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But I'm not wasting my time,
Over something which is not worth it. |
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Wednesday, April 28, 2010 ; 9:27 PM
Monday.
Ang Swee boon never come, so call sick again.
And he even ask me to visit him to see if his sick
is real or not, but the truth is he just wan to see me lol.
Bhb I know.
Was like under sitcom the whole day, cold room and Harold was like lend me ur jacket and he was like why so small
and I was like because I small size and he was like ahahahahah that's the best joke ever -.-
did clam clowder.
Dinner at crazy jack cafe, food not tt nice
Tuesday, yesterday.
School starts at 1.15 I arrive at 12 so went west mall with sweeboon, kartono and Bernard
went look for water chestnut. I was like can kok de can kok de den boon was like what kok what kok
den start to make fun of me as usual.
Brought herbal drink for Sujata cause she got sore throat
den went back to sch
recieve wheel biscuit from dardar, white chocolate from dardar too and white chocolate from sweeboon
ate for like 2 hour nonstop and Harold was like Lynette stop eating please stop eating fat enough already
and I was like nvm I already fat.
And I didn't eat for dinner cause really fat Liao
haoming give me terrine
I kick boon on his inject leg.
wed, today
make poached egg, boil egg, half boil egg, scrabble egg, sunny side up, over easy and etc
total eleven eggs used
gave haoming a few eggs which I done and he got stomach upset :(
sorry
boon brought cheese durian cake for me and milk tea
Jane won third in the potato challenge
after sch went for foie GRAS
and I kena say by boon again
and yes he got beaten up by me again
its the beginning og something new.
Monday, April 26, 2010 ; 10:32 PM
talking about relationship matters.
people keep asking WHEN ARE YOU INTENDING TO GET INTO A RELATIONSHIP AGAIN.
why are people rushing to get into a relationship so quickly.
for statue? for sex? or really because they love each other?
people could just get into a relationship and SO CALL FALL DEEPLY in just less den a week.
(and of cause it's wouldnt last long, that's what i think)
isn't that a bit too fast, like ya.
telling a girl you love her when you just met her yesterday.
like WTH, FOR LOOKS? FOR STATUE? or for sex?
when i am starting to love my life like this the way i am being single.
everyone was like getting a boyfriend, so call asking me to get one as well.
to me now, there's no such thing as true love or eternity love.
now love to me is all about passing DCS, getting a job and my future.
and it's not that i am not intending to be in one as well.
it's just that it's not the right time yet, maybe till i met someone who understand me well enough.
knowing what i want, knowing what's on my mind and being in my shoes when i am down rather den just asking me to cheer up.
a perfect bf for me is someone who is :
- understand the situation i am in.
- understand me well enough
- know what i want, what i love and hate
- know what i am thinking of without me telling him.
- being able to stand by me when i am down, shower me with words to cheer me up and not just say the word cheer up
yup i know it sound so stupid, and impossible
its the beginning og something new.
; 10:05 PM
I didn't talk to Donny the whole day.
I went crazy like forever.
I was just super bored and no mood.
My mood was super bad recently.
And I got pissed off with ade cause she doesn't want to return me my phone.
I diao junwei today for throwing paper at me.
And it's like the first time I Got so pissed off this year or should i say for the past 2-3 years.
jasper and gang said that i have no temper at all.
as i never really show, but in fact i have a very bad temper.
and it's just that it hasn't activate for a very long time.
when i am serious i am expecting you to be serious as well,
but you guys just think that it's another one of my jokes.
yes i admit i joke around play around most of the time but i could be serious at times too but you just didn't notice.
i may not care whatever you guys say about me but in fact deep down inside i mind it a lot.
i mind what people say about me!
i can joke around with you, but over doing it is another thing.
i am someone who thinks a lot, mind alot.
its the beginning og something new.
Sunday, April 25, 2010 ; 9:02 PM
today isn't my day.
i'm like in super bad mood today feeling like getting involve in an arguement.
but i didn't. cause no one offended me today.
i know i'm like crazy waiting for people to find fault.
i just want to vent my anger on something.
ok well, you should know i hate people who text me when i am sleeping.
and guess what, 49 sms. phone keep ringing nonstop for an hour.
and guess what i got pissed off with my TANBIBI!
went to sleep, finally i got some rest after switching off my phone,
bibi came in and start to lick my leg, i ignore him.
he jump onto my bed and start barking beside my ear.
and of cause i jump up of bed and scream. shocking ok.
after awhile i thought i could finally get some peace.
bibi came in again and bite my hand, as usual i ignore.
and he bark again. shock again.
and decided not to sleep anymore.
and when i went out to play with him, he went to sleep!
IDIOT DOG.
and so i did the same thing as he did.
i bite his leg and start to hit his butt and i got a bite from him on the face.
and later we begin biting each other.
bibi cried cause i bite his tail.
i kena scolding. he bite me i pain also no one scold him. LIKE SO UNFAIR LOL.
well dinner with benjamin and benedict and their parents LOL
its the beginning og something new.
; 8:12 AM
From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then- in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life- was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed me flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.
its the beginning og something new.
; 7:57 AM
ok well i seriously hate it when people just FANG WO FEI JI.
being late it's ok but not for more den an hour.
not turning up last minute, i'm ok with it but at least let me know.
BUT telling me you are coming but didn't turn out at all.
it's like what the F.
you make me wait for like freaking long, thinking that you are on your way but you are still at home and not coming.
and if i ask you a question, i was expecting you to answer me directly not indiectly.
like i'm serious ok!
for example i wan to know where you are but you just tell me you are on the way but in the end, still at home -.-
and the next minute you are like otw otw but in the end you just tell me can i not come.
