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But I'm not wasting my time,
Over something which is not worth it. |
SWEETsuicideLOVES
Saturday, January 31, 2009 ; 1:56 PM
I'M SO DEAD!!!
I ALMOST BURN THE WHOLE HOUSE DOWN..
i was like cooking lunch for myself,
and i was like boiling potato,
after that went playing and forgot all about it.
still can happy happy sing play around.
omg heng lehh!!!
if mum find out she's going to kill me..
omg omg.
later going grandparents house as its grandpa brithday.
triston wil be there..
love him man, he always say i miss jiejie.
after that catching all well end well 2009 with boyfriend.
er ren shi jie la!!!
romantic man=))
omg i feel so lesbian today...
anw my lunch,
ta da!!!
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i am in love with him again.
my xiao yan yan..
its the beginning og something new.
; 9:12 AM
我好希望现在的你和我，
会像梦里的你和我一样，
开开心心得，永远不分开。
如果只有在梦里我猜可以和你在一起，
那我真的很想永远不要起来。
在给多一次的机会好吗？
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headache,
WHO KNOW WHERE TO FIND SAGA SEED!!!!
known as Adenanthera pavonina or love seed
haiyo..
need to collect alot before 7 feb!!!!
omg omg...
please tell me if you know where to find them,
thanks +)
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derek said:
Ang Mo Kio Town garden West 222
Mount Faber Park 138
Chia Ping Road 64
East Coast Park (Areas C & G) 38
Fort Canning Park 11
Pearl's Hill Park 10
(thanks ya, but please if you know other places please let me know.)
thank you
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caileng ah caileng,
i wan Adenanthera pavonina not red ants...
lol.
its the beginning og something new.
Friday, January 30, 2009 ; 11:17 PM
i'm wasting my energy, wasting my strength...
after saying all those words for like an hour,
you treat me as in i'm talking cock...
please for heaven sack, i'm serious.
so what is the point now, for me to continue talking,
cause you guys just don't listen.
why people now a day like to run away from home.
fun meh, childish!!!
one of them is caileng the other one is jeslyn.
omg omg omg.
headache.
trying to ask you all to change ur mind,
but fail to do so.
one tomorrow than go home, the other one wait till shuang than go home.
how childish can you guys get man...
argue with parents than leave home.
than everyday argue equal everyday leave home la.
omg omg omg.
for what shit man , worth it ma.
feel like giving the both of you a big big slap so u 2 will wake up man.
argh,
wash my hands off you liao la.
i say so much still say me firece,
omg omg omg ....
ming ku ar...
its the beginning og something new.
; 11:43 AM
my head feels so HEAVY..
so please STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM.
going out with UNCLE lawrance 10 monutes later.
omg.
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continued~
went over to a coffee shop which sells china food.
ah ma, ah kong, ah bee, ah sim, zek zek, gugu and UNCLE boon was there.
i was intro to lots of people =) :
candy, cindy, old buddy frenky and old buddy lawrance.
love making new friends but i dont like to take the first step.
lawrance they all keep on say i very sky.
of cause i shy la.
everyone keep looking at me.
gave everyone try my brownie,
everyone said nice.
frenky even brought the whole box of brownie home for wifey.
=))
i was like so quite throughout the whole day,
everyone talk i just listen.
CAILENG back to my old self le =))
recently i dont really like to talk much like i used to.
i dont go mad like i used to.
perfectly normal..
after lunch he brought me home.
slept in his car right away when i went into it.
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I HATE MYSELF FOR MY STUPIDNESS.
I HATE MYSELF FOR NOT TREASURING THE CHANCE GIVEN THE OTHER TIME.
I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING SO SI BAI.
I HATE MYSELF FOR HORRIBLE ATTITUDE.
I HATE MYSELF FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO MAKE PEOPLE TRUST ME.
I HATE MYSELF TO THE CORE.
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brithday wishes dont come true so dont waste your time wishing.
anw BENEDICT HAPPY BIRTHDAY
its the beginning og something new.
; 9:32 AM
yesterday play black jack.
after that 8++ go kfc eat,
saw lots of friends there =))
GROW FAT LE LA!!!!
IDIOT LESBIAN!!!
after that headed home.
mum, darren, dad, sheree and leng say my brownie nice
=))
i am like so damn happy can.
4 people broke my heart yesterday,
mum said my brownie look like rock,
dad said wad lai de.
darren look like cookie.
the last one is over same old thing.
can't sleep the whole night,
kept thinking thinking and thinking.
maybe she's right,
i am just an extra trying to fit into their world.
they are with them from the start and we are just extra trying to get close to them.
and maybe for once she's right,
his with her from the start until i came into his world.
maybe i shouldnt have stead with him from the start.
ever since i appear have anything gone better,
NO not at all.
i created more problems and he's never happy being with me.
seriously i hate it when people ask me to find someone else.
i know he doesnt love me and will not ,
i know he is not perfect
i know there are betters
i know we could never be together
i know he stil love her
i know it all
so wad is there a problem with that.
like a person dont need reason de.
i just like him for who he is and not what he gave.
if you think i made the wrong choice den i tell you,
i never if i wan to like someone else i will do so 10 months ago.
not wait till now ok.
i felt so stupid can,
when there is a chance i dont treasure ,
now i dont have i regretted so much.
i know i am making myself cheap like wad tori aunty say,
so do you think i ever care about what others said.
ok la i got care but i wouldnt change just because of what she say.
i will work hard just to gain back the little trust or maybe a little love,
cause i dont want to regret again.
i dont one to regret at all.
its the beginning og something new.
