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But I'm not wasting my time,
Over something which is not worth it. |
SWEETsuicideLOVES
Tuesday, March 31, 2009 ; 6:42 AM
before leaving for school i wanna say this:
HE'S BACK (:
HE'S BACK (:
hello(;
i'm back from school.
oh yeah he's back, he's back, he's back!!!!!
later there's no accountings lesson.
teacher went oversea (:
oh yeah, he's back !!!!
i'm so happy, he's back~
ok leng is back too.
everything was planned and now cancel,
marcus not going, jeff not going and now caileng not going.
nvm forget it seriously.
nvm!!!! talk to jeff can vomit blood.
omg!!!
its the beginning og something new.
Monday, March 30, 2009 ; 3:16 PM
reach school at 6.50am.
and was like waiting for john.
and when the time was up,
it was time for us to sing.
me serena and alexandra,
and guess what we dont know when to start and stop,
so the band was playing the music and us not singing for most of the part.
i had butterfly in my stomach.
back to class did all the test.
after school went lunch with serena.
and i feel so old.
almost everyone there are in the age of 14,15,16.
and i am 17 one of the oldest ):
there's this guy whom i met,
gave me a very good impression on him and guess what!
to me he looks like 18,19 but his real age is 15,16.
was like what the hell, he is like so tall,
TALLER THAN me.
HAHAHAHA.
( LOL )
after that went over mall,
intend to meet boyfriend for movie,
but he went out with his girlfriend again
so kana ps again lor.
and the clothes i order online is here (:
and it sucks.
one too big, one too small, one too hot. LOL
its the beginning og something new.
Sunday, March 29, 2009 ; 3:10 PM
sorry for all the things i said,
sorry for everything.
please forgive me.
there's still things which i haven let go of.
i still like him alot and i don't think it will be that easy to let go fully.
but seriously i'm not the one you're looking for.
i'm not good in any ways.
i'm a spoil brat like what he said.
don't get yourself drunk again please.
nothing will help.
wouldn't friends be better than anything.
i don't wish to be restrict (:
maybe next time but not now,
i don't wish to be hurt so deeply again.
sorry.
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i'm so bored~
its the beginning og something new.
Saturday, March 28, 2009 ; 9:01 PM
before i start talking about today,
BON VOYAGE KANG(:
&
BON VOYAGE CAILENG!
went interchange to meet vino,
my school friend from another class.
and than off to geylang's church.
after that back home.
idiot wants to meet his girlfriend instead of me.
so who wanna watch "17 again" tomorrow please let me know.
i dont mind watching it with just 1 people,
watch can liao.
anw JUNHAO HAPPY BIRTHDAY
its the beginning og something new.
; 8:06 AM
YESTERDAY SCHOOL WAS FINE.
PE was like having "JI NA STICK"
lol.
that stupid mr ang is like pervert~
and you know what he make us do retarded things.
we were like what the hell.
people from other classes were like standin outside the "hall" looking at us laughing.
paiseh!!!
manage to finish class work super early and so set the whole of math and english for homework.
as in the whole book, ya i know i am crazy but i want a new pace and move up faster (:
after sch i didn't stay back for rehearse ;X
went over to the gate and people were like asking for my number and asking me to go Church today.
he brought me home (:
met marcus and that black black guy (i still don't know his name) at MRT.
and than tooook the MRT to orchard.
went cine to look for L.P, xiao ma and weilun.
and all the di siao begain =.=
L.P kept saying me and marcus den weilun join in,
cause for the whole day marcus was like taking my bag, handphone, jacket, everything la.
after awhile went cinema with L.P, weilun, xiao ma, marcus and jeff to wait for the rest.
watch COMING SOON.
sat beside marcus and was like argh.
he told me that ghost was like just sitting beside me =.=
after that walk around and went home.
talk with marcus on the phone and than called weilun.
con with L.P jeff weilun and marcus.
and than i was like the first to hang cause i'm like super tired.
when i was about to off my phone some idiot called me.
he was like lynette go toilet pee.
and i was like orh.
and he was like laughing.
idiot him.
talk to him for the whole night.
and i am like so tired.
and so maybe i'm not going there today.
i want to sleep (:
see first~ see if there's anyone going!
and now it's photo time (:
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photos are mostly taken by marcus.
thanks ya.
marcus~
fatty me , marcus took de
marcus and me ( i cover my face with the star as my face look retarded)
jeff, he look like wu chun seriously
weilun, jeff
leng ah leng ah leng (:
weilun
marcus
weilun jeff
weilun with leng ah leng ah leng things, marcus with my bag, leng ah leng ah leng. haha
leng ah leng ah leng
jeff
meeeeee(:
leng ah leng ah leng and i
xiao ma
marcus
leng ah leng ah leng. marcus. ( lol)
that black black guy in train. LOL. funny.
the guy sitting down look like T. (practice for singing and music for this coming monday.)
fat fat ):
serena, she is USA + JAPAN. mix blood
i'm so fat. oh no. look at my retarded hair. thats the only day i let my fringe down.
its the beginning og something new.
