's a place where there's lots of memories.
we used to meet up , hang out there and now it's gone.
yup i will miss that place for sure.
it's the place where i celebrate my 16 birthday too!
ok well.
went jumbo seafood with leng and her family.
super paiseh.
cause i eat gd food, like buai paiseh.
after that her papa send me home.
super full.

TODAY,8 December 2010
went to school for the card thing.
30 mins and i'm done.
30 min school, 3 hjours traveling.
went mac with shanhua, gerwyn, darren, yang, donny and jane.
cab with donny n jane.
not going out!
i'm tired.
i'm in clubbing mood.
ya, totally.
sat going rebel.
hope R is going too aND I COULD SEE HIM

2010-12-04T12:33:00.001+08:00

YESTERDAY.
roam around tampines while waiting for that Botak boon to book out from camp.
went over to caileng house to meet her.
her kitchen is renovating so we could like walk around with shoes.
botak boon, my guardian angel came over to meet us.
went over to 813 to withdraw $$.
cab over to that mall or building where everything is about thai for thai steamboat.
ok well, somehow caileng and i got the wrong kind of attention.
because of the so call Q, we went bugis for steamboat instead.
i was sweet enough to serve boon, but he keep conplaining. argh !
cab down to BQ, x bar.
order martel, drink, finger game.
got kind of high already.
ben, puiman, wayne, jared, soonyi came.
whole xbar sang happy birthday song for caileng.
hahaha. the reason is because the boss came and ask me whóse birthday is it?
i was like oh it's my friend's and he ask me if i need everyone to sing a song for her and i say yes.
:D
i saw elson there.
so qiao.
told caileng that he's my cousin, she dont believe.
end up betting over it and she get to drink pure :D
( cannot believe cause too qiao liao )
after that cab down to ben house.
well, i can't really walk straight.
reach ben house downstair vomitted.
went up ben prepare water for me
went ben room to sleep while jared, puiman, caileng, boon and ben play cards.
OMG i cant sleep, i slept in the same bed as his dog.
she snore -.-
so irritating so went out to see, them play cards.
after that ben drove us home.
reach home, bibi was so excited.
woke up at 10 like less den 5 hours of sleep.
weather so cold.
vomitted again.
hangover .
as for today, i guess i'm not going zirca.
i dont feel good :(

2010-12-03T16:34:00.002+08:00

ah yang pack bee hoon for me :D
and i was like ah yang xie xie ai si ni le and doris keep copying.
-.-
learn marble cake.
break go library with donny, talk to benson. KIND OF.
oh ya jane, wilson, harold, joseph, kartono nv come.
pastry term with ah yang.
darren keep on disturb -.-
mix the dough, suddenly a little bit of it flew off.
and i was like ah yang dont anyhow shoot.
and darren was like OH yang ah dont anyhow shoot .
and everyone started laughing.
and of cause disturb me!
photo taking :D
since it's the last I.S.
cab home.

2010-12-02T21:00:00.002+08:00

reach school at 7.
otw to school saw wilson so had a little chat.
hmmm, i really hope he dont regret what he is doing.
devid came, harold came, kenyon came, shanhua came, kartono and bernard came.
went toilet change into chef uni.
down to solo 1 to prepare our japanese EC.
me cook beef n cut onions.
and bring food up to level 4.
go up and down up and down like 16 story high.
after school went bugis meet sujata :D
shopping :D
slack at subway.
went home.
otw home saw couple kissing.
like OMG dunno what to do , should i walk pass or walk away and i decided to walk pass.
and the stop i was like sorry to disturb , you may continue and walk away.
hahaha.

2010-12-01T19:01:00.003+08:00

Tuesday:
Went to school for mock interview.
After that beverage lesson!
Lunch with ah yang and gang.
Off for I.T lesson.
Skip lesson halfway, went traders hotel for an interview for trainee chef @ rasa shangrila
Service (human resource) at traders hotel really sucks!
Rasa Shangri la one way better lah.
Anw, went for interview, speechless!
The manager in late 20s quite gd looking.
After that tanglin to find Donny and wait for Jane.
Went makan!
Got a super cute service crew,
Jane even wrote in the paper:" hi I m Lynette u r cute this is my number"
But I Nv give, like weird only.
Went smoking.
Starbucks for coffee and train back to tamp with the both of them.
After Tt mum pick me up from t one :D

Wed:
Today.
School for supervision.
Smoke with Donny.
Some random
Guy from hotel management ask Wilson to call me to SMS him-.-
Like hello u wanna talk to me y wan me SMS you first?
Weird.
Donny make me cry, like ya!
Had a heart to heart talk.
He say I stupid!
Like freaking shock he found out Abt it cause no one knows
I didnt even mention Abt Tt person.
Beverage next, and after that fhh.
After sch have a talk with Donny.
He send me to inter.
Cut my hair, kns.

2010-11-29T17:07:00.002+08:00

YESTERDAY.
wasn't feeling that well so told rey i would be staying at home.
and he went for his chinese sensei thing.
in the end, caileng came over.
went tamp mall to meet puiman.
ate tempanyaki.
saw LAOGONG :DDDD
after soo long!
walk around and went home.

as for today.
well, intend not to go out.
but went over to get MC cause i decided to carry on endure a little more.
meet ah boon, he say he wan makan
so after that leng and domo kun came down.
makan again.
got lots of calls, i was freaking touched.
friends like them, cannot let go :D
walk arounf saw liping, liping boyfriend, and dionna came over as well.
slack with boon, leng, dionna and xiao hei.
xiao hei and boon disturb me :(
say what fat ppl got sound , skinny dont have.
den later i keep asking what it is den in the end found out it's something dirty -,-
ok well.
went home after that.
boon send me home.
soak in the rain, reminds me of how boon used to send me home hahaha.
as usual xin shi.
i'm going back to school tml :D
sorry people for making you worry

2010-11-27T19:18:00.005+08:00

as usual eugene came to pick me up but this time round he drove me over to bedok.
as he he need to send his drunk brother back home.
FYI, he's a good friend.
so yup train to school alone.
at bukit batok station saw devid.
so walk to school together.
and started talking about clubbing.
i told him, he would love it cause got a lot of girls who dress like slut.
and he say he's innocent -.-
reach school told him, i need to change he say nvm change in the classroom.
so yup this is what he meant by INNOCENT.
when i reach siahuat demo room, suwandi, devid and donny started talking about sex.
and i was like WTH, wrong timing.
lesson starts, harold, junyang, joseph keep disturbing me as chef lynn called me mingming.
(FYI, the one from the taiwan drama, ai)
so irritating.
went for lunch with joseph, harold, junyang, jane, azmi, shanhua, wilson, devid, kartono, bernard.
back to school for pratical.
ok well harold hit me.
got down on my knees,
junyang start disturbing.
say that my baby is gone, father killed his own son -.-
so run around wanting to hit harold,
chef bernard saw.
and he say he didn't know that i''m so fierce.
and even ask me to join army.
did muffin and scone,
as usual group with jane, junyang and harold.
bernard keep throwing chocolate bits around.
so irritating!
took a train home,
in the i wasn't able to meet jane and gang up for clubbing.
"MUM"
caileng and boon came over to my place.
and boon brought gifts from aus,
although i only got one but it's better den none, so dont worry i dont mind :)
walk over to ben house.
slack slack.
ben drove us to tampines one to meet rey.
went yishun for xin wang.
after ordering the food, caileng, boon and i went down to get cake and gifts.
and back to xin wang for food.
after eating everything the staff brought the cake over.
(for rey belated birthday)
sad to say he dont really eat/like cakes :(
but nvm.
went night market with boon, caileng while ben and rey talk about NS.
(they have been talking about it nonstop since they met)
ben drove rey home,
after that caileng back home.
and went over to pick jared up.
drove over to ben's house to get liquor and oso to fair price to get mixer.
after that bedok to pack food for mingming.
walked for a very long time.
and home sweet home.
reach home at about 12
message boon and rey.
and as for today.
i'm having a fever at 39.1 degree.
stay at home the whole day doing nothing :(
baby woke me up, his paw stink !

2010-11-27T09:31:00.003+08:00

24 november 2010
it's rey's birthday.
went to school, forgotten who send me there.
if i'm not wrong it should be eugene.
went to school's library to meet my role play mates.
ok well as usual i'm the punctual one, the rest all late.
jane acted as the environmental person,
shanhua acted as the shy shy quiet person,
harold acted as the boss,
azmi acted as the stress person who just got promoted and got a lot of work to do,
and for me i'm a diva person lol.
;X
the role play is about how to handle stress.
after that went over to canteen for food with shanhua azmi and jane etc.
i ate nothing, diet :D
for 3 days lose 2-3 kg :D
after that went back to school.
PHOTOTAKING :D
i took a total of 555 photos on that day.
excluding those i deleted.
wait for my turn for the mock telephone interview.
ok well, i screw everything up.
nervous.
i took red line home!
cause harld going woodlands no one accompany me back home so go yishun with gerwyn and shawn take bus home.
waited for an hour for the bus to arrive.
went tampines mall to meet caileng.
makan ding tai feng.
walk around go home.