Thursday, January 29, 2009 ; 5:44 PM
went over simei ite meet caileng,
wait till halfway saw kang...
hao you yuan oh.
never meet him de lor den saw him so damn happy la.
you yuan wu F**~!!!
(i know how to write but dont one write for the F**)
after that was like messaging cai,
he turn up behind me.
omg omg omg .
so happy and shock can.
wait for cai so BORING!!!
after that cai appear den took cab to airport with annie and her.
go there eat popeye.
after that headed to cai house,
den to coffee shop den go home.
later darling coming..
and than play black jack.
den the end.
ok well after 1 week 4 days I SAW HIM
wooohooo.
nv meet still can see him
omg omg.
just now i serious nv mad cai say i very firece
kang oso say i firece.
everyone say i firece.
siao de ...
its the beginning og something new.
; 11:04 AM
wake up super early,
went to mum's room telling her i want to go out.
den i was like so surprise she know i want to go market buy ingredients.
after that headed to fairprice alone,
brought all my stuff.
saw those sec 4 guys.
pon school again.
they keep calling me aunty lor.
idiot.
cause of the way i hold the basket
lol
after that was like cant find chocolate drop,
so went asking the lady where can i find it..
she say out of stock..
so pay for all the ingredients after that went over to bai mei,
went there de yes to buy chocolate drops.
after that headed home.
reach home started making brownie.
this time mum did help at all.
cause i call her go out of the kitchen.
the smell was nice.
top was like burn and bottom was like uncook.
and i was like argh.
so put it back into the oven.
and guess what mum go put it under 200 degree.
and its like chao ta after 2 minutes.
but still uncook.
so just cut out the top part lor.
taste nice la,
mum say so too.
but too bad the walnut spoil it all.
in the end last of all,
was a success!!!!
hurray...
well done to myself =))
anw i mess up the whole kitchen as usual.
kana scolding again.
=(
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http://s120.photobucket.com/albums/o176/deadlyme1992/29%20jan%202009/
its the beginning og something new.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009 ; 7:05 PM
it's too late to turn back.
how i wish none of this happen.
right now,
i'm missing him like crazy.
haven seen him for like 1 weeks 4 days.
i know being like this isn't right at all.
but...but i just can't help it.
can't get myself to stay happy this few days,
putting on a fake smile.
wondering what he's doing now,
wondering how have he been.
maybe he's happier,
maybe he's better.
i don't know,
i kept thinking about him,
and my mind just wouldn't stop.
went seeing a movie called " bride war" alone just now,
and guess what throughout the movie my mind was full of him ,
past flash out and i realise things are different now.
im seeing a movie all alone without him by my side.
he's no longer there,
and he wouldn't be there anymore.
he is not coming back, never.
just why can't accept the fact that it's impossible between us.
just why am i unwilling to let go.
just why am i doing all this.
from the start if i never given all those attitude,
maybe we will still last.
i just hate myself for ending everything.
i really hate myself.
i destroy every single hope.
because of my stupid attitude.
well, for your info i'm not trying to make people console me,
nor am i wanting to be the main character.
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tomorrow morning going market alone,
buying ingredients for brownies,
and yes i am trying to make brownies.
its the beginning og something new.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009 ; 10:20 PM
I HAVE DECIDED.
- no more being a spendthrift.
- no more being a spoil brat.
- no more scolding bad bad words.
- no more pointing middle finger.
- no more madness.
- no more thinking of those wu a bo a.
- no more going out late.
- no more coming home late.
- no more drinking.
- no more wasting of food.
- no more rudeness.
- no more shouting.
- no more attitude.
- no more childishness.
- no more cutting.
- no more smoking.
- no more crying over love love things
- no more piercing.
i promise i am never going to argue with parents again
(happy right after seeing this)
i would be a good girl from now on.
no more hanging out with bengs and lians.
no more playing a fool during work time,
i will be super serious during work time =))
so dont worry..
anw i found a job =))
as for studies,
i will do my best to get good grades.
no more fooling around
its time to be serious.
=))
what i say i will do it,
proving to all of you,
lynette tan pei lin, mayo, peipei, ying zhu can do it =))
its the beginning og something new.
; 9:54 AM
went bai nian ytd,
dinner time went tristion house BBQ.
after that went over to puiman's house to meet her.
went window shopping =))
after that meet kiang, den meet ben den boon.
went watching inkheart.
ok la the show quite nice.
but i was like kind of sleepy due to lack of sleep i think.
after show all of us went over to 702,
reason was to see lim junjie.
cause he is going to sam's house after his recording ,
but den leh reach there jiu go home le.
sorry ya!!!
ben, boon, puiman, caileng, waikiang sorry,.
plus kang sorry too.
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photos.
sorry again.
http://s120.photobucket.com/albums/o176/deadlyme1992/26%20jan%202009/
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i wish,
i pray,
i hope.
things would get back to normal.
i miss everything.
i miss him.
i miss the past.
all i can was just to make myself fall asleep,
cause only in my dreams i am able to meet you..
and also able to have you by my side
its the beginning og something new.
Monday, January 26, 2009 ; 8:29 AM
feeling real tired recently,
due to lack of sleep i think.
woke up at 8 plus yesterday,
online and went back to sleep at about 11am.
sleep till halfway woken up by mum.
she say we are late.
so since late i went to bath slowly taking my own sweet time.
after that headed to sam's house.
reach there start blaming me lor,
for the lateness of cause..
i was like argh you nv call me wake up earlier..
went sam house for reunion lunch.
after that watch a short clip of sam acting.
after that went home.
was like so sleepy but online instead of sleeping,
just to see someone online la.
