SWEETsuicideLOVES

Wednesday, April 29, 2009
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4:18 PM
All at once i fell into a state of profound melancholy.
In life there's just things which you are unwilling to let go of.
no matter how hard you try, it just wouldn't go off and left you with a huge scar.
you can say that i am mad, you can say that im insane,
i'm just not myself this few days.
i just hope all those thoughts would just go away.
until now no one really understand, just NO ONE.
i want a life which i could make decision on my own,
and not people asking me what to do.
I don't mean to hurt you i really don't.
i'm just scared of losing the one i like again, so i choose things to go this way.
past really reflesh, the scene where me and him broke off the scene when he suffered being with me.
i really didn't mean to hurt you. i just don't one history to repeat.
i would rather end everything now den getting more hurt in future.
you guys can think that i'm just unreasonable, making compares and staff.
but as you can see i really need more time than expected to really forget about him.
to me he's just a guy who really know me quite well, and someone who i can really talk to in need of help.
he may look bad but he isn't, i feel more of myself when i am with him.
the best friend i ever had and will never forget.
( there no feeling ever since the day i told puiman that i given up )
and further more i will never be able to replace the strong feeling he had for her.
i am sorry i throw temper at you the other day and point you that thing hope you could forget about it.
and bibi STOP CALLING ME WHEN I'M SLEEPING I HATE IT.
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yesterday house pratice cancel, so went over to kartib with alex and moses.
had fun.
as for today, slack with bibi, james, sam, lex, vick, zack and one of james friend.
got scolded by james, for crying in front of him LOL.
after that home.
tml off to toa payoh (:
anw roy i miss you!!!!!
like hell!!!
its the beginning og something new.