Thursday, March 26, 2009 ; 5:04 PM
school per normal,
fun (:
break time a guy from another class came to talk to me,
and guess what he know T, my meijuan lao gong, pris, sandy they all.
omg singapore so small.
after sch went eat with serena and than back to sch to practice singing.
mos scold me ): cause i make them wait.
sorry~
practice a while den went back home.
this time went back alone serena mum came to fetch her.
went xi men to buy drinks and the uncel say i bian thin liao (:
and later on at night accountings ):
sian!
busy month..
);
its the beginning og something new.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009 ; 5:56 PM
SCHOOL WAS GREAT (:
PE first and was like hanging out with my new friend serena the whole day.
and i'm like mad.
PE doing stupid things la.LOL.
after that lesson time i was like did all my work 2 hours before school end,
so serena and i were like playing hangman.
LOL.
yayayaya mos was like kept saying things and i was like laughing.
den a guy(i forget his name) came over mad me super pissed off.
(shall not say what it is.)
after school went over to have lunch with serena.
and saw dino, joker her(:
after that back to school for practice
wondering what practice right.
singing practice for monday.
yup a few boys and i am going to sing for the whole school.
as in me and serena sing, the boys play guitar, drum, bass and piano.
cool right.
dream come true (:
the guy who play guitar was the guy who look like T.
and i was like keep looking at him and another guy.
the another guy was like keep making me laugh like hell.
super funny la him.
after that serena and i went to aljunied mrt den off we go our own way.
went tori to buy food for bro and than back home.
its the beginning og something new.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009 ; 4:30 PM
SCHOOL WAS GREAT TODAY, EVEN BETTER THAN YESTERDAY (:
VICTORYLIFE CHRISTIAN SCHOOL ROCK (:
VICTORYLIFE CHRISTIAN SCHOOL ROCK (:
went to the "hall" for bible reading again.
sound boring right.
(i almost fall asleep yesterday.)
hahahaha
this time round different songs are in too (:
the guy whom i admire a lot was playing the drum today (:
cool man.
and we were like separated to our own house grouping.
and guess what im in the same group as him.
LOL.
he know how to play a drum, a guitar, dance hip hop, do breaking, sporty and sing.
the kind of guys i like =X
(well i like guys who know how to dance,sporty, sing and play guitar/drum and loves to joke)
he is like super funny kept laughing over his action.
back to class completed the pace for english.
and after school surprise(:
alex and gang ask me to join them for lunch (:
so went off with them.
they are so funny la.
after that back to school for house practice.
and the guy who i admire talk to me quite a lot(:
after that off home (:
quite a good day for me manage to know lots of people from other classes as well.
and guess what i saw a guy who look like T !!!!
LOL.
ok well i'm done with today.
but before i end YOU KNOW WHO CHEER UP(:
maybe for me this kind of people really wouldn't understand,
and i may not be able to get a change to understand or even hear whats wrong
but what i understand/know is i wouldn't want to see you so mad or emo or what so ever.
your P.M say BE HAPPY ALWAYS AH!!!!!!!!!
den you oso must be happy always ma (:
(: yi ge ba
bu yao shen qi le la. (:
THANKS FOR CALLING ME JUST TO TELL ME TO "BEWARE" FROM THAT GUY,
THANKS AR (:
lol!!!
(next time just sms me can liao dont need call aryo :D)
its the beginning og something new.
Monday, March 23, 2009 ; 2:02 PM
EXPECTING THE UNEXPECTED.
LALALALALA..
YESTERDAY:~
out for lunch over at T3 had popeye.
rush back to tam to meet sweetheart.
and found out that my ex was in the same class as her.
(singapore is so small.. LOL)
went AMK hub.
nothing much.
ate that yogurt thing, and it suck like hell ..
went "bus stop" intend to buy clothes but nothing caught my eyes.
went over orchard,
wisma and than cine.
sean not working yesterday i think cause i cant find him.
went k box (:
sweetheart and i were like went high (:
and i can say i'm super sway.
i sat on the broken chair and almost fall down.