25 november 2010
forget what i did.
i think i got meet caileng.

2010-11-23T21:54:00.003+08:00

went to school alone.
school starts at 9 but reach at 8 heng junyang was there to accompany me.
sleep.
harold, wilson, jane, bernard, gerwyn , joseph nv come so i'm like SIAN.
hang out with donny, darren, kartono all the way.
after school went shopping alone.
cause some NS some gf more important some schooling some sleeping some working.
no time for me :(
but after that meet clynston and weixiang.
went for a movie "harry potter"
and slack slack go home.
and i got a super sweeeeeeet sms from rey :D
hmmm, that's all for today i guess.
i'm so tired but must tahan till 12 to wish him happy birthday

2010-11-22T20:19:00.002+08:00

Sunday:
Went tung Lok with D.D, ben and darren at cq.
After that went home take knifeset, go over to joc house to cook for her, Jes ben and dict.

Today:
Early in the morning hatold suddenly called ask me if I need him to fetch me to sch nt.
And I say ok
So Simei to meet him.
Go west mall, smoke smoke.
Go sch find yang.
Sch starts with communication skills.
Got results and I pass ;)
After that presentation.
Group with Wilson joseph Harold n Jane
After Tt Mac with joseph Kartono Gerwyn Bernard yang Jane darren
Cab with jane
Tamp to meet caileng
Go food fair shop shop find Dionna
Den tm cs tone shopping.

2010-11-20T20:39:00.003+08:00

Today"s a sat.
No school, but we have to go back for make up lesson.
So went bukit batok, someone drove me to sch;)
Mummy :)
Meet Sujata at Mac.
Off to Siahuat for demo
Learn peach strudel, cream puff and eclair.
Went for lunch with the usual and back to sch for pratical.
Group with Jane.
Take turns.
After sch rush back tamp, find puiman meet Larry, Alvin and bear.
Pass them puff and off to meet mum for dinner
Benjamin staying over today
And thank boy for carrying my bag.

2010-11-19T16:50:00.003+08:00

THREE WORDS
buai ta han.
ok well, being a vegetarian didn't turn out well.
i'm back on meat!
but i still pity those cute little animals which we ate.
So vegetarian who eats fish :D
Anw i'm not refering to chicken cause as i say before i hate animals with feather.
they are freaking disgusting. And also because I am afraid of them
Well this morning went bukit batok"s mac to meet su.
i'm in shorts and t :D
breaking school rules once again.
i'm in green contacts today :D
but a lot of people say it's blue -.-
some even say grey-.-
Must be colour blind:)
went KFC to get breakfast for sister in law. ( vampire diaries. Jane love Damon and I love stefan so she became sister in law)
and off to school for demo!
learn to make buns with fillings.
well.
after demo rush to west mall to get jane's hair net.
and after that I.S
pissed off.
our class is divided into 2 groups one with chef lynn and one chef bernard.
i'm with the boys and jane as well.
and guess what we did bun without fillings while the other half of the class got fillings.
like WTF we pay same amount of school fee den those so call por mentor one got fillings.
den we all dont have.
like WTF LA.
i'm so going to complain.
tsk!
Wilson say he can kick my head and I say I can too.
And I really did but , happened to kick his hand, I'm sorry.
Ah yang keep disturbing me :(
cab with jane home after school.
Intended to pass Alvin my bun, but didn't meet him

2010-11-18T20:31:00.002+08:00

Early in the morning DES drove me home,
Change and head over to bukit batok.
Today"s a very special day!
It's the 18 of the month which means 8 more days :)
For what?
Boonie coming back to Singapore!
I miss him so much, my listener :)
Anw otw to sch, saw Wilson so stop and ask him why is he standing here
And he say waiting for Harold,
So I say ok bb.
Den he ask me to wait with him.
So wait for Harold and off to school.
Brought Coffee for Sujata.
Went smoking corner with Donny.
Back to demo room for discussion.
Im the only girl in the group.
Devid damn pervert!
Wilson bend down he do the f action on Wilson-.-
And I saw it!
Later he pull joseph pants down.
And I saw it!
Omg!
And I got bar from all the exams!
Cause sch say I nv pay sch fee when I did.
Complaint and all they say was sorry -.-
And you know what SHatec represent?
Super Horrible Academe That Eat Cash.
After sch went west mall makan with doony.
Sakae sushi I ate sushi, tempura udon, coke, chawamushi.
And all Donny ate was ice lemon tea and curry udon.
-.- I eat so much.
Anw I help Donny complain chicken nt cook.
And all they reply was oh the chicken is cook -.-
WTF, I'm a chef too, I know what is cook what is nt!
Went t mall shopping alone -.-
Cause caileng take her own sweet time, as usual.
She arrived went popeye makan.
Walk around tmall, t one, cs.
Went to look for liping, chit chat.
And off to kallang collect pay.
After that intended to meet bear and Wilson and Alvin but nv
Went jack place makan
And back home :)

2010-11-17T19:06:00.002+08:00

No comments
Was a boring day I guess.
So I'm not going to talk abt today.
My twit twit will tell you what I had done today.

Nt going arena Today I guess.
Sorry Jane dar dear.
Next time my treat :)

2010-11-16T18:53:00.002+08:00

Went to sch super early.
But before that went over to find Eugene, he say gt something he need to tell me in person.
Reading my book while walking there, knock on his door and his mum open
And I was like crying, cause stress cannot remember a single thing
And his mum hug me and say baobei don cry in hokkien.
(she dote me a lot, treat me like her own daughter)
And I was like I just stress nothing happened :)
And den later a bird flew pass, I cry more and shouted.
And eugene was behind his mum from the start laughing at me saying drama!
Tsk and the thing he wan to say to me is gd luck for ur paper-.-
He think it's more sincere tt way-.-
And I was like a total waste of time and wanting to walk away and he was Like grab me from behind
N hug me say sorry don angry.
At that moment wow so touching, told him it's touching and told him too bad he's nt my prince charming
N he say tsk go la go la bye bye la lol.
And I went bukit batok.
Study at big umbrella there with Bernard and kartono after that Wilson came.
Went to class after studying.
Ezan nv come, Charmaine take over.
2.5 hours break.
Went xanteen with darren Jane and gerwyn
After that back to sch for beverage test.
Omg what I remembered I suddenly forget.
Too nervous-.-
After exam bugis with feizai, junwei , gerwyn and Jane.
Topone with gerwyn n Jane
And after that train home
Someone drove me home:)
I got a bunch of sunflowers from c.
Thanks love you buddy :)
And Royce from Alvin.
Thanks precious :)
Anw few days back dad called me with a shocking decision.
He ask me if I'm interested in taking over his company a not lol.
And I rejected.
Cause after this course, I wan go back to my modeling agent. Sign on contract.
2012, go ite learn hair fashion and design.
Year 2014, choose between culinary and hair fashion.
Or maybe full time modeling :)
Wonder y modeling right when I quitted for quit sometime?
Cause manager called, he ask me to go back to the company :)
So y nt, I enjoyed those days.
Chris called and guess what he say I change quite a bit
From qian jing to nt so qian jing at least now I cook?! In sch
Last time just sit there wait for food.
But I still don do housework, wash my own clothes, cook my own meal, and etc.
I don even know to to iron clothes.
Lol.
So he say my future husband sway.
Nvm , maid :)

2010-11-15T23:32:00.002+08:00

Guess what?!
I'm having rashes now :(
Maybe cause I ate prawns :(
Itchy!!!!!!!! Omg !!!!
Ok this morning, train to bukit batok with chef lawrance.
Off to Mac for breafast with Sujata,
Got a message from joseph.
He ask me go simei study with Harold n him.
Which mean skip sch.
And they are nv the study type so I rejected.
And my excuse to them was sorry I'm not hopeless like u guys -.-
Harold call me to go and die.
Sch for supervision and communication skills.
Went super crazy told Donny I'm attached with Stefan and he ask who and I say very hot guy and he give tt -.- face
And I told him Bernard know Stefan as well and Bernard agree Stefan hot :)
We gt kind of addicted to vampire diaries and started acting like we are in it
My bands , the guys watches, Jane necklace to prevent us from the sun.
(acting Like vampires)
Ah yang keep on disturb me :(
Next lesson ahc,
No appitite I promise from today onwards I will become a vegetarian.
When chicken are killed for their flesh, they cried. Seeing them torture cows and etc.
I almost cried so sad :(
Lunch time walk to canteen and Bernard was like let's go mistic falls. Lol
And the canteen became mistic falls coffee shop Chinese version lol.
And I ate vegetarian dishes!
Otw back to sch I was Like walking in front suddenly Donny carry me from behind.
Scary! I keep shouting and kicking -.-
Went for it lesson.
As usual in the pro:)
Hehehehehe
After sch airport to study with Donny Jane darren gerwyn
Gerwyn treat:)
And Donny say it's the first time he see me so serious
Hehehehehe
Went home alone cause gerwyn insisted on taking a bus while me train.
Tml exam wish me luck.
Thanks boonsiong n rey for wishing :)
Love love :)

2010-11-14T19:18:00.002+08:00

Planning chalet with ah ben and ah boon.
Takes forever!