LIKE WTH.
you tell people that you are otw, so which means left home coming here but the truth is you have not left ur house and not intending to leave.
ok well, you are just not responsible enough and not honest enough.
next thing is that stop irritating me with your nonsense,
you are just so damn irritating at times.
well i know my attitude suck now a day,
i have super bad temper this few days.
there are lots of things in my mind which make me easily pissed off.
and of cause due to some personal reason.
so just leave me alone, stop telling me bullshit and irritated me.
once again if you think it's you den it's you, if you think it's not den its not
its the beginning og something new.
Saturday, April 24, 2010 ; 8:25 PM
Took circle line to yishun to meet haoming, sebaz, Nathaniel, Deon.
Wait for Donny there and off to bishan for prawning.
Prawn for 3 hour. And caught 3 to 4 prawns. 4-6 run away.
My rod keep hitting the roof.
And my prawn can fly one leh!
Lols
jasmine, Jillian, kristee came, the brought worms and haoming cut the worms into pieces
so black hearted xD
later Nathaniel, Jillian , kristee and jasmine went off
we cook prawns.
Got dog dog there damn cute one!!!
Haoming become my shi Fu .
And after tt went home.
its the beginning og something new.
; 7:44 AM
YESTERDAY.
reach expo at 8am.
went over to look for junwei, jane at hall 2.
went over to chef booth to get some breakfast for them as well.
off i go to hall 7 when it was times up.
hmmm, last day of work, less things to do.
well i cook lamb noodles, mix soba and prawns salad.
oh ya did i mention there's steak yesterday.
last day of seeing chef kurt :(
i will miss him.
he told me he would give me his recipe book but both of us forget so dont have :(
freeze keep coming over to di siao.
unch time went over to look for sweeboon, adeline, jane, junwei.
hmm, kope ice cream from chef booth,16 of it and gave it all to jane and etc.
cause all of them havent'eaten i think.
back to custom culinary and WAH packing already.
i tabao a lot of food, talk talk laugh laugh and say bye bye to chef.
i will miss him.
aunty kope hotdogs for me cause she know i havent eating.
pie kor kor kope his shop de beef pie for me.
the guy who work at the shop opposite me gave me cheesecake.
another anuty gave me yogurt.
faith gave me carrotcake.
:D
after that FANG GONG :D
went to change and melvin was like i can't reconize you you look different in ur chef uniform.
ahahaha.
wait for freeze, haoming, jiayi, limbin, donny, sebaz, etc at indoguna.
went off with them and waited at expo's teaxi stand for jiayi mum.
and off we go haoming, deon, sebaz, kevin , freeze, gary, limbin, jiayi to cityhall.
went mac with freeze sebaz kevin and jiayi.
and off to kbox without freeze.
awhile later i left them for some wine with my DEAR boy who is going into army.
ahahaha. will miss that si botak.
anw today prawning!
its the beginning og something new.
Thursday, April 22, 2010 ; 8:55 PM
reach expo at 8.30 as usual.
went over to find jane.
awhile later went off to hall 7 for work.
saw my german chef and were like smilling to each other :D
aunty help me steal panda bun from the booth which is located behind my booth
, pie kor kor give me a lot of pie (he is from the booth beside me).
jiejie gave me apple juice.
all so take care of me sia ahahaha even my german chef have something to give me!!!
his receipt book :D best gift ever.
call donny give me foie gras he not dont.
idiot one. if freeze was there sure good one lor sure got foie gras to eat.
lunch time went over to hall 2 to find adeline and jane.
hmm i got my cotton candy like finally!
i saw my cute cute boy boy.
and when back to hall 7, chef call me cook dishes !!!!
and yes i did and the india chef say nice oh man like finally!
tabao a lot of food for jane but in the end i ate most of eat cause hungry.
wait for jane to end her work and i ate hare meat.
like yum yum but omg at the same time.
i took photo with handsome angmo.
jane's baby send us home(me harold gerwyn)
laughing like hell in the car.
tell benjamin he look like bibi.
hahaha.
chef jason shake head when he saw my tatoo
its the beginning og something new.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010 ; 8:56 PM
reach expo at 8.30 went hall 2 with devid to look for jane .
and off to hall 7 for my job.
cut carrots, cook lobster risotto, soba, lobster cup, mango prawns.
break time went over to look got adeline.
and i took ice cream from her.
hehehe.
went over to find jane and off i go back to hall 7.
i was like eating my lobster risotto, wanting to sit on the floor , fall down den got loud bang.
jie jie thought the whole thing drop -.-
kena scold by the india chef for slicing the onion before chopping.
i's like chef call us to slice den chop de lah.
idiot!
after that sujata parents came.
the german chef cook a lot of things for me to eat.
and keep offering me chicken rice which he brought.
went over to hall 2 with sujata after work .
otw back home in expo hall 6
2 kor kor call us go drink wine so we go lor.
my face turn red very fast.
hahah
the kor kor flirt flirt we flirt flirt.
den went off to mrt.
saw b class took train to tampines.
and back to my house along with sujata and ade.
its the beginning og something new.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010 ; 8:54 PM
went out of the house at 7.50am.
just to go to expo when it's like 4 stops from my house.