=.=
i know i very bo liao.
after that 5 plus dad came.
brought us to grandma house eat.
was like weeee played with tristion of cause.
tristion and i kissed =)
super cute la him..
after that went over to another grandma house,
gerald was there as well.
the boys were playing playstation 3,
adult prepare for majong.
after a while we girls went over to junction 8..
(jocleen me)
brought movie ticket after that went mac to eat,
cause both of us damn hungry.
its was like the first time i tried tomato mix with mayo.
damn nice sia =))))
meet limin at mac.
watch THE WEDDING GAME!!
catch 11.10pm show =))
was quite a nice show la.
quite sad, I SAW JOCLEEN CRIED!!!
quite funny, JOCLEEN LAUGH LIKE HELL...
its oso quite bian tai la,
worth watching!!!!
i love the song of the show =))
after that took taxi back to serangoon.
see the adult play majong for a while den go home le.
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sorry for the inconvenient ya ..
photo here =))
http://s120.photobucket.com/albums/o176/deadlyme1992/25%20jan%202009/
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我还是放不下。
knowing i am not the one,
knowing you will not return,
knowing i should have left.
its my bad from the start.
you have really become that important to me.
now we hardly talk hardly go out,
but the feeling i have for you is getting stronger.
how i wish that one day,
dreams and wishes will turn into reality.
I KNOW ITS IMPOSSIBLE.
i just miss him so damn much.
=(
its the beginning og something new.
Sunday, January 25, 2009 ; 8:17 AM
yesterday was a sway day for me as well.
my toe nail drop off !!!
accidentally kick onto something den drop off.
got dry blood somemore
=(((
why is life getting worst each day???
argh!!!
went over to grandma house yesterday,
had steamboat =)))
i love steamboat la!!!
yesterday i ate the most meatball =XX
and i am like so in love with grandma's fried prawn,
kept eating prawn and forgotten that I CANT EAT SEAFOOD!!!
i am like getting fatter by the minute.
after that went into room see the boys play playstation 3.
i was like keep looking at them playing wwe.
like super fun sia..
i oso wanna play but den leh dont one better la,
sure kana say by benjamin one.
after that go talk talk with limin and jocleen.
after that go play with jaydon.
jaydon soooooo damn cute sia!!!
jaydon was just few months old.
super cute can,
well i dont hate baby anymore ever since last year.
in fact i love babys now!!!
after that benjamin ask me wan to go chinatown not,
den i was like ok but so little ppl go den dont one la.
after that intend to go watch midnight show,
in the end cannot cause their parents doesnt allow.
so went home lor.
sorry for the inconvenient again:
http://s120.photobucket.com/albums/o176/deadlyme1992/24%20jan%202009/
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dreamt of him again,
=(
i just miss him so damn much.
1 week, 1 day nv see him liao.
ok well i have already accept the fact that we wouldnt be together again,
so i am not expecting much right now.
with or without him life still much carry on.
=)
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平凡又怎麽样，
有缺点又怎样。
就算对方是个套人烟的器车鬼。
有一千一百万个缺点。
但是喜欢一个人的理由，
只有一个，
就是喜欢。
你命中注定的那个人呢，
不管一开始，
你有多麽的tao yan 对方，
命中注定的事情
相爱的ju li 就是百分百。
its the beginning og something new.
Saturday, January 24, 2009 ; 11:31 AM
THIS YEAR SUPER SWAY CAN!!!
so many unwanted things happen.
WHY THIS YEAR SO SWAY!!!!
oh god,
can you please stop treating me like this!!
yes i wanted a chance in life but NOT THIS KIND OF LIFE!!!
i was like so damn happy yesterday because no one scold me over the fine.
but guess what i have to pay it myself.
so next month allowance will be just $100.
SHIT CAN!!!
HOW CAN I SURVIVE WITH THAT!!!
minus $100 for phone bill.
minus $200 for fine.
so now just left with $100.
OH MY TIAN AR...
feel like jumping off the building can!!
( dont worry i will not. siao, so many things haven do wait till do finish den die la .)
please i want a new life,
a carefree life.
from now on i am not going to be like mad liao.
because desmond oi oi said:
" i prefer last time de lynette, last time de very good now de very scary like siao lang"
idiot de la...
so now i going to become last time tat quite shy little girl...
dont blame me for the change blame desmond +))))
=XXXXX
so lengleng i not going to entertain you liao =))
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i still cant let go.
dreamt of him again.
haish.
how i wish dreams will turn into reality.
its the beginning og something new.
Friday, January 23, 2009 ; 10:31 PM
went over to meet lengleng,
after that went her house downstair eat steak =))
wait for yuanyuan they all come.
when their cab arrive, went over to E.C.P
i was like mad~~
I LOVE GOING TO THE BEACH!!!
had our picnic there..
yuanyuan, shaozheng, lengleng and i were like in seventh heaven.
i love going out wit shao zheng cause can di siao him and pm.
=))
keep throwing food and ice at each other,
me and yuanyuan nia.
i was like help everyone to take bee hoon den guess who help me take ,
yuanyuan keep on help me take like feeding fat pig like that.
den i was like keep on give him.
den a india came ask for food,
den zhengyuan give that guy the whole plate of bee hoon.
i hao xin help him take den he go give other people .
