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But I'm not wasting my time,
Over something which is not worth it. |
SWEETsuicideLOVES
Friday, May 29, 2009 ; 8:11 AM
wouldn't be blogging nor replying taggies.
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out of town.
(song lyric)
My tears won’t stop
Just one word… the one phrase that you love
Can’t you just tell me?
Even if I hold out my hands, no matter how much I call out
You’re always far from me
It’ll be a love that becomes painful scars
Why can’t I erase it
Really, my heart must have done something somehow
I must have become a fool that’s blind from love
Just one place, everyday one place
Looking at the sad light that is you
Even the tear glands must be broken
I try to comfort myself with the lie that I’m happy if you just smile
Because the place you are going towards is not me
The lonely tears flow
I must have gone crazy over this hard love
Can’t have you can’t forget you
Waiting for you day by day
I must have gotten ill from missing you so much
From loving you too much
Just one thing your heart that one thing
Can’t you just share it with me
i will be missing you ,
but i know you wouldn't
something funny happen last night.
was like watch the 10 pm show on channel u,
darren was sleeping.
and guess what he was turn look at mum,
say a few words than turn back.
and i was like blur blur.
mum laugh.
and mum was like "ta zai shou meng hua, he never fail to do it, everyday"
and i was like keep laughing and said:" ni you yi dian bian tai, zhi ji dui zhi ji xiao"
and mum was like " ni cai bian tai"
LOL
super funny la darren.
but heng he is not as worst as last time.
(:
back blogging after 15
its the beginning og something new.
Thursday, May 28, 2009 ; 8:10 PM
the animal above is a pygmy jerboa
isn't it cute.
looks kind of like my hamppy (my dead hamster)
if they sell it in singapore i will sure buy it (:
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see the size of it.
bigger than the hamster but it's cute
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join conversation with xiaoma and ivan,
super funny (:
anw xiaoma it's cute okay (not you but that pygmy jerboa)
its the beginning og something new.
; 6:56 AM
oh my GOD,
i'm so tired.
just came back home...
thanks guys for last night.
(:
loves
More glorious than dawn
Your love for me
Feels like I own the whole world
In my life
Like a dream in my tired life
I hope I can treasure your love forever
I hold your hand and shout to the world
I swear to heaven
I will love only you
Like stars in the night
A beautiful dream paradise that belongs to us alone
I can go anywhere to my paradise
Days without you
I’ll forget all the pain
This is only the start being with you
Start to travel start to run
Loving you forever
i'm so tired.
just came back home...
thanks guys for last night.
(:
loves
More glorious than dawn
Your love for me
Feels like I own the whole world
In my life
Like a dream in my tired life
I hope I can treasure your love forever
I hold your hand and shout to the world
I swear to heaven
I will love only you
Like stars in the night
A beautiful dream paradise that belongs to us alone
I can go anywhere to my paradise
Days without you
I’ll forget all the pain
This is only the start being with you
Start to travel start to run
Loving you forever
its the beginning og something new.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009 ; 8:51 AM
OVERDUE PHOTOS.
Today you ask me about my welfare as if it’s normal
I just say that I was okay
You really don’t know me at all.
Without you, do you really think I’d be okay?
Are you okay without me?
Because the world without you is so hard.
I resent myself who’s breathing
What do I do?
Still, I live in the day that breaks apart at your one word.
You once told me we are from different world and won’t last,
But now I realise we aren’t.
We are both living in the same world called Earth,
looking at things in the same point of view.
Breathing in the same air.
Ungoing the same kind of feelings.
I just say that I was okay
You really don’t know me at all.
Without you, do you really think I’d be okay?
Are you okay without me?
Because the world without you is so hard.
I resent myself who’s breathing
What do I do?
Still, I live in the day that breaks apart at your one word.
You once told me we are from different world and won’t last,
But now I realise we aren’t.
We are both living in the same world called Earth,
looking at things in the same point of view.
Breathing in the same air.
Ungoing the same kind of feelings.