(9 start)
reach expo saw devid and went over to look for darren .
and off i go to find my chef.
btw i'm working in hall 7, custom culinary til friday, so call attachment.
i cut my hand 5 time.
the celery round one not long one. damn hard! peel celery that time peel my own hand instead.
nvm, chef call me use knife peel, i poke my hand,
never mind trim the celery i go cut my hand nvm.
put down knife poke my hand nvm.
wan to continue i cut my vain.
den bleed nonstop.
den the jie jie from kushier bring me to first aid.
went back continue cutting.
den aunty from kushier came help me wash plates cause my hand bleeding.
chef cook a lot of things give me try.
he teach me how to make salmon appetizer and Lamb dumplings.
sujata, sweeboon, donny come find me :D
people from kushier give me a lot of cakes.
and everyone were like so caring and fun to work with.
break time chef was like you need me to give you money for your lunch ahahah.
that german chef so cute.
break time go find adeline they all.
go home that time, sujata come over find me and the indian chef let me go home.
go hall 2 find JANE not SWEEBOON.
and off to airport for popeye with ade and sujata.
and went home.
tomorrow same time same place :D
i'm so going to ask that german chef more question about sauce and lamb :D
its the beginning og something new.
Monday, April 19, 2010 ; 7:37 PM
well i'm like someone who believe a lot in horoscope.
so yup ahaha.
and i got this for my horoscope.
so yup ahaha.
and i got this for my horoscope.
Great talker, (idk)
Sexy and passionate, (not)
Laid back,(yup)
Knows how to have fun, (kind of)
Is really good at a lot, (not really)
Great kisser,(nope)
Unpredictable,(maybe)
Outgoing, (hmm)
Down to dearth,(can say so)
Loyal,(yup yup)
Addictive, (maybe)
Attractive, (nope)
Loud,(yes yes)
Loves being in long relationships, (hell ya)
Talkative, (very true)
Great fighter and will knock your ass o...ut if you mess around, (not really)
Rare to find, (of cause)
Great when found (that's for sure)
its the beginning og something new.
; 6:39 PM
wooooooooohooooooo.
reached school at 7.45am today when it starts at 9am.
i'm like always super early.
chef jason came in and announce the places for H.F.A. (hotel food asia)
well i'm like all alone with a guy in B class, not hall 2 but hall 7.
so which means away from my fellow classmates.
next was FHH, miss shu didn't come so stand outside BL2 to defrost.
chef daisy came over early to teach us about kitchen organization.
went off to the airport with harold, joseph and jane for popeye.
later when over to candy empire for my popping chocolate :D
and off we go to meet the rest at expo.
and yes I"M THE EXTRA ONE.
i'm not asked to go today but i sms the person in charge that i wish to know more about product before i start work tml, he say ok so i go lor.
pei everyone go hall 2.
WA damn big sia, the whole expo for hotel food asia.
saw one short but cute guy, leg got tatoo one.
after that saw 3 sec sch friends.
after exploring hall 1-6.
went over to hall 7 to find my booth.
my mission was to cook there, things will be taught by the german chef :D
soooooo luck i get to cook and learn new things.
if you want you can come find me i am at hall 7, booth just behind kashier.
when waiting for car,
a group of malay walk pass and started to shout hello baby, sweetheart even give flying kisses.
and i got damn irritated.next 2 chinese walk pass keep looking and wink.
-.-
people nows a day are so bo liao.
tomorrow starts at 9-6 :D
and did i mention?!
my baby damn stupid.
i forget to close the window of the whole house.
and it started raining cats and dogs and
baby just stand at the window there see the rain fall on him.
like never see rain before.
and his fur all wet lah. still can happy happy look at me shake tail.
gave him treat and want to take it back.
and guess what he did he keep running away from me.
selfish dog!!!
its the beginning og something new.
Sunday, April 18, 2010 ; 3:55 PM
KOJI SETO
name: 瀬戸康史(セトコウジ)
place of birth: 福岡県出身
blood type: A型
horoscope: 牡牛座
date of birth: May 18, 1988
height: 174
Biography:
Born in 1988 on the land side of Kyushu, Koji grew up as the oldest child with two younger sisters. His childhood dream of becoming a vet(so he is an animal lover ) changed suddenly with the end of his Junior High School time, when he watched with 15 years the TV series Orange Days. The praised Drama and performance by Satoshi Tsumabuki inspired his wish to become an actor. After discussing this with his parents, they decided to support their son and enrolled him to a local acting school.
Koji was also the lead vocalist of the Band J-Rock Band TETRA-FANG.
its the beginning og something new.
; 3:19 PM
SAT.
went opposite UE square for Japanese food.
it's suppose to be nice cause some actors recommend it but to me it's average.
well maybe slightly below.
i saw grilled foie gras so i ordered it.
TASTE KNS.
anw SOMEONE brought canele's cake for me :D
thanks thanks.
went home intend to watch kickass at 9.20 but CANNOT cause i'm not yet 18.
argh!!!
and i got sore eyes :(
so rot at home let bibi bite my hand, damn pain!
SUN. today.
went greenwood fish market.
newspaper write that the fish and chips there are like fantastic but to me NORMAL LOR.
(maybe because different ppl, different taste )
spend over 200 dollars there.
oh ya i ordered foie gras AGAIN!
ahahaha. serene centre's foie gras still the best.
after that went home.
its the beginning og something new.
Saturday, April 17, 2010 ; 8:07 AM
Monday onwards DIET!
no more eating no more drinking of soft drinks only plain water.
i want to lose 10KG!!!
ya it's 10KG. i'm like FAT now, super fat.
IF you see me eating den slap me hard hard on the face :D
until i reach to my idea weight i will stop this diet and maintain.
so bye bye to cheese and chocolate!!!!