Nogurt from boon when he get back from aus :)

2010-11-14T09:07:00.003+08:00

GUESS WHAT?!
i woke up this morning, eyes were wide open and guess what i did?
i poke my eyes with my own finger 0.0
and the wierd thing is i don't know why i did that for.
like kena guai shang shen like that. LOL.
and IT HURTS! BADLY!
was super sick yesterday.
daddy got me abalone frog porridge.
and you know what ? I HATE FROG! cause it looks disgusting! and i dont eat frog.
thinking of the eyes, the tongue and the skin. eww disgusting.
make me feel like puking.
last night went CP.
dance, drink, laugh.
and fainting -.-
skip that and for today.
i'm going to cook lunch for mummy and my idiotic brother.
:D

2010-11-13T21:25:00.001+08:00

Theres a journey call life.
Well I'm bored.

I need entertainment!!!!
I want go rebel with them!!!!
But I'm sick :(
New episode of vampire diaries season 2 is uploaded,
Sweeeeeeeeeet
Thanks Bernard :)

2010-11-12T08:05:00.004+08:00

almost everyone in class is crazy over vampire diaries.
ok la not really crazy, only me i guess.
but almost everyone is watching that show now.
it became the main topic we talk about?
as usual girls will be like OH HE"S HOT.
and boys will be like SHE"S HOT.
hahaha.
but really, stefan hot! but i like damon character easpecially how he treat elena.
choing on gossip girls later on.
edited~~
ok well, got kind of sian after watching gossip girls.
well, didn't watched that for quite sometime so was like sian of it already.
hmmm,
downloaded some songs from vampire diaries :D
and i find it sweet if damon and elena end up together.
well.
stuck at home watcing drama.
i'm bored.
too lazy to leave the house, too lazy to even go down get lunch.
i'm hungry, no one to buy lunch for me :(
ok well, was more like im lazy to even pick up my phone to ask.

i know i havent been myself later.
i'm sorry about that, me being so rude keep scolding jancok, F*U and etc.
maybe im become what i am before?
a bitch?
idk, give me time, i will change back, trust me!
getting quite emotion about harold playing my feelings , for the past few weeks.
but i'm still alive, breathing!
thinking about it , cool down, UNDERSTAND maybe why this happened?.
he's not really the guy i love, love.
it''s just that, that time we both just broke up with our bf/gf and we were close.
so we kind of misunderstood think friendship for something more that?
i'm just a tool to spark his ex gf and now they are back together.
and maybe mine was also to spark my ex bf that i could leave even without him?
or something like that?
and maybe because he gave me a feeling i had before thinking that , that's love but it was actually that ?
maybe it's just that the little something is still in my mind, i couldnt let go of?
ya i know it's been so long.
but it still affect me a little, my im trying my best to get over it.
like hey come on, he is the first guy i really tried to have, but destroy it.
ok well, but i did enjoy those good times with him lah, if you know what i mean.
this kind thing comes and go , oso make a person stronger right.
maybe i should stop rushin gthings and let nature takes its place.

recently a good friend ask me
" when are you intending to settle down like really going into a serious relationship"
the truth is, there's still a little something i'm still unable to let go of .
like for example, i thought i like this person, ended up together, when we argued it's not my bf who i think of, it's actually the memories of the past which i was reminded of, the words he say, and all. so it's like i still have someone in mind and i'm just treating my bf as a replacement. something like that. love my bf not cause i really love him but actually because his actions remind me of him thats why i like him.
get it?
so now i just wanna be alone, until this thing ends.
ps: not tt i still love him but more of memories, actions and words which i cant forget?

2010-11-11T20:23:00.002+08:00

Ok well some of you should know ,
I'm a huge fan of vampires.
And yup recently I got super addicted over it again
Like hell ya, did some research.
Vampire doesn't exist :( how I wish they are.
Anyway,
Found myself another show called vampires diaries complete season one in 2 days
Now waiting for season 2 ep9 to come out
Well stefan is super hot love his figure, his face!
And also damon, his bad boy side and also the sweet romantic side.
Oh well, back into lala land.
How I wish I'm able to have a vampire bf,
Cool isn't it!
Well ignore.

2010-11-10T15:11:00.002+08:00

Hello, miss me? :D

sorry for not blogging yesterday, was busy studying.

for my test! YES LYNETTE IS STUDYING.

since it's the last term of school why not just get good grades right.

i mean like ya, it wouldn't hurt right.

i wanna pass this time round so i wouldn't have to retake my exams.

1 subject fail = $75 pay for retake no retake equal no cert.

so, so far i had far 3 subjects which mean 75 x 3 = $225

will be retaking them after my intership which is like mid august next year ?

ok well let me begin.

yesterday, tuesday.

as usual, harold would ask me to meet him at simei and he will pick me up from there and his dad will drive me over to bukit batok.

but guess what, i told him i will be taking a train to B.B instead.

i dont want be the bitch which make people think i'm trying to break him and his gf up.

and also to stop myself from all those wishful thinking.

so yup.

first day in this term i'm taking a train to school all alone.

well i kind of love it.

cause time alone, think all i want, peace for 1.5 hours.

(so yup 1.5 hours on travelling )

reach B.B headed to mac to meet sujata.

and off to school for communication skills test.

well heng i studied. piece of cake :D
lunch with azmi shanhua devid sujata and jane.

back to school for I.T lesson.

i'm a pro at it. hehehe.

went back home in cab with weiliang, jane and cheese.

vomitted, motion sickness -.-

cs to buy ingredients for my slimming plans.

wooohoooo.

went home studied.

Today, wednesday.

told harold i will be taking a train so yup went to school alone.

meet sujata at mac.

went to school for supervision test.

ok well harder but can still pass i guess.

lunch with kartono donny shanhua azmi .

back to school for AHC.

combine class with B class.

irritated by donny.

he keep asking me to be his gf -.-

after school waited for jane and darren with kartono.

had a talk with kartono and off to mac with jane after that.

and went home.

got a shock from zy.

he told me he at court

and after that court thing he called me and guess what

i thought he's really involved in the 369 killing thing at downtown.

and i really thought he's going to be sentenced to death

but heng he just went court see his friend -.-

almost cried.

like well he's my best friend, i would want nothing to happen to him .

if he's out of my world,

who will be here to entertain me ?

who will lend me a shoulder to cry on ?

who will cheer me up?

who will call me go CP slack?

who will protect me when got taiji?

who will replace you if you leave?

i want nothing to happen to you guys ok, so dont do stupid things...

heng it's just a joke cause i know if you are gone my world will be different.

6 years friendship leh!

i wouldnt let you die just like that.

and you fucking retarded dont scare me like tt anymore.

2010-11-08T14:32:00.002+08:00

i AM A FUCKING FAT BITCH.
just woke up,
irritated, hate it when people keep calling me/my phone when i didn't pick up!
especially when im sleeping!
hate it to the max.
those who have been with me for years should know, if i'm irritated when i'm sleeping.
my temper will be super bad throughout the day.
so yup today mood totally spoiled.
a total of 47 missed call,28 unread messages.
irritating to the max.
fuck you people, jancok people , get a life!
fucking no life, knowing that people isnt free still keep calling like crazy.
if you enjoy calling, call your own cellphone instead bicthes!
i dont need this kind of entertainment.
cause it just irritates me.

RandomZ

2010-11-08T07:53:00.003+08:00

k1-2
5-6 years old, @ PAP pasir ris.
always want mummy and daddy to be around.
will cry if they aren't.

primary 1-3
7-9 years old, @ white sand primary.
quiet school girl.
go home after school everyday.
mummy's little girl.

primary 4-6
10-12 years old, @ junyuan primary.
quiet school girl.
at the age of 10, bullied by puiman.
at the age of 11, started hanging out with bengs and lians.
at the age of 12, always go escape on sat with friends, 3 dollar cotton candy :D

secondary 1
13 years old, junyuan secondary
quiet school girl.
puiman taught me and jocelyn , a secondary school shouldnt wear high socks, long skirt.
so over time , skirts became shorter and shorter and teacher never fail to catch.
jocelyn, puiman and i became sisters, always stick together like glue.
always go safra play bowling.
together with a guy name jinhui.
top in class for math getting 90+, promoted to NA maths, while the rest in NT.

secondary 2
14 years old, junyuan secondary
no longer a quite school girl.
started to walk into a path of an ah lian.
always go down 813, riding days to east coast park and pasir ris park was unforgettable.
together with a guy name yaofeng.
started smoking but quite after awhile

secondary 3
15 years old, junyuan secondary
started working at yoshinoya.
super bad, people in front of me walk very slow i will be like KNN can walk faster a not.
super interested with a guy at mos burger.
always stand at counter see him -.-
maths started to get bad.