WTH!!!
went cs after that back home.
as for today woke up at 5+++ without the alarm (:
dad brought me to school(:
and sch was alright better than i expect.
made lots of friends (:
i was like pin my hair everything tie up so neat.
(i would rather look ugly than looking funny. funny as in letting down only my fringe)
so yucky.
and guy came over and asked:
you ah lian ah.
was like WTH do i look like one.
and he even told me a lot of people think so too.
WTH WTH WTH!!!!
i am like so damn quite la!!!
finish the whole book(:
oh ya before i end,
personality test:
YOU ARE MAYBE A BIT AGGRESSIVE,
You scare ppl!but you are not mean, you are a good friend once people come to know you..just be a bit more open
You scare ppl!but you are not mean, you are a good friend once people come to know you..just be a bit more open
its the beginning og something new.
Saturday, March 21, 2009 ; 9:00 PM
I'M BACK HOME (:
misunderstood do happen sometimes.
but what you think about today aren't true.
I'm not interested in any guys there nor do i have a stead there.
in fact,
i don't like or love anyone now, my heart is dead.
(i have totally given up on the past and him it's time to move out of those hurts )
i would rather be single and unloved than being hurt again (:
and i believe I'm still young to be trap in this kind of relationship thing,
AND YES I WAN MY LONG LOST FREEDOM!!!
OK back to the topic.
went over to get things from my baby derek.
(he keep calling me mummy every since yesterday, LOL )
after that off i go to get my hair done.
treatment and cut.
when everything was done went over to lesbian partner's house.
after knowing about the plan to town,
rush back home to change and put on make-up.
yup going over to town without make up and a more long zhong clothes i will die.
went back to lesbian partner's house,
headed off to inter's small mac to meet wei lun and his real blood sis.
WEILUN SAY I LOOK LIKE AUNTY. ):
went over to town and waited for the boy whom i kept asking "IS HE A CHINA GUY".
lol.
while waiting a lady came over to ask us for direction and L.P and i were like blur.
after that a group of korean guys came over to talk to me.
asking me to take photo for them.
and i was like dont one la paiseh, L.P was like you photographer leh go take la.
so went over to help them.
after that they came back and ask me to take photo with them.
and i was like dont one la.
in the end L.P was pull into the whole situation by me.
so 2 of us were like taking photos with those korean guys.
when that so call CHINA GUY came went wisma eat.
and saw their friend ivan and gang.
walk around town and its time for me to go home.
so didn't join the 5 guys and L.P for the movie.
and than 2 stranger brought me home (:
(thanks L.P for asking them to bring me home although i don't one la.)
took cab home with 2 guys and they were like telling me jokes.
haha.
and the "look like malay guy" keep on take his friend's phone ask me give him my number.
LOL.
anw thanks for accompanying me back home and wasted your $30 on cab fee (:
AND EDWIN SORRY I KNOW I'M A BASTARD,
BUT YOUR NOTHING BETTER XD.
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除了想你 除了爱你
我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记 整理心情
我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情 不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆 不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情 早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你 不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你
its the beginning og something new.
; 8:46 AM
ok well it's HAPPY BELATED BRITHDAY WEI . L!!!
AND derrick thanks for the web (:
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and before i end, a video (:
(someone send me this at msn)
so cute lor, round round fat fat de.
its the beginning og something new.
Friday, March 20, 2009 ; 1:04 PM
yesterday studied 3 books.
dont know alot of staff and derek gave the formulae (;
DEREK THANKS FOR THE HELP (:
studied the whole day ever since i woke up.
went to take a afternoon nap at 3 woke up at 5 intending to study again.
and in the end never study at all,
went e-hub instead.
went there eat eat den go white sand shop.
after that back home see tv.
and than tried to remember the whole formulae the whole night.
lost 2 kg in 3 days. and was like so happy yesterday,.
(no grain, no meat, no fish, only water and vege. one meal a day)
but i think because i ate a lot yesterday at e hub thats why i gain weight again.
gain back that 2 kg.
ARGH!!!!
woken up everyone this morning,
studied for the last time before heading off to school for the test.
reach there, ENGLISH SURE FAIL!!!!
papaer was harder than i thought..
social studies easy, math headache!!!!
giving you lots of N level question asking you not to use calculator for all the question.
and i was like ARGH.
doing commission, scales and map, circles without calculator!!!
almost fall asleep during test.
im like so tired!!!