HELLO to just plain water.
feel like taking up courses sia.
but i'm like so packed with school work.
but nevermind since my weekends is FREE i will use this time for SOME courses :D
pilates classes, yoga classes, kickboxing classes, extra culinary classes, and maybe jazz
and ya i am very despo to slim and extra culinary classes to upgrade more.
ok anyway~
went across this web and saw this.
feel like trying it but it looks like it have close down.
it's quite a popular resturant in 2007.
but due to some reason it close down. maybe because food there are expensive?
the place looks like this
the thing i wish to try! mini foie gras, port wine jelly.
if this resturant is still there i think sujata will also wish to go try lah.
next is this. grilled peppery angus BEEF (60 dollars for 200G)
last but not least. martini gold lychee cavier (28 dollars)
it is loctated at:
Aurum
Blk C, #01-02A
The Cannery Clarke Quay
Open for dinner only
www.aurum.com.sg
68873733
Closed on Sundays
(but if i am not wrong, it has close down. that is what i see on the web lah. but if it's still there please let me know :D)
its the beginning og something new.
Friday, April 16, 2010 ; 10:00 AM
the same thoughts once again.
comparing, disliking.
i'm never special in your eyes, just like a piece of old cloth left aside.
wanting you to find out that i'm actually there beside you but you just ignore.
or should i say you didn't notice me at all.
try my hardest just to prove to you i'm worth of it,
but no matter how much i try i'm am still that unwanted old cloth which is set aside.
its the beginning og something new.
Thursday, April 15, 2010 ; 9:16 PM
" just because of some sweet talks people say and some things that sound so forgiving you become so soft hearted and forgive them over and over again without knowing that things have happen for thousands of times. if the whole world did the same thing and did the same thing to you, are you going to be soft hearted all the time? you must know when to be soft hearted and when not to. you are always super soft hearted but act as in you are not by replying hurtful words and after it feel sorry for that person and back to square one which is forgiving him again."
lots of things are in my mind recently.
unspoken words and so.
well to me people will change after time,
everyone deserve changes.
a mistake in life is something you can't change forever.
what you grab onto now isn't always there forever.
things change. people move on.
a new one, a new beginning and this cycle continue.
BUT once a wrong choice is made, you can't change it anymore.
things are done and you can't change the past at all.
history, mermories are all there.
you cry, you become emotional trying to stay happy in front of your friends and love ones.
acting like you really are happy.
but in fact you are not.
you regret everything you did, you wan to return to the past and replay every moment with the wrongs out of the past.
willing to pay any price for it.
but in the end YOU ARE STILL HERE IN 2010!
its the beginning og something new.
; 8:23 PM
meet harold, junyang and donny for breakfast.
after that off to school on the way saw joseph, darren, wilson, alex so all of us go school together.
started off with demo.
a special guest!
chef samson. he is damn cute. he cook papaya soup.
ok lah not bad ba but i dont really like the taste of it.
after that chef matthew came in.
laugh until no voice.
at first i was like laughing at what he say cause he say for the food asia thing need write journal,
and he was like you can write you dunno chicken produce eggs cause all a long you think that cows produce egg.
and i started laughing and donny laughter makes me laugh even more.
after demo went BL1 for FHC and went out with harold, joseph and junyang.
went queentown ikea for meatball :D
and took a bus back to eunos cause it's raining and back to tam by train.
poor joseph vomit.
was like playing madly in train with joseph step shoe -.-
den in bus harold and i were like playing the spider game.
and i started laughing like mad.
oh well.
oh ya i wan to say something.
darren was like huh you ying zhu ?
and i was like ya.
and you know what he say ?
he say my surname is zhen name shi shuai (zhen shi shuai)
den harold is zhen de shuai
junyang is zhen guo shuai
den me is zhen shi zhu.
bastard!
its the beginning og something new.
; 7:22 AM
like seriously i can't take it anymore.
everyday wake up so early just for school and school is like ending so late in term2.
monday it's like the latest 7.30 end school which means i will reach home at about 9-9 plus.
just because school starts at 8.30 i have to wake up at 5 just to get everything ready.
i'm lacking of sleeps i really am !
and when i am sleeping it's always on my head that i can't ignore the alarm clock, concentrade on the alarm.
so i'm like going crazy i know.
i hate traveling for more den an hour just to get to school!
its the beginning og something new.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010 ; 8:03 PM
i woke up at 5 just to get ready for 8.30am lesson.
it's like oh well shit i'm like so tired.
went to school and i became crazy.
laugh laugh laugh and awhile later out of energy and back to all the laughter again.
started off with I.S. hmm did chicken and vege terrine.
quite slacky for what i can say.
joseph didn't turn out.
after that went lunch with the girls and back to school for menu planning.
hmmm, went crazy again and omg audrey kiss me again!
went super crazy and i lend harold my cadi.
and i was like cold!!!
after school went the toast toast place with harold, donny junyang and jane.
awhile later jane left.
we laugh like hell and got kind of crazy.
and they keep speaking malay and i dont understand.
went home with harold.
oh ya donny pronounce vacuum as fuck u. and of cause everyone make fun of him.
hehehe tml meet harold they all for breakfast. ok well shall end here
its the beginning og something new.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010 ; 9:18 PM
CS for lunch and went of to school.
school starts at 1+ and ends at 6.45
hours in school is like later and later.
saw joseph at bukit batok mrt and he was like HEY YOU AGAIN.
ahahaha. went off with him to look for harold, saw gerwyn tap his shoulder and said hi,.
saw sweeboon and kartono on the way and went to school with harold,joseph and junyang.
otw more and more people join us, darren came, logann came.
BL1 again, so it's like BL1 the whole of this term.
first lesson was menu planning after that was kitchen organization.
hmmm quite interesting i guess.
but many thinks it's boring.
oh well last lesson was DEMO.
and today was terrine :D
after school went west mall with donny for dinner and off to look for buddy.
he got a class which me wants me to attend :D
cool.
ok well shall end here tml lesson starts at 8.30 :(
its the beginning og something new.