29 may 2009 - 06 june 2009 (staying at jocleen house)
08 june 2009 - 15/18 june 2009 ( taiwan )
18 june 2009 - 20 june 2009 (sentosa chalet)
so many event coming out,
wouldn't be able to go online that often (:
miss him ^^
its the beginning og something new.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009 ; 7:57 PM
LEE CAI LENG LIKE SIM WEE KANG.
our conversation in msn,
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LYNETTE;PEILIN says (7:50 PM):
no thanks i wan kang onli
hahahahahahah
s3rEn3 : says (7:50 PM):
i saw him 2dae
^^
tt one my aiai
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see see she admit she still like him,
omg she is such a flirt.
so many at one go.
have the looks but yet so flirt.
eugene, kang, noel, xiaoma, jeffery, chinsen, weilun, lu , joel, benecdict, gerald, boon siong, zhengyuan, kaicheng, rey, jack, desmond, my 9 ge, roy and marcus.
how sad.
even my one oso wanna take haish.
JEFF NI KAN DAO LE MA.
caileng dui ni bu shi zhen xin de ):
so don't accept!!!!! LOL
its the beginning og something new.
; 11:23 AM
have been eating a lot lately,
and mostly are like fried food.
oh man!!!!
i'm getting fatter ):
diet!!!!!
I like you,
No matter how hard I try not to like you,
No matter how hard I try to forget you.
My efforts are so fruitless to the extent that I get angered by it.
We are both from different world from the start
We met through a fantasy like fate
But now it is time that time both of us return to our respectable worlds
You told me you like me ,
Is your love like this?
You can end it so easily like this after you told me you liked me?
Perhaps my love was up to this point
No matter how much I like you the extent that I could endure
Was perhaps just up to this point
No matter how hard I try not to like you,
No matter how hard I try to forget you.
My efforts are so fruitless to the extent that I get angered by it.
We are both from different world from the start
We met through a fantasy like fate
But now it is time that time both of us return to our respectable worlds
You told me you like me ,
Is your love like this?
You can end it so easily like this after you told me you liked me?
Perhaps my love was up to this point
No matter how much I like you the extent that I could endure
Was perhaps just up to this point
After I started to like you I have always wished it,
That the man i love would be the man who will stay by me always.
but i guess i'm wrong.
you are never going to return.
its the beginning og something new.
Monday, May 25, 2009 ; 8:47 PM
went over to his house intending to study,
but end up sleeping..
after awhile his girlfriend came.
so was like wake up go tampines find leng cause i don't one to become light bulb.
went pizzahut with xiwen and leng.
after that walk around with weilun (senior), eugene and ????
den awhile later go home with leng.
and was like you know how leng pronoun sundae??
she pronoun it as "sun die" LOL.
and on the way back she was like pointing at the banana skin and i was like what is it?
chicken??
lol omg paiseh
singapore super hot. hoping it will rain tml.
anw lu cheer up ya. (:
you still have xi wen, cai leng, and me. lalalala
and i miss you guys la, marcus shorty, noel, lu, joel,welun and and and kang .
xiaoma is a change person.
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its the beginning og something new.
Sunday, May 24, 2009 ; 9:00 PM
riding with jocleen, jeslyn, benjamin benedict and our parents.
Over at E.C.P.
was like fun at first, 2 hours ride and things started to get tired.
i got a cut on my right hand.
):
was like stopping in the center of the road jocleen was like hit onto me and than bike break spoil.
and my hand got that cut.
and she help me wash with water, touch but too bad you are not him (:
usually we were be like looking at guys but this time NO.
dogs instead.
second time jocleen was in front i was like behind smsing him while biking,
she stop and i almost hit onto her, and than i hit the guy behind me.
omg.
all the way i was like shouting his name and jocleen got irritated.
jocleen and i went over to eat that frozen food, horrible.
after that all of us went bedok for dinner.
waiting for the food to come,
benjamin gave me a kiss LOL.
omg. feel so OMG.
had fish and chips gave half of my fish to benjamin, dont like it, taste horrible,
but ben say it's nice.
and pasta no one eat it so i form a heart with it.
LOL.
and that's about it a tiring/ painful day.
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retards jocleen and insane me
jocleen
its the beginning og something new.
; 7:50 AM
came across Hao's blog,
was like omg tatoo freak.
tatoos are nice but too much are like "eeyer".
a good boy with tons of tatoos, wierd.
anw some of you may have notice i change my top banner (:
some of you came, asking me about those words??
oh please don't misunderstood.
those words are refering to her not HIM.
(i'm not a lesbian, it's just love from a daughter to mum?)
let me explain it sentence by sentence alright.