secondary 4
16 years old, junyuan secondary.
meet someone who was so called my first love.
always go down yoshinoya boonsiong will teach me maths.
this year was a year for movies.
life started to change since den.
stop being so ah lian-nish, no more argueing from mama.
i NEVER GET EXTRA pocket money from my parents.
i spend my own allowance on my hp bills, clothes, food, etc with my budget
( monthly aLLOWANCE)
dont get extra, maybe once every few months just 50 dollars extra but i will treat them for dinner (repay)
so i think people who still take extra pocket money from parents and parents still paying for ur hp bills are super useless, hopeless.
especially if u are above 20!
started smoking again
took up photography, went into the world of modeling.
learned on how to become a woman, the right way to eat, sit, talk.
took up singing lessons as well

ITE life/ victorylife.
17 years old, simei ite, christian school.
went into simei ite for nursing courses, but drop out within 3 days cause i dont think it's my kind of thing.
everyday go down simei ite do nothing until march.
(go find hair fashion design guys and caileng and also marcus)
around march went into a christian school @ aljunied.
ok well not really my kind of thing so drop out during august.
the most unforgettable day was the sunset and the LAST DAY.
towned everyday with babes.
living a life like no tml.
took up drumming, hiphop.

shatec
18 years old, shatec
know who is gd and who is bad
know who truly love you and who are just playing with you.
seen a lot of people who just go for branded, waste money like drinking water.
well i dont go for branded goods.
to me what are brands? brands are nothing.
as long as it's nice that will do doesnt need to be branded goods.
i would rather spend money on clothes at bugis street den clothes at branded shops.
and i would rather spend money on food and beverage.
a year of drink drank drunk
the only year which i nv really celebrate my birthday with my friends.
a so call family year.
this is a year which i also see , what the real world really is.
people always compare .

well getting rather emotional, im sorry

2010-11-07T23:17:00.002+08:00

Darling sick so didnt meet her today.
Went over 911 meet puiman.
Trained over to vivo and had beijing duck while waiting for Yongshen
When he arrived, off to universe studio.
Started off with selling of ticket, cause darling sick got extra ticket so wanna sell
But kena scold stop the selling and went into universe studio
First ride was mini roller coaster, cool fun! Hahaha
Second was Sherk, watching the movie, chair can move one leh!
When donkey sneeze, got water one lol.
Next was another roller coaster, from the dinosaur world
like wth my shoes wet!
But fun, shouted a bit xD
Next was another roller coaster.
Was so call forced to play.
I'm afraid of heights. Don't dare quite fast.
But In the end I did play.
Wa Lao leg nothing to step on, nothing to hold onto and So u know la shout lor!
But nt as scary as expected.
Last game was the making of movies thingy.
Quite fun.
Over all , japan universe studio better more game
Singapore one less den 10 -.-
Plus not much photo taking to be done.
Off to vivo for movie
"duedate"
I almost sleep. Boring with some funny parts.
After show Yongshen went over to get cake, so meet him at marche
Dinner at marche, sing song cut cake back home.
Puiman typical Singaporean:)

2010-11-06T20:56:00.002+08:00

Actually suppose to meet Jane, Donny and some myanmar guys who can speak like angmo.
To where?
Club lah!
But den leh, I'm like stuck at home watching tv.
Wonder y?
Cause I have been out early in the morning, coming back home late at night for the past one week.
And mum complain that I have totally forgotten about this family.
And also say I treat this house like a hotel.
So decided to stay at home be a good mama girl for today.
Being a good mama girl, sooooo sian.
Morning wake up, facebook facebook facebook.
Watch anime, nothing to do, go back sleep.
Wake up facebook facebook facebook, makan, tv, sleep.
And this keeps repeating.
No life, I know!
But nevermind, I will endure!
Tomorrow going universe Studio, hope it doesn't rain if not ,
Waste my 72 dollars!
Well I miss boyfriend :(

2010-11-06T10:05:00.002+08:00

YESTERDAY.
went over to bugis to meet limin, jocleen , her sis and didi.
went over for dessert and off to bugis street for some shopping for meimei's clothes.
walk around with didi and jocleen, while limin and meimei go shopping.
ok well. this season not my kind of thing.
cause it looks like ah lian dressing.
ok well, went iluma thinking of kbox-ing so went to k suite but guess what 33 dollars per person without drinks.
like so ex la please so skip it and went over to get something eat.
share pasta with jocleen and headed back to junction for movie.
megaMIND, did wanna watch so dont mind watching.
ok well, the movie no comment.
LOLS.
went over kallang for dinner.
with their parents.
steamboat.
KNS.
fish not fresh!
gave didi my rice :D
he damn cute la serious , i wish i have a brother like him.
cause my brother is a super asshole.
ok well.
tata.
meeting x3 in an hour time

2010-11-04T21:51:00.002+08:00

Went for facial.
M say wanna pick me up after that but didn't turn up, say will be late so
Went home alone.
Pin up my hair going to mall, didn't do that for such a long time feel so weird
Weiming say cause I'm getting more and more vain that's why I feel wierd
Ok well went home.
Rest , run.
Meet Eugene weiming Vick and zack for movie
The last exorcism:)

2010-11-03T23:00:00.002+08:00

As usual harold dad send me over to school.
Burger king with yang and Harold
Wilson nv come cause sick.
Went voiddeck slack,
Bird flew beside me .
Shock -.-
And suddenly started fighting.
And u know what sad to say I'm afraid of bird!
Since long long time ago, and ever since tt time I nv step a foot into jurong bird park.
Know y?
Pri 4, bird shit on me in sch hall, kena my shoe. Heng!
Went bird park feed bird, bird don wan eat food, so call attack me-.-
Harold n yang keep laughing at my actions.
Brought 1.5 l coke for Zhen Hao.
Thought ytd he ask me buy, was for real so brought it in the end he say he kidding only
First lesson did revision.
After that communication and supervision.
Went lunch with Harold Donny yang shanhua azmi joseph Bernard Jane and etc
Back to school for beverage and fhh
After that briefing for internship.
I choose shangri-la @sentosa :)
Told Donny to marry me
Told shanhua I love him and ask him to marry me
Told gerwyn, darren, yang the same thing
Know y?
Went crazy. Donny keep asking me to marry him and so I played along as well
After that told Donny I wanna break and so went over to find my lawyer.
Which is the vending machine lol I know lame!
Was bored. Just went crazy! Like really.
High ttm.
After sch bugis with Jane and Donny for steamboat with 2 of Jane friends
Laugh Like hell.
Dirty jokes and enjoyed.
Shisha with Donny and Jane.
Got kind of irritated cause Donny keep flirting with me with his sweet talks and etc
Train home.
Otw home he SMS me wanna be my gf and I say no
And later he say I forget something and I say what
Guess what he replied? He say u forget ny heart -.-
Idiot Donny! Keep disturb me.
Reached tamp, M pick me up from inter and drove me home :)
So sweet :)
Hehhehehe.

If suddenly,
I became a lesbian or if I'm so afraid of people telling they love me and etc u will know y.
Cause all thanks to Donny .
Lol.

2010-11-02T20:16:00.002+08:00

Went simei to meet Harold
As usual his dad fetch us over to bukit batok.
Went interchange there makan.
Damn paiseh Harold and junyang laugh at me :(
You know y ? Cause I bang wall.
Was like looking inside the shopping, thinking that the door is beside me
So I turn and hahahahahaha. You know what happened after that.
:( paiseh.
After that Wilson came ,went school.
Cockroach drop from aircon, devid kill it.
After that Wilson smash it.
And so please rest in peace .
Communication skill and supervision went down to buy drink came back up, got fooled
Shanhua take paper, put the cockroach inside and put it on my table.
Didn't notice so I slam my bag on top
And everyone was like omg!
And I was like what?
Den open paper , saw a flat cockroach :(
At least I'm brave enough to throw it inside the bin.
And cause I'm wearing jacket, they keep on disturb me, pretend to put things"cockroach" inside.
Donny keep asking me to marry him lol
I.T lesson was bored like back
In secondary school when we learn CPA. Totally the same
After sch hilltop drink and makan with Donny and Jane
After Jane left Donny and I went drink with Tony
And went home hahahaha.

2010-11-01T21:53:00.003+08:00

Today.
went over to x3 house.
after that lavender to return uniform and off to somerset 313 for lunch.
after that went over to far eat for some shopping.
in the end nv get anything.
saw jeffrey's girlfriend.
went over to iluma, k suite.
had tea :) if sujata was here she will love it.
after singing went bugis street walk walk.
saw logann.
after that to bugis juntion saw dionna, mei yan and thessa.
went pastamania for food and off to another place for steamboat.
can u imagine! spending everything on food today ?!
my worst den water came over to find out.
hahaha.
awhile later he left.
went TM, omg i saw a stalker!
the 2 guys from bugis follow us to tamp just to smile LOL.
ok la they quite cute :D
went cs saw liping.
chit chat.
went home.