; 7:24 AM
Why get disappointed with what you can't do?
yes there may be things you aren't good at but no one is perfect in everything.
people get mistakes too.
look you have things you are good at too.
wha you are bad at, you can improve it too right.
like what i always say pratice make perfect.
but of cause nothing is perfect.
if everything, everyone is perfect den whats there to be corrected.
its the beginning og something new.
Monday, April 12, 2010 ; 6:54 PM
well it's term 2 now, first day of school.
without sean around!
the shy shy boy in class, the body builder in class, the skinny one in class...
well wasnt that different after all , everything was the same.
no one really realise that he wasn't there ANYMORE.
and the story of the day began....
saw kartono at bukit batok MRT, he was like WHY YOU SO EARLY ( 7++ when sch starts at 9)
and he was like also early lah~
after that saw cherry and 3 of us went sch together, hippy :D
went looking for BL1 and off to the ladies and i saw sujata :D
minutes later people started coming into the class,
alex and donny were like sean nv come already and alex was like so sad.
and of cause disiao me the whole day over sean not coming back to school thing.
i will miss him, of cause as a friend.
lesson started off with FHH , the mentor miss shu was quite cute.
she ended our lesson early by 45 minutes.
saw lot of new comer all nerd nerd one haha.
next lesson was menu planning and pricing, the mentor look fierce but she's quite nice.
lunch time went canteen for food i was like telling ade i want to eat chicken rice but ended up buying duck rice.
OMG STANDARD ALWAYS CHICKEN RICE.
went back to school for demo and after that was I.S and of cause no I.S for the day since it's the first day of sch but did onion peeling instead.
halfway through i was like looking at bernard and keep shouting jasmine jasmine jasmine.
and he was like keep running away and after that he shout back sweeboon -.-
why must it always be that shorty LOLS
went sakae sushi with ade and sujata.
and back home.
oh ya ang swee boon say he is sick dunno real or not.
should be pon ba.
but if sick den get well soon, fake sick den go and die. :D
its the beginning og something new.
Sunday, April 11, 2010 ; 12:01 PM
facing lots and lots and lots of problems.
OH WHY IS THIS HAPPENING.
and just what am i thinking?
i should just stop thinking about it and worrying about it.
oh man.
how how how.
thinking about rubbish and making myself worried for nothing .
CRAZY, i know!
i feel happy for cai cause she finally got the one she love alot after a year of loving him.
but now she just end it with just a word, less den a week.
OH MAN.
i want also dont have~
and i have been waiting longer den her , but of cause for a different guy.
shag~ nevermind i had let go of him.
yup like finally :D
have been thinking maybe i should move on and yup no more expecting too much.
LOLS.
but that's me what to do.
this few days when cai told me she finally got together with the one she waited for a year, i have been thinking a lot.
i really wants to be in a R/S again but again maybe no not yet.
and you know why i wish to be in one?
because i hao xian mu ta men LOLS.
but now let say i still prefer the none restricted life.
yup so maybe after 25 :D
but who knows maybe things will change :)
its the beginning og something new.
; 11:17 AM
6387-583
who ever you are sorry for not picking up your call.
You always call so late at night, I already slept.
its the beginning og something new.
Saturday, April 10, 2010 ; 8:43 PM
D.D brought me out.
went serene centre for goose liver :D
i can say standard drop.
everything is so oily and digusting LOL.
but goose liver still taste good but drop a bit.
spend a total of 70 bucks.
order goose liver, potato leek soup, beef steak, dory fish, 4 cheese and salmon.
after that went for ice cream.
and off to east point for some shopping for bibi's thing.
hmmmm.
D.D doesnt want me to go for indoor tanning he say not good will have cancer so should i go ?
haish.
never mind should really think about it again.
and decide before i really do it.
its the beginning og something new.
; 9:06 AM
A WORD JUST A WORD
WILL DO
WILL DO
we laugh, we cry, we got pissed off and walk away.
you were always there when i needs someone to talk to.
you know just how i feel, you know just what i am thinking of.
when i am down, you didn't ask me not to cry nor be sad.
you put yourself into my shoes and told me those things i wish to hear.
only you will do that but others just ask me not to cry, not worth it.
when i am pissed you will get me bottles of milk to cool myself down,
cause you know milk will cool me down after awhile.
when i am happy, you will make me even happier.
when i am sick, you will get me things to make me feel much better.
why hasn't i notice you until now.
but things just happen when it wasnt suppose to.
you are now attached and i guess everything is too late.
GOOD GUYS ARE HARD TO FIND, yes i found him but at the wrong time.
he is happy with her and etc.
sorry i say things to hurt you and left you with a broken heart that time.
i did all those to hurt you but you are still there for me when i need a shoulder to lie on.
even now you are still there, now you have a stead,
you are still there for me.
talk to me like you used to.
understand me like you always do.
but things just happens too late.
the truth is i did like you when you said you like me that time,
i was afraid things might turn wrong.
and so after a few things and etc i got together with ur friend.
i went crazy over him, i went sad and all you were there.
you were always there.
i choose someone i love over someone whom i am happy with.
i didn't regret cause i really love him.
but what i want to say was thanks for all this, you are the best.
the best friend i would ever have.
i never want to lose you.
its the beginning og something new.
; 8:49 AM
THIS IS LIFE.
sometimes we just missed the chance.
things change and will never be the same
we try to look forward in life, pretending nothing really happen.
but in the end, back to square one again.
you start thinking about it over and over again and wanting it all over again.
but you still can't get it.
after a period of time, finally you got it.
but something is not right.
you just want it because you cant get it and not want it because you really want it.
you just want that person to feel just how you feel.
just how hurt your heart feels when he left.
you are not please with the ending and wants to change it the other way round.
but have you thought if there's really this silly person still waiting because she wants you back.
because she really wants you and not because she can't get you will it still be the same?
will things turn out differently in the end?
i guess not.
its the beginning og something new.