(sentence in red, explaination in green)
*problems came sadness rise. :
between us problem and sadness are rising?
*the love which was there, i could no longer see.:
you said you love me but i could no longer see it.
*when i am starting to believe that there's still hope.:
hope as in we will be able to solve everything soon.
*it's already the end of everything.:
everything is coming to an end. (we hardly talk and laugh like we used to)
*why was it that life would always be like this.:
hurt, sad and angry.
*the more you want somethign the harder it is to get.:
wanting us to be closer like how u and darren are.
*i choose to believe and to trust.:
believe that we will be close again, trust that you really mean what you say
*that one day, maybe just one day you would return.:
return back to what we used to do, laughing and playing together.
*but i guess i was wrong. it's something i could never grab hold of again.:
your trust and the happiness which was once there.
and yup, thats all about it,
because of it i didn't eat at all for the whole day.
(i didn't finish the mushroom soup i drank only a sip.)
its the beginning og something new.
Saturday, May 23, 2009 ; 7:56 AM
you said that i have no manners,
whenever i saw your friends i didn't say hi.
in fact i did but they didn't hear it.
and can i ask you something.
what about you???
do you think you have manners???
taking my wallet, hand phone, bag looking into it without my permission.
i have been telling you over and over again, i hate it when you does that.
and ask you to ask me before you touch my things.
and yet you didn't.
taking my clothes giving it to joc, without my permission.
it's like i have enough.
you are my mum doesn't mean you can search into my staff without my permission,
i need some privacy too.
the receipt of that $98 cake,
you saw it and said i only know how to use money to buy guys heart.
as in do you know how hurt it is.
mother saying it to her own daughter.
i didn't buy that cake to buy his heart, it's his birthday and the money is share between us friends.
and what's wrong with that?
i hate it when you jump into conclusion.
you hurt me over and over again.
but yet i keep it inside me.
i once told kang how i feel and i told you the same thing too.
you say you will change but did you.
you hurt me over and over again like i am someone who doesn't have feelings.
calling my friends scolding them for nothing.
omg, who are you anyway, i don't know you!!!
i didn't talk back nor did i throw my temper towards you doesn't mean i don't care.
i can't tolerate anymore. i have enough.
how i wish you can just go there and never come back.
i finally know just why he left you,
it's not because he have a girl behind your back but maybe is because of your unreasonable thoughts.
you are just becoming more and more unreasonable.
when you are happy no problems, when you are not you will find things to scold.
omg, i am not your "anger bag" i am not born to be your "anger bag"
for your friend they didn't ask me to take photos for you guys and the camera is not ours.
and you was like keep calling me to take the camera.
and yet your friend was like holding onto it taking photos of his friends.
and so i said" for what".
and you started to glare at me.
as in oh please, your friend didn't ask me to take nor did that camera belong to me,
going over there taking the camera wouldn't it be like rude.
and in the end scolding i gain.
to you i will always be the baddie.
to daddy he will always think that im a good child is just that i dont really express myself and keep every to me.
if you think that i am just a jinx in your life than you shouldn't give birth to me in the first place.
even animals have feelings, all you cares abotu was just face and your own pride.
but you never thought of YOUR OWN DAUGHTER'S FEELING.
i just wish i could just tell someone just how i feel.
not in the mood today she totally spoil it.
thanks mum, it's always you!!!
NEWS~
Few days back, happen to met a fat guy at City hall's interchange.
waiting for the train over at the green line station, it was like packed with people.
train arrived and people were like pushing each other madly.
"The Fat Guy" put his hand into my school skirt,
trying to grab hold of my hand phone strip, as in trying to steal my hand phone from me.
luckily someone message me (it's him) and that guy was like letting go my hand phone strip and pretending nothing had happen.
in the train he was like standing beside me,
all the way i was like looking at him, and he know it too.
and guess what in front of me,
he did it again and to another person.
in front of him was a man with sling bag,
he was like trying to unzip the man's bag and putting his hand into the man's bag.
but luckily he fail to steal again (:
why do people like him even exist.
he have the same hand phone model as my mum,
and it's like quite a good model as well.
finding a job would be better isn't it.
stupid man hope he got caught soon.