2010-10-31T17:21:00.004+08:00

EDITED~
was at jay's house just now
after that went G.M house.
otw there, brought bubble tea as usual milk tea with pearl .
the aunty say no pearl jelly can and i was like ok :)
in the end KNS. milk tea and jelly not a good conbination.
i miss my koii.
reach G.M house ate wonton :D
and off to Thomson road for steamboat with jay, jes, ben, dict.
walking towards the location, jay say bryan stay near here and i was like oh ya.
that day was valentines day, i got a hand full of roses and bryan went over to pick me up and people disiao LOL.
BTH.
miss those days with them.
nvm this christmas XD
ok well.
the table in front, china, behind also china.
and so i'm like super pissed cause freaking noisy!
they are shouting like nobody business.
so i started staring and one china girl also stare and all the staring begin.
-.-
wanted to order tiger beer but rejected :(
went walk walk for awhile and jay's dad send me home.
they laugh at the things i say :(
i say" chef cannot find good husband, all old old lao ti ko one , handsome one also gay. if not leh fat den stomach big big."
and they say wo bian fei le. :(
when i got home, reyrey send me a message.
"hey baby girl, i miss you as well"
hehehehe.

i'm going to meet my precious darling tomorrow :D
lavender and bugis :D

2010-10-31T08:32:00.002+08:00

YESTERDAY.
everyone left house super early,
and someone came over to my house super early as well and that's none other den eugene.
crazy ass, i'm still super sleepy.
he brought breakfast for me. :D
as usual watch anime.
he say i have a very boring life LOL but who cares.
he left after a while , and so i went back to sleep LOL.
went international seafood restaurant for dinner with D.D
ok well, can't keep my eyes off the guy at the next table and also the table behind me.
the table behind me wa lao, come here eat, still keep on kpkb say what this and tt will fat. what so ever.
see their size, weight 80 over la, so fat still scared fat.
some more see free calender, keep asking the service ppl if they could have somemore
AUNTIES-.-
and for the guy at the next table quite handsome lei.
did talk to them a little.
and was chatting with eugene at the same time as well and he say, LYNETTE you never change.
LOL.
and for some reason he's kind of pissed of , sorry baby :(
(cause he say i very flirt, when i'm not i'm just friendly and it's them who talk to me first. it's rude not to reply right)
went home after that.
james suddenly phone me and ask me if im together with eugene-.-
just because we are close doesnt mean we are together,
just friends who can so call click well?
i'm not intending to commit into something so soon.
like really ya cause there's still a little thing i'm still unable to let go of.

2010-10-29T16:01:00.002+08:00

ok well.
i didn't sleep the whole night just because i'm afraid i wouldnt be able to wake up the next morning, to text him.
so i kind of miss school, and also miss my facial and body massage appointment.
so i'm like rotting at home the whole day,
sleeping and also watching my drama.
eugene came over to accompany me and keep saying that i'm mad.
cause i cried and keep cursing the com (drama)
ok well.
harold, donny, darren, gerwyn, wilson and bernard went genting today,
will be coming back on sunday.
so it will be 3 days, 72hours, 4320minutes, 259200seconds.
intend to go night safari tomorrow with besties.
but all tickets fully book, expect for sunday, when i got plans on sunday lah!

when i saw the things he wrote to her ,
it used to hurt a lot but now,
can't even be bothered.
when i couldnt see him for a day,
i will miss him like hell,
but now i dont.
has my feelings faded?
or was it that i know he wouldn't be mine again?
yuan lai wo mei you xin xing zhong de na me ai ta.
maybe because at that time the both of us just broke off with our parts and are very close friends, so things get a little complicated?
mistaking this friendship for that special feeling?
maybe that applys to him, but for me that period of time i really love you a lot.
i'm sad that you have to go, but touched that you still love her so much even when she did all those things to you.

2010-10-28T20:55:00.003+08:00

Just got home, tired.
Well morning , as usual went simei to meet Harold, his father drove me to school.
Meet yang , had burgerking.
Wilson came, went school.
Demo in solo one, today learn sushi and niku tofu.
So made all those lor with Jane azmi and shanhua.
Shanhua Keep on say me
Gerwyn keep disturb me with that love sick thing.
After school went Donny house
Den cab home with Donny, Jane and Harold
Went home chiong on my drama.
Awhile late Baby Eugene came
Wa I tell you.
Touching!
Cried, the drama very touching.
N u know why touching?
Shi and chenmeng is actually couple,
Den later chenmeng and shi broke up,
Shi say give her one more chance,
Chenmeng say he nv like her from the start, he like qiaoqi, be with her nt cause he like her but just for the things she done for him.
Shi cried and change, went chenmeng house cook for him, clean his house etc, even when chenmeng chase her out and scold her with those hurtful words.
She do all this for him, he oso don wan her, she got dunno what cancer he oso don care.
Like wth lor. She do so many things really change for him, he don wan give her chance. Den qiaoqi so evil say wanna change oso nv change, he wan her.
So unfair right!
(like me oso)
I can be 100 times better den her. Tsk!
And Eugene was like crazy! Say I nv entertain himLol
After my drama and phone call from nat, went dance room practice:)
Abt one hour later went home,
Know y?
Nat meeting gf -.-

2010-10-27T21:42:00.003+08:00

got kind of pissed after seeing that drama of mine.
ok well zhenmeng and shi shi were like together.
shi shi did a lot of things for zhenmeng .
things which are like soooooo damn sweet.
bad points of her is like always find fault, always argue den ask for break.
arya!
shi shi is a very stubborn girl, someone very similar to me, i admit.
but guess what?
zhenmeng fallen in love with qiao qi!
like wtF right.
together den like another girl.
still dont wan admit, break already den tell shishi he like qiao qi.
like wtf like, this show look abit like mine right.
ahahahaha.
so like WTF la.
shi shi still like zhenmeng den he like qiaoqi, shishi wanna woo back zhenmeng, zhenmeng reject ask her to give up,
like same ah.
LOL.
and the ending sucks!
zhenmeng end up with qiao qi?
what about shi shi HUH
shishi so nice to him, qiao qi treat him so bad he still wan.
like wTF la!
shishi rough, make up a lot, fatter so what, she wouldnt lose to qiao qi what.
why cant give shishi another chance?
will die ah.
lol
sorry, ke siao liao.
(bringing my own ^% &^%#*& into this drama)
LOL
paiseh
just ignore

2010-10-27T19:09:00.003+08:00

guess what im doing now?
i'm laughing my lungs out all because of my precious baby.
he's like barking when i try to take his toy away from him and guess what,
he hide his toy inside the cage.
ok well let's talk about today.
as usual harold's father brought me to school.
breakfast with ah yang and harold.
meet wilson, off to school for supervision.
it's a cold day.
harold didnt really pay much attention cause almost the whole lesson he's playing the pig game.
lunch time, canteen with jane, harold, azmi, shanhua, sean, junyang, wilson, bernard, kartono, gerwyn and i dunno how if i have miss out some?
sang a song and suddenly ask jane if she want me, love me etc.
and azmi was like ask shanhua and so i did i ask him , you love me ?
and he was like shy shy ignore me LOL
(ok well, dont really remember this part, STM)
ok walk back to school with jane, azmi, shanhua while the rest took a bus.
beverage lesson.
i swear freaking cold! plus 2 gays behind me.
joseph and gerwyn.
and somehow joseph got angry and left, went home first.
xiao qi bao.
bite harold's hand, forget what happened.
second time -.-
the previous one still blue black , so i guess bite quite hard?
sorry.
ah yang put stick on my ba, i dunno den kartono told me and i was like scolding ah yang and suddenly harold and i got into a little so call argument?
harold start to ignore me,
dunno what to do
at that time my mind was blank , the only thing i could think of is
" OH MY GOD HOW HOW HOW, should i talk to him, or should i just leave him alone, what if i talk to him he feel irritated den hate me? den what if i nv talk to him , we will never talk to each other again"
and i m really very scared that he will hate me.
you know why?
cause i have already lost him as a x3, i dont wish to lose him again.
went home, got a news from eugene there's a hip hop competition , wonder if i should join or not.
hmmmm.......

well the reason why a girl wouldn't let a guy go after all they been through is because all the effort will be washed down the drain, every sour relationship is something the girl would want to treasure even more as in created a better memory? but guys just hate sour relationship, sick and tired den say bye bye i dont love you anymore. but have guys ever thought wwhy girls are so stubborn, why girls always push you to someone else even when they know you love them? CAUSE THEY LOVE TO BE PAMPER , THEY WANT YOU TO TELL HER THAT YOU LOVE HER AND ONLY HER, once is never enough.

TSK!
now time for my love sick part, ignore!
especially GERWYN!
ahhahahaha.
start:
I REALLY DUNNO WHAT'S HE THINKING OF! I REALLY LOVE HIM A LOT, TILL NOW FEELINGS DIDNT FADE, BUT IT IS REAL THAT HIS FEELINGS HAVE FADED CAUSE HOW CAN FEELINGS FADE SO FAST ONE, OR WAS IT THAT HE DOESNT LOVE ME FROM THE START. OH MAN! I DUNNO LAH. HE GOT HIS PRINCESS LIAO, NVM . TOGETHER CAN BREAK, MARRIED CAN DIVORCE.
I AM TRYING TO CHANGE INTO SOMEONE BETTER, CAN'T YOU SEE IT ? BABY?