=.=
after that yuanyuan, lengleng and me went for a swim.
i was like having lots of fun la.
my clothes are all wet and my hair in a mess.
swim halfway i stand up den my clothes were like come up.
lengleng saw den keep on laugh.
den behind got 2 india keep on see lor.
so paiseh la...
yuanyuan keep on pour water onto me.
so fun... =)))
play till halfway those people came.
you know who THOSE PEOPLE WHO GAVE US THE FINE.
we were fine a total of $400 for littering.
idiot ok.
we were like so damn happy den they spoil our mood.
after talking to those people went back home to bath.
no one was in the mood la except me.
so i was like mad, making them got mood again =))
taxi driver not friendly de i talk to him he dont one reply me.
he couch i ask him "are you ok".
he dian dian.
den leh i go down i say " uncle bye bye he oso nv answer me"
idiot de la.
den yuan and shao keep say me mad.
yuan and i keep on act as couple la.
yuan beat me i keep on say da jiu shi ten ma jiu shi ai.
den did a lot stupid things.
and i am like mad mad mad.
finish bath went tm to buy food,
saw puiman on the way =))
after that went park meet shaozheng.
went slacking with james and shaozheng,
after that caileng came den yuanyuan den kaicheng.
lengleng long pang me den later i long pang her.
play poker liao den go home.
yuanyuan long pang me home =)
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photo are upload here:
http://s120.photobucket.com/albums/o176/deadlyme1992/23%20jan%202009/
sorry for the inconvenient once again
its the beginning og something new.
; 8:13 AM
are all this worth it, ask yourself.
the both of you know each other for like years,
neighbour for years,
arguing over small matters causing it into a big matter.
is all this worth it ??
i know i am just a passerby which don't know anything,
but seeing the both of you like that really make me very angry.
YUP I AM SUPER ANGRY BECAUSE YOU DON'T TREASURE YOUR FRIENDS!!
a good friend is hard to find and i believe she is a good friend.
no one is perfect neither do you.
you cant expect her to be so perfect, suiting your life always right.
seriously, sometimes i cant stand you too...
your attitude IS UNBEARABLE...
- you always push the blame on someone else when its your fault.
- those words you said are hurtful.
- always need ppl say sorry to you first de
see no one is perfect.
please treasure your friends,
even if its not your fault this time round,
try to yi ren rang yi bu la.
dont be so stubborn liao.
a friend like her is hard to find.
be glad you have a good friend like her =))
i know u just saying qi hua in your blog de,
when u not angry try to talk things out nicely ok.
be good la dont always argue here and there see le oso sian.
anw DONT TREAT ME LIKE UR MAID LIAO LA,
I VERY KE LIAN DE LEH!!!
=X
lengleng talking about you ar.
anw thanks la lame shit...
treasure wad you have now if not dont regret it next time +)
nothing is too late. =)
last time u oso say dont have me this friend ok de den now still friend ma,
so dont so xiao qi la...
become friends back with her la..
u 2 de friendship very ke lian leh,
like that jiu end le, u will happy with the result meh.
no right so dont argue with her le la,
be friends back ok .
=)))
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later going sec school with the boys =))
after that going E.C.P.
yuan yuan long pang me there.
wooohooo!!!
- dreamt of him again.
- memories kept flashing out.
- something tells me to give up,
- cause he is not coming back.
- but i really can't do it.
- everything seem harder than it looks.
- i really love him a lot more than my expectation.
- who knows, just no one will.
- he left and his not coming back.
- so i guess, i will just sit here looking at him from far.
- lets not create anymore trouble for him.
- all i want was just him to be happy.
hoping & wishing,
one day dreams will turn into reality.
ending with a happily ever after.
its the beginning og something new.
Thursday, January 22, 2009 ; 9:59 PM
went over to lengleng house,
see the cartoon so damn cute can.
went over to fair price to buy picnic staff.
on the way saw huifen,
i nv xia lan or wad i got smile hor!!
no more causing trouble liao.
after that went over to long john for lunch??
meet roy there.
roy say my skin tone going to become like sheree like that liao =(
went arcade play,
i got catch till a lot of sweet sia.
and almost catch till bear bear..
but still drop.
went watching LOVE MATTERS!!!
roy treat +))
had nachos from tm =((
that show quite funny la.
kind of sad and bian tai too..
quite a nice show worth watching=)
the reason why i want to watch that show is because of that colour thing.
but in the end no colour scene at all =((
after show went down yoshi to get our things.
after that meet yuan yuan at park.
he so damn good la come just to help us take things.
but sad la he long pang lengleng home den me walk home myself,
cause she carry a lot of things..
nvm, i got ying zhu pei =((
saw alvin and roy(chinese) at park.
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to view photo go here:
http://s120.photobucket.com/albums/o176/deadlyme1992/22%20jan%202009/
sorry for the inconvenient again
its the beginning og something new.
; 8:39 AM
leon jay william said:
Maybe to love someone,
Is to set him free.
If this is what you one,
I will let you go.
Even if it tear my heart apart.
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finally!!!
finish watching that show 30 episode ok..
wooohooo good ending la.
ai qing choose to be with the person she love other den the person she is happy being with.
love it la..
ai qing and leon jay william get married.
omg so touching..
lalalalala.