1 day without sleep is like hell don't know just how they tahan for so many days.
had a friend in sch (:
name domanic, age 18.
he brought me to aljunied MRT STATION.
thanks (:
went tam mrt there meet mum and headed home alone,
darren seeing doctor thats why.
off to sleep now,
nights (:
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i'm 28% boylish and 76% girlish (:
its the beginning og something new.
Thursday, March 19, 2009 ; 11:14 AM
yesterday was the last day of lesson,
and teacher show us his master piece (:
was like so cooooooool.
he took picture of hamsters.
not those normal kind in cage but cooool photos.
hamster sitting on the mini size moto pretending to be driving.
haha.
he said it took him a long time cause the hamster keep on drop down.
sooo cute la.
sad to say i can't continue photography.
reason:
no S.L.R camera, intermediate lesson will be teaching you mostly on nude photos.
but never mind at least I COMPLETED MY COURSE!!!!
PARTNER liping she is like so shy, and guess what she's an army instructor.
ren bu ke mao xiang.
hahaha.
i will miss her damn much...
will be attending photoshop photography instead of intermediate.
(:
and for now it's stress time as in finally something to do at home.
study study study!!!!
tomorrow's exam wish me luck....
and before i end GEVIN WU IS LOVED BIG TIME (:
LOVE HIM FOREVER AND EVER TILL THE SKY DROP. :X
HIS MY ONE AND ONLY AIAI.
HAHAHAHA. disgusting!!!!
but i do love him (:
its the beginning og something new.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009 ; 2:55 PM
Yesterday super busy.
so i didn't on my phone nor did i reply any msn message.
i never play MIA!!!
anw PUIMAN,BONVOYAGE!!!!(:
Today, woke up super early.
went to school to take test.
English, Math and science.
i complete the whole book of science(36 pages), math complete 16/24 pages, english 30/68 pages.
continue the rest of the test on friday.
i totally forgotten those formulae, so today and tomorrow study!!!!
so wouldn't be blogging nor going online.
at night last day of photography (:
soooo today I'M GETTING MY CERT!!! (:
its the beginning og something new.
Monday, March 16, 2009 ; 12:46 PM
did the personality test, and the result is:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions You are lovely and caring. You help others and spread out a lot of sympathy. Your life aim maybe is to serve the people. But your weakness is that you forget about yourself, your own needs. All your time is hold back for your friends and family. You are always there for people in trouble. Ready for any emergency. You make a lot of sacrifices just to be a good human. But every woman has her needs, her longings and a destiny. Don't loose yourself in work or curing other people's souls. You will have your own problems in your life. Another problem is that you don't say your opinion when it's right and important to say it. People trample onto your soul if you are always so kind and lovely and helpful. They will play on you. Though you should try to relax more and enjoy your life, you should not loose the gift that was given to you to help others . Not everyone is created this way... You are uniqe and rare
DEREK YOU'RE SO LAME!!!
I KNOW I HAVE 2 EMAILS ACCOUNT,
YOU DONT NEED TO SAY HI AT BOTH SIDE DE.
lol.
its the beginning og something new.
; 9:01 AM
SORRY PUIMAN FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO ACCOMPANY YOU FOR A RUN YESTERDAY.
yesterday family dinner (:
meet ah qing mum, 2 kor kor, their stead , their family, sam mum and my family.
went changi airport eat crystal jade.
after that walk around wait for the gate to open,
sam and her ex came,
all of us went to the gate there and goodbye to ah qing's mum.
saw sam's photo on the front page of magazine.
real person look better. haha.
after that korkor family went home, sam , her family and her ex went makan and my family went home.
botak kor kor is 18 but den leh look 20 +++, he going army soon.
i wonder why people their age look so mature as in older than their age,
but my age and below look so kiddo.
LOL.
especially zhengyuan, 18 liao still so kiddo :X
NO OFFENCE!!!!!
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There isn't a reason. I just like you.
When we first met, I felt something important.
Take a deep breath Let my heart settle down
A perfect love is a silent melody.
Listen, I listen to your indecisive air
Wait, I wait for you to put down your worries
Hey, if you gently close your eyes
I will understand your decision.
Cause I Believe
That happiness is an undying law
In your hand and heart, who is there to give you beauty
The person who is silent remains forever silent, Let my heart silently guard you.
Blessings don't use echoes.
Just like the sea, concern and loving, The sky's manner of feelings.
You walked forwards I watched you from behind.
It's enough for my world of unconditioned weather.
You, if you already love her name
Love, if there isn't a gap in between.
Hey, if you can be happy forever.
I'm willing to be like this forever.