Friday, April 9, 2010 ; 10:10 PM
meet sujata and ade at town.
was like the first to reach so went cine for lunch at koba.
sujata arrived 18 minutes later.
after our meal went over to ion to find ade.
went TWG. that france man forgotten who i am :C
sad case.
anw went far eat for some shopping and took bus 7 to bugis.
went there to shop as well.
i got the same t as sujata :D
was like walking half way i saw this guy quite cute but short and have no idea who he is.
and later he was like : "you are lynette right".
and i was like yup and walk away.
wow! so popular xD
later went for apple strudel i took durian, ade took apple, sujata took strawberry.
and after that off to sujata sec sch for her cert.
and off to her house.
OH MAN, JUJU LIKES ME UNLIKE BIBI WHO JUST IGNORE ME 24/7.
heheh went for tea and her mum tea us for a cheesy treat of pizzahut.
off to sujata dad work place there for bowling.
and i was like OMG my ball roll backwards and everyone were like looking at me.
after that went home.
intend to go nelson house but didn't.
its the beginning og something new.
; 7:58 AM
yesterday meet ade at tampines mrt.
otw there talk to caileng on phone.
walk past tm saw rey :D
he smile at me and i wave ahahahaha
puiman sms say haowei saw me.
and later meet ade, cabby to audrey place.
learn how to make prata.
but i never make lah ade make i cook hahahaha.
sean came and makan :D
awhile later sean left and was like telling us it's his last day seeing us.
cause he quit shatec liao.
and i was like orh ok byebye(i know i can say something better den this)
and when i thought he left i was like telling ade, last day leh last day leh last day leh..........
(with tt emo look)
sean came in and i saw him looking and i was like giving that omg face.
LOL.
so ps lah.
he's going ns on the 27 april.
so bye bye take care.
after that went petmovers and ericsson.
hahahahahha see dog.
got one dog damn poor thing got 3 leg only :C
i was intending to buy it home but i think mummy would scold so nv.
ade was like telling me leaf fall from the trees if u catch it make a wish and it will come true.
and i was like run here and there and finally got one.
ahahahah.
after seeing dogs went home with ade.
and she left when clock was at 8
its the beginning og something new.
; 7:46 AM
finally my zharbor got people want already.
as in not people wan as in love but got reject, what i mean was actually she got a BF LIAO.
FINALLY RIGHT. after years of being single.
and that person is none other den caileng.
she was like keep on show off, make me want to have one too and keep calling me to find one.
it's not i don't one it's just that i have not found someone whom i am like so crazy over yet.
or should i say my type.
i dont one a relationship which ends the next day i wan something which last forever.
ya i know i dont believe in the word forever cause nothing is forever.
so yup wait for miracle lor and somemore
in a relationship equal being restricted. yup so no way.
anyway. good for her. finally after one year she finally get hold of his heart LOL.
3 years lost liao, cause impossible. ahahahahaha
anw LAST LONG. and noel better treat her good good ah.
its the beginning og something new.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010 ; 9:45 AM
I've tried to, You know i've tried to get away from this
But its hard to, You know that its hard to cuz she's somthing you'll miss
And this might sound selfish but I can't help it I can't let you go
And I'm on a mission I need you to listen I'm not losing hope
I've tried to, You know that i've tried to get away from this
I'm trying to escape with no way out
I tried crawling away from you, You pushed me down, I'm on the ground
But to give her back refuse, I'm gunna make it, Time and time again
Free myself from these Miseries , I'm all alone i got walls on all four sides
Because I'm a prisoner of love, of love of love of love, A prisoner of love
I gave in, You know that i gave in They took advantage of
The fact that I gave in, You know that i gave in They knew i fell in love
See your the one i can't meet back, i'm doing the time?
I shouldn't be trapped in here i didn't do no crime
I gave in, You know that i gave in they knew i fell in love
Tryna escape with no way out
I tried crawling away from you, You pushed me down, I'm on the ground
But to give her back refuse , I'm gunna make it, I'm gunna make it Time and time again
Free myself from these Miseries , I'm all alone i got walls on all four sides
Because I'm a prisoner of love
I tried so hard to let you go but i cant what's holding me back
I've tried so hard to get away from everything we had
And im so lonely in this cell all by myself and i don't know why
I can't get away from you
I tried crawling away from you, You pushed me down, I'm on the ground
But to give her back refuse, I'm gunna make it, Time and time again
Free myself from these Miseries , I'm all alone i got walls on all four sides
Because I'm a prisoner of love, of love of love of love, A prisoner of love
I tried crawling away from you, You pushed me down, I'm on the ground
But to give her back refuse, I'm gunna make it, Time and time again
Free myself from these miserys, I'm all alone i got walls on all four sides
Because I'm a prisoner of love, of love of love of love, A prisoner of love
Of love of love of love a prisoner of love
its the beginning og something new.
; 7:38 AM
i tell you ah my hp sot sot one.
sometimes can recieve calls, sometimes cannot.
sms always recieve late =.=
so now back to square one no HP.
not feeling well, so yup.
wonder should i go town with leng leng and two of her friends a not.
and dinner with wen feng they all, should i go? hmmmm.
OH YA if you wish to find me please contact my house.
alvin called yesterday, surprise :D
its the beginning og something new.