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now a day quite happy la,
didnt really think about him that much le.
yuan yuan and leng leng thanks alot.
yuan yuan yesterday you say the things very touching la,
although you said de tune like scolding me but den hor GAN DONG LA.
you are a very good sister =XXX
roy yesterday you say the things oso very gan dong la.
you say the things make a lot of sense =))
you are the best darling ever. =XXX
lengleng leh,
u say de got link la but you make me very du lan lor,
the way u tok and the way you act make me so du lan.
den still call me evil..
(adding oil)
but thanks oso la i know ni wei wo hao =))
you are the best lame shit ever!!! =XXX
as for sam,
I LOVE YOU LA!!!!
your words make me so damn happy..
sisters for life =)))
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later going out for a movie with ROY!!! =)
dunn noe lengleng going not.
watching love matters
woohoooo!!!
i am like so damn happy today..
its the beginning og something new.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009 ; 9:55 PM
went over to tori to buy food,
after that went leng leng house take bike,
long pang her to kaicheng house.
after that go tm meet zhengyuan, edmund and eee lock (sorry dunnch noe how spell)
eat long john with them,
edmund keep calling me da sao,
cause i and zhengyuan couple.
lol.
so damn omg la.
(we nv stead hor!!!)
after that go fair price with them.
edmund kept making me laugh la.
after that go slack with leng leng and yuan yuan.
den go home.
have fun la,
edmund always make me laugh like hell...
edmund sorry ya keep on kap ur phone.
laogong say kap so kap lor =XXX
i thought rocket
i love kaicheng bike de colour
mash potato.turning into liquid form done by me =))
mum said i become very black, =((
but i will still go for tanning =)))
its time to change i want a tan skin tone!!!
its the beginning og something new.
; 8:43 AM
yesterday went over to meet boyfriend(boy de friend),
haven been seeing him for like 2 years, and i have lost his hp number.
sam called asking me to go down to meet him,
she is just the messager.
aftering knowing that rush down to meet him.
he is the most important person of my life.
(he always know just what i need and what i want, he know me pretty well)
(he is the most gentleman guy i ever met)
(i dont like him, thats history. now we are just close friend)
i miss him so damn much.
talk for awhile, and he told me he is going ns soon.
he never change even a single bit =)
when i left he gave me a kiss on my forehead =X
went simei ite to meet caileng,
after that from simei ite walk back to caileng house,
ok it was my idea.
took us 30 mins to walk back.
went caileng house wanna take bike de but den leh lock cannot open,
so nv go riding.
went over to 802 ta bao food go 813 eat.
i miss 813 can..
change a lot liao.
now no people go there slack liao.
after that go park there slack.
prank call ppl as well.
first was like zhengyuan, caileng prank call de.
after that chinsen, i prank call but nv on hp.
zhengyuan came down =)))
was like wearing the same clothes as him la,
couple T =XXX
wanna look for place to sit saw firdaus so slack together.
we were like laughing like hell ok,
i miss firdaus la joker!!!
talk about the past and den started with ghost story.
idiot de lor,
firdaus say ghost story halfway den shout den i oso shout.
idiot de la scare me ,
den he keep on look behind me like got ppl stand behind me like that.
acting as in got ghost.
idiot la.
after finish go home.
=)))
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Leon jay William said:
Nan dao wo men zi jian zhen de you yi dao ,
Kuo bu guo qu de gao qiao ma.
Bu guan wo zhen mo nu li,
Ni gen wo de ju li,
Hao xiang yue lai yue yuan.
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Ni zhen de ren wei wo he ai qing jiao wang,
Zhen de shi shang hao shi mo nang ma?
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Tao ai qing grandpa said:
Ni ru guo hai ai ze ai qing de hua，
Jiu qing ni rang ta zou ba.
Ze xie ri zi yi lai,
Wo kan ta mei you yi tian shi kuai le de.
Wo de xin bi dao ge hai nan guo.
Shui ran ta shi ai ni de ke shi ni ai de bing bu zi shi ta yi ge,
qing ni fang guo ta ba,
bu yao zai rang ta shang xin le.
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Leon jay William said:
Ai qing ,
Only now I have finally realize,
You are really determined to let go of the love between us.
You want to have a totally new life without me.
But,
The love I had, Is only for you
Without you,
There will be no meaning for it.
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Tao ai qing said:
I think I am the luckiest girl on earth.
I kept causing trouble for zi hao,
But yet I didn’t notice it.
I really love him a lot,
More than his expectation.
It’s silly for me to think that I am the only one for him,
But now I realize,
I am not the only one.
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i am like so in love with this show,
heaven's wedding gown..
its quite sad and touching...
its the beginning og something new.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009 ; 10:35 AM
there's lots of programs coming up =)
- 20 Jan 2009 : riding at night.
- 21 Jan 2009 : free.
- 22 Jan 2009 : go buy picnic staff, find picnic basket.
- 23 Jan 2009 : east coast park, tanning and picnic.
- 24 Jan 2009 : go grandma's house for reunion dinner.
- 25 Jan 2009 : sam's house for dinner
- 26 Jan 2009 : bai nian.
- 27 Jan 2009 : k-box, waraku.
- 28 Jan 2009 : free.
- 29 Jan 2009 : out with roy.
- 30 Jan 2009 : free.
- 31 Jan 2009 : swimming, tanning.
this few days,
i can't stop thinking of him.
never see him for like 4 days,
but it seem to be like 4 months.
i miss him so much all of a sudden.
and now we hardly talk.
feel like talking to him,
but im scared that i might say the wrong things.
all i can do was just sit in front of my com looking at the chat board.
i just miss him so damn much :(
leon jay william (a boy, mix blood de) said:
"Ai qing,
I know your true feelings.
