SWEETsuicideLOVES

Friday, January 30, 2009
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9:32 AM
yesterday play black jack.
after that 8++ go kfc eat,
saw lots of friends there =))
GROW FAT LE LA!!!!
IDIOT LESBIAN!!!
after that headed home.
mum, darren, dad, sheree and leng say my brownie nice
=))
i am like so damn happy can.
4 people broke my heart yesterday,
mum said my brownie look like rock,
dad said wad lai de.
darren look like cookie.
the last one is over same old thing.
can't sleep the whole night,
kept thinking thinking and thinking.
maybe she's right,
i am just an extra trying to fit into their world.
they are with them from the start and we are just extra trying to get close to them.
and maybe for once she's right,
his with her from the start until i came into his world.
maybe i shouldnt have stead with him from the start.
ever since i appear have anything gone better,
NO not at all.
i created more problems and he's never happy being with me.
seriously i hate it when people ask me to find someone else.
i know he doesnt love me and will not ,
i know he is not perfect
i know there are betters
i know we could never be together
i know he stil love her
i know it all
so wad is there a problem with that.
like a person dont need reason de.
i just like him for who he is and not what he gave.
if you think i made the wrong choice den i tell you,
i never if i wan to like someone else i will do so 10 months ago.
not wait till now ok.
i felt so stupid can,
when there is a chance i dont treasure ,
now i dont have i regretted so much.
i know i am making myself cheap like wad tori aunty say,
so do you think i ever care about what others said.
ok la i got care but i wouldnt change just because of what she say.
i will work hard just to gain back the little trust or maybe a little love,
cause i dont want to regret again.
i dont one to regret at all.
its the beginning og something new.