Monday, April 5, 2010 ; 8:31 PM
MY HP IS DOWN so i'm like no HP AT ALL.
so puiman called my house.
meet her, angie and her bf over at ehub.
went down to town to watch movie.
i totally regret watching ju-on.
the white ghost damn scary lah.
but i like the black ghost part cause GOT KOJI SETO X3
he is like soooooooo cute lah.
white ghost part, look like clown.
and you guys should know i am afraid of clowns.
cause i got all those clown dreams when i am young so yup till now i am afraid of them.
after movie went over to aljunied to look for puiman de mama and angie de mama.
and went back tam for dinner.
and back home.
and you know what i brought a camera without battery out -.-
so it's like totally useless.
i just got my hp back so yup it's working now.
sorry for all the late replys
its the beginning og something new.
; 8:25 PM
everything happen for a reason.
i wanted it to happen,
wishing that one day it would really happen.
and yes it finally happen.
the feeling i should get should be something more of like :D
but guess what i feel more :C den ever.
shock right.
hahaha.
down with tear, broken hearted.
i should say i am really stupid.
expecting too much again.
and now see what i got myself into again.
its the beginning og something new.
Sunday, April 4, 2010 ; 5:44 PM
Saw this drama song lyric and I decide to type it out,
so I wrote I am sorry that I have fallen for you, on msn
And there's this guy whom I don't know wrote this to me.
And it goes like this.
him:well I forgive you, but I am sorry too
me: -.- forgive me for ? Sorry for?
Him: forgive you for falling for me and sorry cause I think I have fallen for you too
me: do I even know you?
Him: you may not know who I am but I am always around you
me: oh really ah. You ghost ah. Wow -.-
him: hahah you always make me smile. Stop acting I know you love me.
me: damn bloody thick skin sia. I don even know who the hell are you. And I don think I have such bad taste.
Him: Just admit you like me. You don have to be shy.
Me: ya right -.-
him: see you admit.
Me: what ever. Lame shit!
Damn thick skin lor and er xin too. Dunno y ppl like This even live
its the beginning og something new.
; 8:17 AM
YESTERDAY.
meet adeline, sujata at giant but in the end saw them at breatalk which is located at vivo.
went up and audrey, daren, kenyon have arrive.
BUT HEY PLANNER HAVE NOT ARRIVE.
that idiot shorty sweeboon. later for 1 hour 8 mins.
oh ya idris came along as well.
picnic we spend 48 dollars.
yup yup a lot right.
went over for awhile rain!.
cats and dogs.
but in the end sweeboon, daren and i play in the rain cause we are actually wet, before it rain we were in the water playing already.
sujata and ade didn't want to join us but after a while they came :D
i saw thunder i hear lighting LOL.
but still continue to play.
LOL..
burried boon left with eyes, nose and mouth.
and daren add a addictional thing onto him LOL.
an addictional slipper as his emmmhmmm, and 2 sand made emmmhmmm.
LOL..
and you know what they keep announcing that jelly fish bla bla bla den sujata keep going up and down up and down.
LOL.
but in the end she also don care.
a very cute cute guy kena bite by jelly fish wa damn red sia. HE look like kennard.
but den awhile later not tt cute lah. LOL quite kns LOL. small kid only.
went off at 5 go eat steamboat.
with sweeboon, ade and sujata(the rest go home) no pork chop. LOL
and went home sujata and ade come to my house.
oh ya before i end i wan to say SWEEBOON GO SENTOSA AND HE SAY GO THERE TO ENJOY IS ACTUALLY GO THERE SEE ANGMO ZHARBOR IN BIKINI HAHAHAH
its the beginning og something new.
Saturday, April 3, 2010 ; 8:31 AM
ben's dad drove us to shaw centre for movie.
(jeslyn, ben, dict, daren and i )
crush of the titan.
quite a nice show, but the movie very short!!!!
i was like singing : "pretty woman walking down the street........."
and ben was like singing : " what do you want from me........."
and they got irritated.
later ben sang to daren: " mei yi ci he ni fen kai.........."
and i was like laughing. omg so gay please.
dict was like hey look my one dollar coin so shinny.
and i was like yayayaya what year.
and he was like 1997 and later he bite the coin, shake the coin and say FAKE ONE FAKE ONE FAKE ONE.
and i was like laughing. and daren was like she high already -.-
ben was like HEY LOOOK RAINBOW.
and i was like where where where!
but in the end someone say at night where got rainbow one.
-.-
ben's dad brought us home.
and ben was like damn funny.
his dad ask how was the show.
he was like i learn that if i nv pray to god i will die.
his dad was like what did you bring back.
he say HER HEAD.
and his dad was like how much i spend.
and he was like. you gave me a gold coin with your face on it, to travel to hell to get her head remember.
and iwas like laughing non stop.
its the beginning og something new.
Friday, April 2, 2010 ; 8:35 AM
GM HOUSE TODAY :D
its the beginning og something new.
Thursday, April 1, 2010 ; 5:09 PM
just hope everything turn out fine for the both of them.
ok well have been looking at those old blog post.
and i really miss the good old days soooo let's talk a little about it.
YEAR 2004(primary 6)
every sat will go over to escape theme park with xhinhui, gergory, sweeyong, alvin, pricilla, etc.
will always get the 3 dollar cotton candy.
and play the shooting game.
everytime there will be extra maths lesson after school,
jocelyn and i and a malay guy will be last to be release.
and always before the maths lesson we will over to the petrol station for tomyam maggi. 3 times a week.
AFTER PSLE. went into the same sch as jocelyn, same class somemore.
but was in normal tech of cause.
YEAR 2005.(sec 1)
i'm like a super quite girl in sch.
everyday or should i say most of the days i will go over to safra Tampines with puiman, jocelyn, jinhui, zhanyi, reeve, zhengyuan.