I know that you still love me.
But you put up a cold wall,
Between us.
And I am slowly losing the confidents,
To break it down."
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坦白说我不想放弃。
我从来不做没把握的事。
我是不是改变太大了。
爱情是盲目的。
虽然是盲目的，
但放弃爱才是悲哀。
知道吗，你要加油喔。
(so lynette jia you jia you jia you)
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艾青，
经过和海糯的那场比赛，
I finally understand
I am not the only one who is capable of loving you
I know you are my soul mate but am I your too?
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I don’t want to open my eyes
Because I’m afraid I might discover that this is just a dream
But feeling the warmth that he’s giving me
Can I believe that I am not dreaming?
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神母阿，
我能向你请求，
在多给我一点点的时间吗，
让黑夜不要那样快就过去。
因为我怕等天亮之后，
就变了令一个不同的世界。
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gan dong sia
its the beginning og something new.
Monday, January 19, 2009 ; 8:21 AM
ok well,
my whole body is aching!!!
my hands, my leg, my pi gu and my back..
and guess what I GOT SUN BURN!!!
=(((
but yesterday enjoy la so nv regret =)
oh ya,
i cant upload my photo cause its like 100 over photo,
yup its 100 over photo,
all taken yesterday =X
if you all want to view those photo please go to:
http://s120.photobucket.com/albums/o176/deadlyme1992/18%20jan%202009/
sorry for the inconvenient
i shall upload only videos here!
sorry if you have a very hard time seeing the video...
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very gan dong lor!!!!
its the beginning og something new.
Sunday, January 18, 2009 ; 8:54 PM
second post of the day!!!
SORRY YOU GUYS FOR CALLING YOU ALL AT 7am IN THE MORNING!!!
went gym with leng and yuan.
after that went stadium.
after stadium went yoshi to have break =))
after that went white sand eat kfc.
leng accompany me home to get my clothes change,
after that meet yuan at house downstair.
went A1 meet chinsen and kaicheng.
while waiting for kaicheng to have his hair done,
went over to the opposite block to slack.
i was like MAD!!!
keep on di siao chinsen and leng,
and than i was like keep telling yuan i like him..
(i dont like him la, he know it. we are sister forever =) )
after seeing me di siao leng and chinsen, yuan jio in.
so yuan and i were like acting as couple the whole day.
went kaicheng done, went over to chinsen house.
get his bike and chinsen long pang me to kaicheng house
while yuan long pang caileng.
halfway change cause i hate standing and leng like it so.
end up is yuan long pang me and chinsen long pang leng.
when he long pang her i keep on di siao like mad.
went kaicheng house take bike and we cycle to pasir ris park.
i cycle myself, chinsen cycle himself while yuan cycle leng.
VERY TIRED LOR FROM TAM TO PASIR RIS PARK ALL UP HILL..
reach there went to play with sea water.
and than cycle round.
i am like so damn tired ok..
long pang leng too =))
after that went back tam yuan long pang me den leng alone =))
cause chinsen say let the couple be together.
=))
go yuan house there eat,
after that went my house nearby slack while chinsen go home.
go bedok reservoir.
all the way leng so good ppl long pang me leh cycle myself.
yuan long pang leng home,
put kaicheng bike at leng house den yuan long pang me home.
have fun today la..
enjoy it with yuan..
and of cause with chinsen and leng.
oh ya caileng sont anyhow think,
yuan and me is sisters. =X
impossible de,
so dont keep on call me accept him den call him accept me,
den say wad we pei...
lols
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photo will be upload tml as this blog something wrong!!!
once upload photo all the post cant be view.
its the beginning og something new.
; 6:58 AM
its now like 6am going 7am..
wooohoooo...
ITS A BRAND NEW DAY!!!! ANOTHER NEW BEGINNING!!!
decided life wouldnt be like this anymore,
soooooo i am going to make everyday the happiest day of my life...
=)))
later on going gym with yuan yuan and gang,
i promise this time round not going to fang ni men fei ji liao la.
cause i oso wanna jian fei.
=))
slept for like less than 4 hours,
soooo damn tired!!!
i promise i will sleep early tonight
=)
there is a new version of msn!!!
cute sia!!
soooo update ur msn to the newest version la o ba sa,
lao tu leh u!
(cai leng)
=X
anyway before i end,
SIM WAI KIANG GIVE ME THE BLOG URL!!!!!
thanks..
its the beginning og something new.
Saturday, January 17, 2009 ; 7:46 AM
my dear girl,
cheer up ok.
i know how you feel right now.
cause almost the same thing happen to me yesterday.
its true that no medicine can cure those hurt but remember,
live for yourself but not for him.
treasure what you have now and dont end up regretting like me.
its true you want your love one to be happy,
but have you thought after seeing them together just how hurtful you will be.
you care about his happiness but did he think about yours??
ask yourself that.
you wouldnt know what will happen the next day,
so stay happy no matter what,
let bygone be bygone and enjoy every day with no regrets or sadness.
doing all this for a guy is not worth it.
not having you is his lost not your.
you can sure find someone better than him,
its only the matter of time.
even if cannot give up nor forget oso must,
if you love him den leave him,
or else you will end up getting more hurt from him.
dont compare me and you, i different...
i got history de you dont have,
i like him very long liao u just the beginning.
so for u its kind of easy.
and i know la i onli know how to say that but dunnch noe how to do..
but i really hope you will be as happy as ever...
no matter what ying zhu will be here for you de =))
he dont one you den i replace him for you =))
no matter what still got sisters ma,
dont worry so much,
u sad i sad with you..
be mad together and happy together..
dont emo and cry le la...