2010-10-26T18:30:00.003+08:00

yesterday told jane,
how i wish H and i could be like how we used to be, going out together, crap like we used to and etc but all this wouldnt happened anymore cause things have change but guess what?!
today was indeed something no one could expect.
the thing i so call wished, happened, but with a slight change ?
change as in last time we were so call couples but now as friends.
though time we had when we are so called together were little, memories did flash back.
especially those days when we went shangri-la, looking for his mum, eating with his mum and dad, and orchard for his mini wallets.
so now let me tell you about today.
lesson start late cause mentor is sick so went over to simei to meet harold at 10.30am.
after meeting him, found out that mentor went re-service so no lesson? or something like that.
so went queensway shopping centre with him to get his new specs.
thats the second time i went there with him.
as usual i cant stand the smell!
after collecting his spec, went makan and also to find his jacket for malaysia trip.
(go malaysia equal new spec, new bag, new jacket)
after that went orchard to look for his mum.
since she's working went round orchard looking for bag and food.
hmmm, he's really eating more and more.
happy people eat more ? or was it stress people eat more?
he brought me over to see the happy ending shop LOL.
(you will know what i meant by that if you are in my class)
after that went over to find his dad.
had dinner with them and his father drove me home.
ok well, i did enjoy myself.
i'm happy cause things look like the same as before,
for the like so call first time we didnt have slight argument or things which just make each other pissed,
and also he look happy today.
everything seems so peaceful when he's around.
he still mean a lot to me, like before.
how i wish, things..............,,.
ok nevermind.
stop dreaming, face the fact that he's gone

2010-10-25T17:34:00.002+08:00

harold's dad fch me to school as usual.
meet darren, wilson, ah yang for breakfast.
off to school change to cl 9
enza didn't come so another mentor taught us from 9-10 and we are able to go home .
went wstt mall with bernard, jane wilson and harold
watch paranormal activities 2.
sat beside harold, he keep on stare at the enpty sit beside me!!!!
make me scared -.-
idiot, as usual he fall asleep during the movie.
WHY GUYS LIKE TO SLEEP DURING SHOWS!
ONE ANOTHER EXAMPLE IS CLYNSTON!
lol.
aer that went mos burger for lunch and headed back to tampines with harold.
harold went tm to meet his parents and as for me went for dye :D
sick of my dark brown hair!
so yup after that intended to meet darling but going malaysia tml so nv meet me :(
meet eugene, went for a dance :D
so long never dance liao.
eugene friend say i dont look like someone who knows how to dance hip hop.
LOL.
i got learn one ok!
tsk!
anyway tomorrow lesson start at 12 hehehehhe :D
shall sleep eartly today.
need to cure my dark ring :D
ok well, i still can't get over harold,
that's the fact.
but i manage to do something!
accept that he doesnt love me anymore.
hope his princess treat him well this time round.
that's all
signing off tata

2010-10-24T21:36:00.002+08:00

TODAY.
went east coast to meet J, JES, dict, ben and their family.
cycling turn out to be an hour race!
like ya really turn out to be a race, everyone chiong-ing to the finish line.
tiring but enjoyed.
at first twin bike with J but after that i took ben bike cause he want that twin bike.
i got lost! but manage to find them.
turn out to be second or third place :D
ok well, i brought bibi there as well.
a lot of people keep looking at him.
bringing bibi out is a good way to get girls number.
cause they will come over touch him and u get a change to talk to them?
ok ya i did talk to some ang mo who are like in their 30s ?
too old for me!
keep saying hi to stranger and ask them to enjoy their day, i know i'm mad.
just bored, singing madly while cycling OH YA i miss singing.
but who cares no one knows me so i can sing as loud as i want to.
i dont mind appearing in stomp.
i will be super famous LOL.
kidding.
after all the fun went over to SMILE to take some picture and guess what i saw a dead rat.
soooooo disgusting.
rest in peace mr/ mrs rat.
went marine parade for dinner.
had wonton noodles, the same one which i had with jane and harold the other day at cine.
ok well spend 90 cent on tea.
quite cheap, not bad as well.
ben dad drove me home.
ok well.
guess who message me today ?
it's ah BIN :D
after soooooooooooooo long.
ok i'm going to bed now .
good night:D
will upload photos when im free gd bye

2010-10-23T17:41:00.002+08:00

Lunch with D.D at marina square.
Raki-zen.
Ate for 3 hours -.-
Drove me home after that he suddenly stop at 135 simei
And I was like emmmmmmmmmmmmmm
And he was like jam
And I was like soooooo qiao
And he was like huh
And I was like hahah fated nothing
And later he ask me so my precious girl u happy
And I was like many things happening for this few days but I'm still living :)
And he was like love
I was like ya
He was like younger den u
I was like ya
And he was like oh better nt
And I was like nvm I waitfor him to grow up
And he was like lol crazy
And I was like wei Shen mo Xiang ai de ren bu neng zai Yi qi
And I started laughing
And he say Xiang ai meh
And I say kidding :(
Lol
Back home.
Night dinner with mum
And I'm going Italy on the 17 dec :)

2010-10-22T17:46:00.002+08:00

Harold's dad Send me to school again
Saw yongshen at simei mrt and today is the last day I will see him there
He say I change
And he even say the guy I like, very lucky
Hehehehehe.
School for demo, pastry
After that went for lunch with shanhua azmi Sean weiliang junyang gerwyn Darren Donny Harold kartono devid Jane Bernard Wilson
Joseph nv come school :(
Love sick!
Back for pastry.
And heehehehe give chef Stewart my pastry thingy but he don wan :(
Lawrance took :)
Went home with gerwyn ad Harold
Laugh madly in train cause keep disturb Harold
Ok well later ramen and xiao long bao for dinner.
Meeting precious darling boy later ( dunkenal, and Eugene)
Tomorrow meeting sweeboon for dinner and maybe a movie.
Sunday east coast park with jay ben dict jes :) and their family

2010-10-21T17:30:00.002+08:00

Harold"s father send me to sch as usual.
Saw yongshen at simei mrt :)
Reach bukit, breakfast with Harold and ah yang
Awhile later Wilson came
Went school.
Harold bully me den Wilson spray water at me :(
Spray until I'm all wet, Harold even hold me don let me move
Den I bite Harold, his hands go mark, haha but sorry.
Demo time, Harold gave me salmon :)
Shanhua keep on disturb me den keep on laugh like mad, kartono also.
Went library eat fish finger.
Den went for
Chef stewart like so happy to see me lol
Cook miso salmon, chawamushi and clam
Soup.
Shanhua keep on disturb , saw nick :)
Went hilltop drink with ah yang Donny Harold Jane gerwyn Joseph Sean Bernard kartono Audrey Darren and idk who Liao.
Drink till
High -.-
Cab home with Harold Joseph
Harold alight first den me den joseph

2010-10-21T08:37:00.002+08:00

Just too much happened lately.
How I wish I was back to 18 September.
That night was the best night ever.
The moment I knew he liked me too and all the things we been through.
But I guess it's really over.
If I had the chance to mend my mistakes I would really trust you wouldn't leave.
There's just too much I wish to do with you.
But your no longer here.
I wish you would wan me back
I wish you would love me back
I wish we were never separated
I wish you were mine
I wish you would be my future husband
I wish you would be my soulmate
I wish I was your everything
I wish you never let me go
Cause you just mean so much to me.
You just mean the world to me
But I guess you already love your ex back and there nothing I could do to get u back.
I miss the day when u played drum for me
I miss the day when u played guitar for me
I miss you saying ilove you
I miss you saying baby I only want you
I miss your sweet talk
I miss the day when we went Clarke quake
I miss the day when we went shopping for hours for ur wallet
I miss the day when I ate ur mochi
I miss going out with you
I miss your hug
I miss your kiss
I miss holding you hand
I miss being with you
I miss you.
I miss everything we done.
But u r gone. Really gone.
How I wish I could tell u to stay and give me another chance to start over but I guess u wouldn't even bother to come back and just ask me to give up
I wouldn't give up cause I know u r all I wanted
If loving u was a mistake I never want to be right
A year, ten years, a lifetime or never will u return, I will
Wait cause I know u mean the world to me.
U told me she's just a memory u can't get over but y now things are happening this way?
How I wish I was her.
I wished u would love me

2010-10-20T17:45:00.001+08:00

Oi Lynette tan pei Lin.
No point giving up something which means a lot to u just because it seems like u have fail.
U give up, u will nv achieve it.
Keep holding on at least u know u try.
Jia you Jia you Jia you.
Lynette! If u give up, u will regret more so yup follow your heart.
Nothing is impossible impossible is nothing

2010-10-20T16:42:00.002+08:00

Morning went simei saw Yongshen,
Talk and talk and talk, enjoyed.
Harold"s dad came, went west mall meet yang had Mac for breakfast.
Before lesson saw chef Stewart,he say I today pretty :)
Ask me if I got bf and I say no and he say y and I say he don't wan me and chef was like nvm he come production I will let him do stewarding for a month lol
And Harold start cursing.
Started off with communication skills.
I asked a lot of question today.
Got one part abt how ppl look and I was like oh this one is flirting
And the mentor was like yes!
And everyone was like oh!!!!
Den Jane say I always do it right lol.
Den later talk abt being fat, I say I fat mentor say no den I say Harold say so and den Wilson was like oh no wonder now keep skip meals all because of Harold.
Lol.
Break time canteen!
Drink soya milk.
Talk to Clynston and weixiang.
After that library do project and later presentation.
Group with Harold, Donny, Joseph Wilson and Darren.
Go downstairs print project thing a guy wan my number but nv give
Donny ask me y and I say cause I got someone in mind le
Lol
Home with Harold and Joseph

2010-10-20T05:57:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night chat with weixiang, Clynston
Soooooo long nv disiao Clynston Liao hahahahaha.
Big head monster.
After the chat with them, precious Jeffery called.
Oh miss him!
Became insane!