Cause I believe
It doesn't have to be me that holds your hand and heart
Just like a star will eventually have a reason to shine
its the beginning og something new.
Sunday, March 15, 2009 ; 7:42 AM
ADRAIN IS A BIG TIME BASTARD WHO LOVES TO EAT SHIT!!! :x
AHAHAHA.
i miss you anyway (:
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Where's Love ?
My love !
What are you hiding in your bosom,
it's so tight till you can't hug me.
Trying to find warmth on your chest, but I find a desert .
A smile without any feeling, a hand without any warmth,
the sky which is slowly falling is rushing down towards me .
Where's your love, where are you,
what happened to the happy times in the past, it's all gone .
Don't tell me you can really bear to part with (my) heart,
what happened to all the promises (you made) .
It has all been thrown away.
What about my love for you, who have you given it to .
What are you thinking of, your mouth has no time to kiss me,
I want to hear you say that you love me, but I only hear silence.
Have I gone lost somewhere, going into someone else's dream?
The intimacy that was there before has become estranged.
I know that many changes are happening in the world,
but I never thought you would change as well.
I really miss the day when you first fell for me.
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i love shu chen .
i love shu chen .
i love shu chen .
i love shu chen .
i love shu chen .
i love shu chen .
i love shu chen .
i love shu chen .
i love shu chen .
i love shu chen .
he's so cute, shu chen aka xiu (:
woke up at 6 and than found out puiman message me last night.
running change to night time cause she slept super late.
i don't think i can make it,
have something on at night.
but i will try to squeeze in my time (:
have thought about it last night,
maybe i have turn from bad to worst.
that's why the different is great?
i don't know.
shall not think about it anymore,
it pains me when i does that.
its the beginning og something new.
Saturday, March 14, 2009 ; 4:51 PM
second post (:
went lunch with him and after that off to waterloo street for lesson.
before meeting teacher and classmate he went off to buy drinks for me.
and we were like suppose to share and he was like giving me the whole bottle of vege drink,
and you know why THE TASTE IS DISGUSTING.
no wonder he became so good LOL....
teacher came and he left and i was like walking round alone taking photos.
took photos of people i don't know and they were like scolding me.
KEN, eugene and bala say:" in singapore taking photos of people are not an offence".
made friends with a korean girl. she so funny.
took lots of photo of a ah gong,
he so cute sia...
haha.
some photos i used ken's camera to take so will upload some other day.
after that he brought me to tm to take photos from puiman ,
and than sent me home (:
photos upload here:" http://s120.photobucket.com/albums/o176/deadlyme1992/14%20mar%2009/
enjoy (:
its the beginning og something new.
; 7:33 AM
i will prove to you i'm not going to give up halfway anymore.
it's a different lynette now!!!
im going to complete it and get my cert!!!
Too much expectation will only lead to a higher chance of getting hurt.
I'm sorry for making you feel bad all this while.
but i still strongly believe there's no wrong loving you.
i will be waiting, i don't care who you like or love,
i will still be waiting. zhi yao ni kai xin jiu hao le.
is it wrong to love someone who doesn't love you?
is it wrong with me ?
what have i done wrong?
why are the difference getting greater and greater ?
what wrong with me?
those hurt are 3 times more than before.
3 times more than a normal person.
how i wish i am born with no feelings at all.
well, yesterday meet puiman went food palace eat.
after that headed off to sec school.
i can't go into school cause i wear above knee shorts and bare back.
was like SHIT! new rule.
went void deck slack and puiman was like talking to shaozheng,
i was like putting my hand in front of her asking her to pass me the phone.
and you know what she do she go kap the phone.
SHE DON"T LET ME TALK TO HER AI AI!!!!!
so went cs buy glue for fake lash and wait for shaozheng.
and than this time round puiman's fault again.
she bluff us make me and shao zheng went up the wrong escalator.
(we went up the going down escalator.)
LOL.
so paiseh.
and than meet ben and kang for a show.
watch race to witch mountain, nice show la.
after show went toilet i lost my phone.
but manage to get it back, hao xin ren (:
go eat eat after that go see ben wash car.
puiman me and shaozheng went play ground play.
me and puiman climb high high and than i don't know how to come down.
LOL.
wanna jump and puiman was like so high make me even more afraid.
end up i manage to climd down of cause.
after that ben drove us to park slack.
they went their way and we went our way, go meet kaicheng chinsen and yuan
stupid yuan keep on call me slut.
argh!!!
when they started playing poke i went home.
its the beginning og something new.
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