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NEW SONG UPDATE!!!
How Could You Leave - Regine Velasquez
nanana nana-ah...
nanana nana-ah...
all day i sit along
just thinkin’ about your smile
i see you in my dreams
how you complete me
flowers you left me here
still wilt on the shelf by the phone
you took a part of me
all the tears i've cried for you...
it's day by day for me
the only way i get by
i keep talking in my sleep
as if you we're still right by my side, baby...
how could you leave
i need you with me
all of the precious memories(all of the memories)
just left me behind
and how my heart cries
without you im so lost, baby (i'm so lost)
i still can't believe
that you could just leave
me standing alone in misery(alone in misery)
just left me behind to find me
call my baby...
i pray i call your name
still wishing that you would come home
nothing comforts me
but if you could hold me
my world start to turn
for a moment that this would be right
can you hear me?
baby, don't you need me too?...
are you afraid of me
please tell me how love passed us by
right now i'll do anything
just to have you right back in my life
baby...
how could you leave
i need you with me
all of the precious memories(all of the memories)
just left me behind
and how my heart cries(oh baby baby)
without you im so lost, baby (i'm so lost)
i still can't believe
that you could just leave
me standing alone in misery(how could you leave me?)
just left me behind to find me
call my baby...
(oh baby come back to..)
all of the pain and the hurt trapped inside
keeps pulling me down and god knows
how i try..
so hard when you love someone
the way that i loved you
please come back
we can talk it all out
the time and space my love
will wait for you… .
lala lala lala..
lala lala lala..
it's day by day for me
the only way i get by
i keep talking in my sleep
as if you were still right by me side...
BABY...
how could you leave
i need you with me
all of the precious memories
just left me behind
and how my heart cries
without you im so lost, baby (baby i'm so lost I don’t know what I’m gonna do)
i still can't believe
that you could just leave
me standing alone in misery(standing alone)
just left me behind to find me
.(baby, don’t know, . .come back to me..)
call my baby...
how could you leave(no no no!)
i need you with me(yeah yeah yeah)
all of the precious memories (don’t know what to do)
just left me behind
and how my heart cries
(baby i'm so so lost )
without you im so lost, baby
i still can't believe
that you could just leave
me standing alone in misery(how could you leave me alone?)
just left me behind to find me
call my baby...
(baby come back to mEee . .)
its the beginning og something new.
Friday, January 16, 2009 ; 9:50 AM
Flowers bloom under the sun,
Waiting for its lover.
Working hard to bloom,
But it can’t wait any longer.
Suddenly rain pours and does not stop.
Disrupted the flowers so that it is unable to be married.
Lie to herself that he would be here soon.
Able to cry but still struggling not to.
What words are said, are simply jokes to others.
Love is the fragrant of flowers,
The wings of butterflies,
Cause dandelion to lost direction.
Love will despair in face of loneliness,
But through the loneliness, it will find its strength.
After it grows stronger it continues to long for him.
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go for facial ,
after tat go tori,
sit at mos with boon, boon's friend,jared, ben and kang.
after that go kang house with boon.
after that go home.
its the beginning og something new.
Thursday, January 15, 2009 ; 8:12 AM
Who can tell me?
How far is the heaven of love?
The dream of yours and mine,
Would it be able to become reality?
Increasingly difficult to believe,
A life without you,
Like human without its soul.
Why is it that in my eyes,
There’s always that premonition that it will rain.
Even though walking amongst the crowds,
The feeling is still loneliness.
Why is it in your eyes?
I can’t see your love?
Could it be that love has already dissolved into time?
Why is it that the reason for falling in love,
Followed and left you when you turned your back?
Heaven of love is already so far that it is unreachable.
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well, i am like soooooo happy la ,
meeting my sot sot sister.
woo~la~la..
omg omg happy la!!
=)))
went simei ite to wait for her,
after that went to her house and than off to tm,
had pizza hut and than off to white sand,
after that went off to ben's house.
play with his dog and hamster.
after that he drove us to kang's house =)
i sit with kang at behind so damn happy sia..
was like keep on wanna laugh.
ben drove us to east coast eat.
brought carrot cake and mango pudding.
had some of sister's shark fin but den very hard la love the Taste of vinegar.
=))
after that drive den bring sister home den sent me home.
kang brought me up.
and so thats the end.
its the beginning og something new.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009 ; 8:57 AM
Why does fate play us like this?
Love within reach yet if runs off.
Feel like saying I love you.
I LOVE YOU MAN!!!
=X
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have been watching this show for the whole day yesterday,
"Heaven's wedding gown".
its quite an old show la..
fate fate fate, love love love.
yesterday only 1 people sms me and 2 people bother to reply!!!,
bored can..
next time not going to sms anyone first le,
everytime sms all nv reply de.
its like not 1 or 3 people but 10 can!!!
today sure no one will sms me de la!!
nor am i going to waste my time smsing people who dont reply..
back to the show~
its the beginning og something new.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009 ; 9:25 AM
I’ve grown sick of your requests.
No response,
Doesn’t mean I don’t have my own ideas.
I’m tired of your perfectionist ways.
One day ,
I will decide to walk away from everything.
I can’t lose my precious freedom.
