SWEETsuicideLOVES

Saturday, March 21, 2009
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9:00 PM
I'M BACK HOME (:
misunderstood do happen sometimes.
but what you think about today aren't true.
I'm not interested in any guys there nor do i have a stead there.
in fact,
i don't like or love anyone now, my heart is dead.
(i have totally given up on the past and him it's time to move out of those hurts )
i would rather be single and unloved than being hurt again (:
and i believe I'm still young to be trap in this kind of relationship thing,
AND YES I WAN MY LONG LOST FREEDOM!!!
OK back to the topic.
went over to get things from my baby derek.
(he keep calling me mummy every since yesterday, LOL )
after that off i go to get my hair done.
treatment and cut.
when everything was done went over to lesbian partner's house.
after knowing about the plan to town,
rush back home to change and put on make-up.
yup going over to town without make up and a more long zhong clothes i will die.
went back to lesbian partner's house,
headed off to inter's small mac to meet wei lun and his real blood sis.
WEILUN SAY I LOOK LIKE AUNTY. ):
went over to town and waited for the boy whom i kept asking "IS HE A CHINA GUY".
lol.
while waiting a lady came over to ask us for direction and L.P and i were like blur.
after that a group of korean guys came over to talk to me.
asking me to take photo for them.
and i was like dont one la paiseh, L.P was like you photographer leh go take la.
so went over to help them.
after that they came back and ask me to take photo with them.
and i was like dont one la.
in the end L.P was pull into the whole situation by me.
so 2 of us were like taking photos with those korean guys.
when that so call CHINA GUY came went wisma eat.
and saw their friend ivan and gang.
walk around town and its time for me to go home.
so didn't join the 5 guys and L.P for the movie.
and than 2 stranger brought me home (:
(thanks L.P for asking them to bring me home although i don't one la.)
took cab home with 2 guys and they were like telling me jokes.
haha.
and the "look like malay guy" keep on take his friend's phone ask me give him my number.
LOL.
anw thanks for accompanying me back home and wasted your $30 on cab fee (:
AND EDWIN SORRY I KNOW I'M A BASTARD,
BUT YOUR NOTHING BETTER XD.
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除了想你 除了爱你
我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记 整理心情
我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情 不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆 不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情 早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你 不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你
its the beginning og something new.