TO play bowling.
after exam we will be at 840 playground play blind mice, catching somestimes along with caileng, liping, yanping.
stead with jinhui for 8 months. he is my first BF.
and ya the most funny part.
on the day we broke up, puiman and i had an arguement.
it's like argue liao she still come my house spot check me see i going out anot lor.
den i go out right she follow me. -.-
den in the end play hide and seek. damn funny.
and one good news was i got into N.A maths.
YEAR 2006(sec 2)
was invited to yaofeng's Bday, i dunno him.
and well we got together over a ice lemon tea.
last for a year.
and you know what puiman and i got stead on the same day.LOL
she with alson me with yaofeng.
always go to 813.
cycle from tampines to pasir ris, tampines to ECP.
see them play basketball, joke joke, smoke smoke.
this year learn how to smoke and everything.
with him always chicken rice and ice lemon tea.
this was the year i became damn noisy.
puiman and kenny join me in N.A maths.
YEAR 2007 (sec 3)
went super crazy over a guy.
called tristan.
sch table and chair also got my name and of cause his name.
and puiman's book too.
didnt get together with but ended up with xueming.
lasted for 3 weeks.
everyday life was always yoshinoya.
this year was the first year i got to know boon he is someone from toriq
he's always my listener and all.
that time went i was sick he brought herbal tea to my work place for me without me knowing that he was coming.
when he work, after work he will send me home, when he is not working he will go down just to bring me home without me knowing he is coming.
that's also the year ben like puiman until now still counting:D
forget to mention puiman walk around with plastic bag on her feet LOL
crazy over fei lun hai calvin also.
YEAR 2008 (sec 4)
everyday tamnpines mall.
boon was my maths tutor.
this year got together with kang.
lasted for 3 months.
boon was still the one who is there for me.
still remember caileng and i went crazy over kang that time.
we cried, we give in and super crazy.
went slack slack, drink drink and a lot.
had fun.
oh ya james and i were close, roy and i was like always hey go toilet den go together.
haha den play at rubbish bin TM.
jumping onto cardboard throw rubbish go smoke :D
crazy over wei yu from bang bang tang, and dai yang tian
YEAR 2009 (VLCS)
went into ite nursing for 3 days den quit.
got scolding from kang and mum.
everyday go simei ite to find weilun, lu, caileng, xiwen, jeff, noel, xiaoma and etc.
get to know marcus.
he spend round off 30 on me when he dunno me sia.
haha and people misunderstood that we are together.
got together with xiaoma.
went into a christian sch. hang out with serene and later with nick johann and marc.
quit a boring year i can say except for the ITE DAYS WITH hair fashion and beauty ppl and of cause those days with nick, johann, daryl and etc.
YEAR 2010 (SHATEC)
went into shatec.
first day of sch go out with classmate liao.
hahaha.
did enjoy myself.
classmates all joker.
always go out with sweeboon, sujata, jane, adeline, donny, harod, etc.
shisha and all :D
grow fatter of cause.
and also to be continued
its the beginning og something new.
; 4:29 PM
everything happen for a reason.
sometimes you just wish things goes this way but things just turn out another way.
a memory you wish you were in once again,
but you couldn't go back.
a person you wish to get back with,
just leave you, even further away.
the past which u wish you could hold on to,
just fades away.
and all this just keep you thinking about it over and over again.
like what a fool would do.
people tends to regret what they did, what they do.
the first time you are forgiven.
the second time will be the last time they forgive you.
the third time they will never believe/ trust you again.
but people only realise their mistake after the third time.
so why ? another chance wouldn't hurt right.
you feel hurt because she lied to you over and over again.
but do you know it actually hurt them most.
YES, no secret to be hidden between u both but sometimes not everything must be told.
somethings are best to be kept.
would you be happy if she tell you all along she love him?
yes she did tell you that,
but can't you see she is slowly accepting you?
so why can't you just put yourself into her shoes.
she needs time.
it is very hard to let go of someone whom you love so much.
so why can't you just think about it, just how she feels and everything.
yes she love ming a lot but she's slowly accepting you.
so why can't you just give her the space.
it's not easy to let you go know.
do you know just what is in her mind?
what is she thinking and everything ?
you feel hurt yes, who dont.
but i can tell you this SHE FEELS HURT DEN YOU DO.
trying to accept someone whom is nice to her from the start but at the same time she love her ex.
when ever she try to give up move on ming is always on her mine.
no matter how hard she try it's still ming in her eyes.
it's not HEY I GIVE UP and everything ended.
she needs time.
YES you can tell me i dont know anything.
i dunno how you all feel and all.
BUT for sure i can tell you.
i feel the same way as christine too.
you think i could really forget him ?
you think it's easy to let go?
you think i really dont wan to move on and everything.
den i tell you i have never given up, my feelings for him is still the same.
i'm still thinking of him and so. i could never forget all those things which happened and it's my fault for all this things.
i still like him a lot. but i did try and now i am still trying.
so why can't you just understand.
and i tell you everything is from my heart deep down this is how i feel.
it's not that she's doesnt wan to move on it's just that she can't.
she dunno how to let go. it's not easy.
no on eis a pro at it. maybe one day you will kena the same thing too.
and you will know just how she feels
so please stop it and cheer up
its the beginning og something new.
; 7:09 AM
YESTERDAY.
went NSC and yup doctor say no cure forever like this .
but good news is i can eat seafood and chilli :D
hmmm after that went united square for xin wang.
i feel damn stress eating like seriously.
the cook and waiter keep standing at the bar there looking.
hmmm yup.
and went i left the cook wave and say bye bye.
and i was like emmmmmmmmmm.
back home for a rest before going pub.
but in the end never go cause i lazy to go out of the house.
but but but went foot massage instead.
i swear i am never going to do foot massage again.
damn ticklish not pain at all :C
its the beginning og something new.
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