You say women ,
Should be meek and traditional.
You say women ,
Shouldn't be sensitive.
I say man enough,
Stop your unreasonable request.
Because of you I am no longer me,
I just want my long lost freedom back.
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well you guys dont have to care about what i wrote on top,
this are all nonsense,
me, myself dont even know what im writing as well.
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yesterday went for a run and today will be going for a run as well,
days at home sure are bored so will be using this time for myself to slim..
=))
well mum brought my favourite, most favourite food yesterday,
its my childhood's favourite till now,
apple strudel..
wooohooo..
and she also brought my most favourite maggie mee "mee goreng"..
ok well before i end i would like to thank someone,
SIM WEE KANG XIE XIE!!!!
thanks for the talk yesterday and being the listener as well,
and sorry for making you going mad..
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recent photo~
apple strudel
its the beginning og something new.
Monday, January 12, 2009 ; 9:54 AM
Now things are changing,
I wonder what's wrong.
The passion is gone and the flames died down.
I guess I lost a bit of self-esteem.
I knew that we were having problems,
But you are still the light of my life.
You seem so far away distant and lost in a haze,
I've been doing much thinking
wondering if it's a phase that you're going through,
My love is here to stay but you are drifting away.
lalalalala~
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well no school life suck,
i am bored to death!!!
anyone if free jio me out..
anyone will do..
even if go down do nothing oso can,
at least got someone to tok to..
at home suck la!!!
caileng i know how u feel liao..
its the beginning og something new.
Sunday, January 11, 2009 ; 10:17 AM
Sitting in this corner,
There are so many things I kept in my heart.
Our mistake,
Is not willing to let go of each other
I who have hurt you
Should have set you free long ago
Knowing that in the future
I would need to continue walking forward
Maybe the more we mind each other
The more we hurt ourselves
A relationship like this
What does it count as?
Love is not here anymore
I should have walked out of the memories
Love is not here anymore
We are no longer part of each other’s future
Sometimes
No matter how dependent we are on love
Even if we do not wish to get hurt once more
I understand
We can only let go..
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just now zhengyuan call den zhanyi call me go down slack,
idiot sia keep on say kang kang kang,
idiot de la =))
its the beginning og something new.
Saturday, January 10, 2009 ; 9:03 PM
just now went to kang's house after that catch a movie with him.
quite an ok show la,
after show went eat western..
MUSHROOM SOUP +)
after that he brought me home.
ok well enjoy today...
tml sheree coming over to my house =))
miss her sia
its the beginning og something new.
Friday, January 9, 2009 ; 8:05 AM
yesterday went out to eat with benedict.
YOU KNOW WHAT!!!
he eat a lot lor,
dont know how many chicken wing, should be more than 5,
a bowl of rice and fish.
omg..
sometimes so sian mu people who eat alot will not fat de.
after that went home.
as for today,
woken up by zhengyuan's call,
was like so damn happy cause he jio me back to sec sch.
5 min later he called back telling me not meeting up already,
cause no one wants to go.
SUCH A DISAPPOINTMENT.
i miss them all can,
i dont think i have the chance to see them that offen le:
weikang ,zhengyuan, zhanyi, weide, puiman, caileng, chinsen, kaicheng,
shaozheng, boonsiong, waikiang, benedict, huimin, mingling, kristi,
jacqueline, naz, roy, sheree, kaijing(lost contact le), 4T1 de malay girls, jie ru, jie ming, wan ling
TODAY PHOTO!!!
puiman (face not round ar, nv edit till kns )
kiang
ya pin up my hair today when i was out
LAST WEEK PHOTO!!!
mum drove me to puiman's house,
after that drove us to tm..
had mos burger!!
same old burger la (fish burger)
waikiang came and pei us walk around,
looking for puiman school bag and school shoes.
went tm, cs, 800+, 201 there and tampines mart.
go puiman house that time hor scary lor got doll at window there,
i hate dolls la...
after that went home alone =))
beginning to love those loneliness days~
love going home alone,
love shopping alone,
love being alone..
being alone very quite, able to think lots of staff for improvement.
not kidding!!
lots of things are happening so wrong now a day,
i thought i change for the better but i was wrong,
everything seems worst.
i am tired, i tried.
i am serious about everything i told you.
i know i never get serious in anything,
nothing at all, but just you, i am serious about you!!!
i didnt mean to said those words nor did i meant to make you angry again,
if you were someone else i wouldnt even care about what you say or do.
but IT WAS STILL YOU!!!
i love you that why i care so much about the things you said,
i dont wish to make you hate me nor do i wan to lost you as a friend.
i have lost you once and i dont wish to lost you again.
you just mean so much to me.
its the beginning og something new.
Thursday, January 8, 2009 ; 4:17 PM
morning meet puiman and munirah.
went to school to meet mingling.
share the same locker la.
make 3 new friends =)
huimin's friend, jacqueline and kristi.
happy la..
had 2 hours of lunch today cause teacher have something on,
had lunch with mingling and huimin came,
go meet huimin friend and headed off to look for teacher.
from level 1 climb stairs to level 6,
i was the first to reach =))
look for teacher and quit nursing.
mingling was like ourtside the staff room waiting for me
=))
after that go talk talk to jacqueline and kristi den go find puiman,
talk den go caileng house look for her.
look le den go simei ite with her lor cause she go interview,
she is in, beauty services..
as for me i am like so damn free,
its my turn to rot at home ya..
woohoo.
its the beginning og something new.
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