2010-10-19T20:06:00.002+08:00

Harold"s dad came over to pick me up.
Went burger king with ah yang and Harold for breakfast.
Suddenly remembered abt the first time he and I went over to burgerking for dinner.
Ok well I know, I shouldn't be thinking of it anymore.
Weixiang found out just how bitchy I am but guess I'm just unable to do it.
Sch for communication skills.
After that lunch at hilltop and off to library for project!
Off to com lab for it lesson .
So call project time.
Lavender with Wilson Harold Bernard gerwyn and Darren
Book bus to genting and went tm to get things.
Puiman saw me suddenly pull down my shirt from
Behind, scary thought who
Horse saw me , I nv saw him :(
Xm house for drinking

2010-10-18T21:39:00.004+08:00

i didn't realize i ask him 5 times y am i an idiot
LOL.
i am going crazy just ignore me.
har!
anyway
today was the best day ever!
problem solve, case close.
best friend forever and ever and ever.
hehehehe.
i finally got the answer.
no point being sad over it, i'm still as happy as always.
harold's father drove me to sch.
went over to hilltop to meet ah yang.
first lesson communication, after that supervision.
saw hong jie hehehe.
went west mall for a movie with harold my best best friend, jane, kartono, wilson, bernard, joseph.
after that kfc to meet the rest and back to school.
had beverage. train home with harold, joseph, cheese and devid.
went over to meet my zhengyuan laogong and kaicheng.
CJ for dinner and off to get yuan's cig.
slack slack went toy r us to play, crazy!
laugh like mad.
they send me home.
down stair slack for a while.
hehehehehe.
had fun.
love them lots lots.

zhengyuan laogong say i stupid always kena play by guys.
ahahahaha.
but who cares.
nothing last forever.
true love doesnt exist.
:D
words are just words.
single the best.
and you wanna know y he say i kena play?
cause
1bf: kind of hongster
2bf: hongster
3bf: Mobile lover (sms nia, see each other just hi)
4bf: he just wants status
5bf: im a replacement
6bf: ppl phy-ko
7bf: made him no.5 replacement
8bf: comunication breakdown

so yup my love life sucks!
but thanks to all this , i'm a stronger person now.
hehehehehehe.
whatever, maybe ould become lesbian.
heeh just kidding

2010-10-17T16:12:00.001+08:00

Bored to death.
Ng Jun wei drove me around Singapore to kill time.
No life!
Sian!
Someone save me!

2010-10-17T08:46:00.002+08:00

last night went out with jeffery , james , sam , alvin , vick , ming, zack, desmond, ah soon, chris, marc and kang.
went over to novena for a drink and yup, kind of high.
played dare and gotten crazy.
drank two full glass of martel pure, few glass of tiger. CMI.
suddenly out of the blue, joel came and guess what!
he's holding a bunch of sunflowers and a box of royce chocolate.
and suddenly he pass it to me and guess what i say which make alvin laugh like mad.
i told alvin hey kor i think i'm drunk already i'm seeing things. EH scary leh! this place must be dirty.
den he started laughing like mad but it's actually real.
and so i took it both and start giving everyone the chocolate and joel started scolding?
and ask me if there's a chance and jeffery, james, sam, zack, vick, desmond started kpkb.
and ming join in as well, and everyone went slience after ming say if want to give chance oso not u guys.
stand up, kang send me home throw the flowers away and the remaining chocolate as well
and when we reach the door, kang shouted enough of all your nonsense.
(at the point of time, kang quite cool leh LOL)
he drove me home and yup sleep like a pig.
hehehe.
talk nonsense again -.-
piggyback me upstair and bye bye
reach home at about 3 plus.

ytd was scary but fun.

ok well as for today,
going serangoon :D

2010-10-16T18:12:00.003+08:00

D.D brought me out for lunch.
drove over to tampines mall and i told him , let's go somewhere else.
drove over to east point told him to go airport instead.
on the way there he suddenly ask why is my precious girl so moody today,
and my reply was i guess im still sleepy.
reach airport waraku de pasta for lunch,
all i had was just ice cream.
totally no appetite but since he insisted on me to get something, brought ice cream.
after eating i told him i'm tired and wish to go home,
and he say wait before that let's go to a place.
and so he drove me over to changi to see houses.
this place really remind me of a lot of things.
things which i really wish i couldnt remember.
it's also the place where he last say he love me, nice is on the 13 of october.
but i guess sweet things just have to end this way.
went home straight after the ride.
J came over.
teach my brother maths, played with bibi intended to watch eat pray love with J but too bad got plans so didn't.

i tried, i really am trying to bring him back.
it's not easy.
but like i told buddy, if the fear really came true, all i want was just to see him happy.
it doesnt matter if i m or not.
but i guess his feels has already faded and there's nothing i could do.
let's pray.

2010-10-16T14:55:00.003+08:00

I HAVE DELETED MY PRIVATE BLOG SO YUP THIS IS THE ONLY BLOG I"M USING NOW.
HMMMMM. YUP THAT"S ALL BYE

2010-10-16T08:10:00.004+08:00

YESTERDAY:
left the house super early,
in the end meet harold and ahn yang at west mall for breakfast and ask sujaat to go subway meet me.
wilson came.
wait for joseph.
FINALLY brought my beancurb, but sad to say too sweet :(
started off with demo.
WA LAO shan hua sit beside me very noisy!
keep talking to himself and talk nonsense LOL.
went lunch at canteen with shanhua azmi weiliang kartono gerwyn jane harold joseph wilson bernard devid.
next lesson was pastry lesson.
went pastry room and started making tarts.
after lesson went over to hilltop for some drinks donny order tiger and so drank some.
cab home with gerwyn joseph and harold.
change and everything and went off to tampines mall to meet my ah sot, horse, stan, vilip and one more guy.
horse sad i forget to bring the fruit tart which i made for him and keep making noise about it lol.
pasiamania for dinner and off for movie.
saw samson he say bo jio him go see movie, den we shoot back he bo jio we go walk walk. lol
watched the child's eye.
OMG first part damn scary and horse was like keep on disturb me la!
cover my ears from the start and den in the end nv cause the end part very sad ?
come to think of it not that scary ba cause it's sad at the back and i'm still able to sleep alone last night with no lights :D
after the movie stan and the guy who i dunno left.
horse and vilip and ah sot and i went 802 for supper.
hmmmm, ran from 900+ to 800+ LOL.
crazy but fun!
at 802 laugh till my lungs almost drop lol.
all thanks to horse!
horse call ah sot, vege ghost.
call me water ghost cause i keep drinking water LOL.
order hao jian but change to prawn but in the end ate 4-5 mouth dont wan liao cause standard drop.
vilip and ah sot went home, horse and i walk home.
LOL.
didnt drink any liquor see i'm a gd girl. LOL

somehow it's great hanging out with them once again, they are the one who really accept me for who i am and be there for me.

2010-10-15T05:54:00.000+08:00

Brand new day.
Lynette tan pei Lin, Jia you Jia you Jia you.

2010-10-14T21:29:00.002+08:00

If loving u was the biggest mistake that I have done,
I'm willing to do it over and over again.
Cause it's the mistake I would never want to lose

2010-10-12T21:42:00.001+08:00

Today isn't my day, so let's not talk about it.
I wish everything will be over soon.

People will only cherish something when it's gone.

Nothing else to say so gd bye hope to die

2010-10-11T21:03:00.002+08:00

Simei to meet Harold.
His father send me to sch as usual.
Started off with supervision and communication.
After that was speech, nervous!
Went canteen makan with Jane, Harold Joseph Wilson Bernard kartono azmi gerwyn shanhua Darren junyang devid.
Went back to sch for IT lesson.
Kns boring !
After sch imm for dinner with Joseph and Harold.
Went around imm, look at shoes, rings and backbone thingy.
Trained home.

Ah wei wei kor say love needs patient if there's no patients that not love at all.
Lol

2010-10-10T20:23:00.002+08:00

TODAY BORING!
woke up intending to watch my anime, too bad NO ANIME HAVE BEEN UPLOADED.
BORING!
went back to sleep.
woke up have lunch.
bro gave papa a $12 poster thingy for his birthday and i got him a $120 polo.
and i told mum, dad will treasure mine more and she say i hao lian.
went back to sleep, off for my hot bed thingy.
hot bed = make you slimmer!
one word BTH!
so hot! asthma attack! cant breath.
wasted 30 minutes of my life, trying to be thinner.
but fail i guess.
told mum i got slimmer and she ask me not to lie to myself.
-.-
went for sushi high tea buffet.
food kns!
went home.
do speech.
miss harold.
talk cock, sing song, play mahjong.
LOLS.
just ignore me!

2010-10-09T23:28:00.002+08:00

FAST FORWARD...
Went Harold"s house, intending to pei him play xbox.
But in the end never. Ahahaha
Help him cook dinner for his family, ok maybe nt cook just see, beat eggs and turn chicken wing.
After that dinner with white wine, watch animal planet and off to tamp for prata.
Harold"s sis drove us there and his sis say I look like sec 2
Ahahahahahaha :)
She drove me home, Harold send me upstairs.
And that's the end of today.
Tomorrow, project time!

2010-10-08T21:57:00.002+08:00

Today went to sch for Japanese demo.
After that mos burger with kartono Wilson Jane Harold Joseph Bernard Shawn gerwyn ( sorry if I miss out some)
Cityhall with Joseph and Harold.
Kbox, pool saw Jeffery worst den water ;)
He say I slimmer :)
Saw kaicheng as well.
Went food court makan , worst udon ever!
Totally spoil my x3 for udon
Joseph left after awhile went shopping with Harold
Got my topshop shoe and lacoste
After awhile home
Battery low

2010-10-06T21:35:00.002+08:00

Today,
Went to school as usual,
Harold"s dad drove me to school.
Jane was late for sch, ended up going for the last lesson only.
Started off with communication, and so on.
Went break with Harold, Shawn, gerwyn, junyang, Darren, Donny, wei liang, Joseph, Bernard, kartono and I don't know who if I miss out some.
Jane arrive a few minutes later.
Back to sch for beverage lesson.
Mr Jason ow yang, pass around wine etc for us to try.
Drink a bit face got red, everyone was like Lynette drunk!
When I'm not.
Harold ask me not to talk to him for 4 times today.
After lesson went west mall for movie with
Harold, gerwyn, Bernard, Joseph, kartono, weiliang, Shawn, donny and 1 other ppl , can't remember.
Watch zack efon show!
Omg, touch, cried, nice!
Harold sleep!
Everyone went home but Joseph, Harold n I went suntec
Intend to get my shoe but in the end didn't, forget.
Mof for dinner,
Went home

2010-10-05T21:56:00.002+08:00

Yesterday.
Harold"s father drove me to school.
Lesson started off with communication skills, miss ezan.
quite a nice mentor:)
Next lesson was principle of supervision by miss ezan as well and followed by host communication by miss sueann oliverio.
Guys gone crazy over her.
She told us abt her love life and she's currently single.
Went off to shangri-la for pay.
Chit chat with chef dennis, he say Harold and I couple
Hahahahaha.
After getting pay, went for movie with Harold, Jane, azmi and weiliang.
The Chinese kungfu show, something like ip man one.
So violent .
Lol, better den ip man.
At least it wouldn't make me sleep.
Everyone left, Harold and I went shopping around orchard to find a suitable wallet for him.
Went gucci, lv, Burberry, bla bla bla still cannot find.
Send Harold home first cause his stomach pain wanna shit:)
See how sweet am I:)
Left my hp with him so I'm like living a night without a phone
So wierd, pissed mum off, cause keep irritated her with 5.30am alarm.
As for today,
Call Harold when I leaving the house,
Wait for him at simei mrt, his dad droe us to sch.
Finally my phone is back, hell is over.
Went coffee shop see Harold eat, smoking corner see him smoke.
Went up class, a while later start lesson.
First was supervision followed by communication skill and after that beverage lesson.
Taught by mr Jason ow yang.
He's wierd, funny, reminds me of c?
Anw went marina square with Jane, Harold, gerwyn, Bernard, kartono, shanhua, Wilson for k box.
Share beer with Harold and Wilson.
Face turn red as usual.
The rest went home, me and Harold went long John for food after thy shop for clothes etc.
I'm so in love with a topman shoe but last piece:(
Send Harold home again cause stomach pain again.
Da bian hahahahaha
Enjoying Royce right now :)

I am so in love with Harold kng. Lol.
Random!

2010-10-02T20:27:00.002+08:00

Went Harold house,
After that grandma house .
Went dinner at 200+.
food horrible -.-
Went back grandma house and den back home.

Finally, after such a long time , things settled

2010-10-01T20:47:00.003+08:00

YESTERDAY.
waited for cab for like more den 30 minutes.
so harold drove darren's car over to pick me up along with kartono.
ONE WORD SCARY! a 17 YEAR old driving a car, know what i mean?
ok well, reach harold house, all 3 of us wet!
rain like hell!
ah yang and darren was there one sleeping one play game.
later they all play x box.
went downstair with harold and kartono to buy toto.
and back to harold house.
went up rest for a while i cried and off to pasir ris for petrol and den to chalet.
reach there adeline, sujata, gerwyn, shanhua, wilson, jane, shawn was there.
harold drove me to petrol station again den went to pick leng up.
after that went back chalet after awhile went over to get beer and off to pick dionna up.
harold drove again.
celebrated bernard brithday.
sweeboon, bernard, raj etc came.
super crazy.
kartono drink till super high den harold and i keep disiao damn funny.
corn suddenly got hair one LOL
i give him water, he sudden;y tell me he love me and say but im harold one =.=
play dare with dionna, leng and harold.
harold do push up over me with a kiss every 1 time down
so paiseh!
laugh like mad.
i even go after raj asking him if i can pull out his leg hair or not
LOL.
everyone slowly went to bed.
caileng, dionna, harold, alex, me fighting for blanket.
7++ woke up(which is today), harold house sleep wait for jane to come.
jane arrived, sleep till 1+ wake up.
go my house bath etc go shangri-la meet azmi along with jane and harold.
waited for like so long, in the end cannot take pay cause counter no money!
like wth,.
went off with harold to his mum workplace.
dinner with his mum, him and his dad at chinatown back home.
went makan with daddy at airport again.
-.-
super full but still need to go eat with dad.
anw had fun!
i wish all this never end

2010-09-29T13:26:00.001+08:00

going for my ear operation later.
so yup, wish me luck.

2010-09-27T12:12:00.002+08:00

YESTERDAY,
harold's dad came over to pick me up as usual,
went 100+ for lunch.
harold pound medicine for me :D
and it's kind of stress when harold's mum, dad and him keep staring at me eating the pound medicine.
hahahaha.
went off to shangri-la.
bus to F1 location.
i saw quan yu fong, chen bin hui, chippendale(man stripper, they are super hot! bryan chan especially :D), the guy who dance for the visa card advertisement, one china actress and etc.
GUYS there gone crazy over a china woman. she wore a dress which is just covering her butt, low cut till her belly showing her bra. super tall somemore.
chef timonthy, hate him to the core! order people around, but he himself just sit down and sleep and further more look down on girls.
he saw wei xiang from ITE carrying a heavy thing, hand shaking, he still ask him to go faster and have no intention of helping.
i was under cold kitchen, helped with king crab plating.
chan bing hui came over to get some food from me and he took a photo of me *shy*
wei long gave me beef to eat.
keep on eat dessert with jian wei and wei xiang.
went smoking with jian wei, wei xiang and wei long and later andrew and etc came.
jane came as well and left smoking corner with her.
upload and unload the things.
but for me simple, didn't really move a single thing justs stand there see that handsome chef.
he's like 23-24 years old. super build and ok when u first see him, quite handsome but after awhile ok la cause his lips very thick.
and i lvoe his hair!
walk quite a distance to the bus went crazy.
angry with harold (forgotten what)
walk and smoke and jane was like laughing at me saying my action very funny.
and jane was like harold y u so happy and harold was like no i m sad den weiliang started laughing and i started laughing as well and laugh for like a few minutes, can't stop.
and the people behind started laughing as well.
and all of a sudden i just feel like singing the wa mend di wa meng di song.
( the taiwan show call ai)
reach shangri-la cab home with harold, jackie and a malay guy.

2010-09-26T10:51:00.002+08:00

YESTERDAY .
Harold"s father came over to pick me up,
Went toa payoh to eat.
After that to shangri-la.
Chef uni, I got L cause s and m no more.
Bus to F1 location and everything started.
Jane hand caught fire.
2 head chef argued.
Ate lobster , lamb, snapper, chocolate and desserts.
I m in charge of red snapper , main course.
After a while chef Wilson asked me and a few girls go to off first,
Back to shangri-la unload the things.
Wait for weiliang and Harold.
Cab with Jacky, a Malay guy, Harold.
And today I'm sick, but still need to go down
Finally the last day, I'm able to sleep for longer hours tonight