(he looks like jack)
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YESTERDAY:
it's the last day of school.
used to hate gymnastic alot, but for yesterday i love it.
it's all related to jumping ^^
jumping over a high "wall" and landing onto the "high wall".
it's like so much fun.
change class, was like in junior high cause my PACES wasn't that high.
needing 1 PACE above 1100 and 2 PACES above10 97 or was it 1090.
and i got 2 PACES above 1097 and 4 PACES at the range of 1080-1088.
so wasn't able to go to senior high because i'm lacking of ONE 1100 PACE.
but never mind, starting to "chiong" from next term onwards.
PUIMAN I WILL PROVE TO YOU NORMAL TECH CAN ALSO GO TO UNI (:
after school went over to tingyi house along with audrey.
it's was like quite boring.
after a while her mum drove is to parkway parade to get some bubble tea.
and drove audrey and i to the bus-stop to get a bus back home.
after awhile, aunty drove back and was like asking me to board the car again.
as she will be going over to tampines so she will be giving me a ride.
(:
reach tm, went over to the cinema to get tickets for cousins and bro, not for myself.
and off to yoshi eating alone, loner (:
called mum asking her to pick me up but she will be like having primary sch gathering so she wouldn't be free.
(i brought lots of PACES home so it's like kind of heavy.)
Went over to look for mum instead of going home, REGRET.
it's boring.
i didn't bring home my pencil and etc so went over to buy them.
didn't home work in swensen while mum and her friend talk.
3 hours later left swensen to open plaza to get photo taken, them not me.
(feel wierd to be taking photos with them so didn't join in.)
went home at around 10.
busy and boring day
its the beginning og something new.
Thursday, May 21, 2009 ; 7:47 PM
okay i counted there will be like 350(rounding off) in total till i reach "A"
so YINGZHU jia you.
no more slacking!!!
tomorrow's the last day of school.
happy (:
okay well let's talk about today.
went bugis with a school friend Rachael,
took neoprints and etc.
went over to plaza sing to meet my shorty "MARCUS" along with Rachael.
Marcus is the best la, he was like the only one who jio me out always,
not like SOME PEOPLE.
Jio other guys inside of me ):
and another one jio CHICKEN instead of me XD
how sad, they want a chicken/Boys instead of me.
so marcus is still the best. :D
off to Tm to meetthat Man freak caileng .
and i brought tako pachi from kang ((:
while leng ate MOS.
off to T1 and than back home.
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MEMORIZE
have been redeemed from guilt, man and women need not fear the fierce flame of the abyss, but enter the into the king's business.
Do not buy the lie that wide aisles and fine choirs sanctify a church.
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so YINGZHU jia you.
no more slacking!!!
tomorrow's the last day of school.
happy (:
okay well let's talk about today.
went bugis with a school friend Rachael,
took neoprints and etc.
went over to plaza sing to meet my shorty "MARCUS" along with Rachael.
Marcus is the best la, he was like the only one who jio me out always,
not like SOME PEOPLE.
Jio other guys inside of me ):
and another one jio CHICKEN instead of me XD
how sad, they want a chicken/Boys instead of me.
so marcus is still the best. :D
off to Tm to meet
and i brought tako pachi from kang ((:
while leng ate MOS.
off to T1 and than back home.
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MEMORIZE
have been redeemed from guilt, man and women need not fear the fierce flame of the abyss, but enter the into the king's business.
Do not buy the lie that wide aisles and fine choirs sanctify a church.
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its the beginning og something new.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009 ; 6:22 PM
watch 17 again again.
with 4 girls from school.
after that saw puiman on the way (:
den later sent all of them home went eat eat with puiman.
den go home.
thanks puiman for accompanying me ah, i know you are bored.
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More glorious than dawn
Your love for me
Feels like I own the whole world
In my life
Like a dream in my tired life
I hope I can treasure your love forever
I hold your hand and shout to the world
I swear to heaven
I will love only you
Like stars in the night
A beautiful dream paradise that belongs to us alone
I can go anywhere to my paradise
Days without you
I’ll forget all the pain
This is only the start being with you
Start to travel start to run
Loving you forever
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in two weeks time, i wouldn't be blogging for a week.
its the beginning og something new.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009 ; 7:22 PM
Whenever I’m tired, lucky in my life
Like a dream you come to my side.
Whenever I’m sad lucky in my dreams
You always surround me with your warmth
No matter when or where I always smile like this
No matter how much more troubles on earth, I’d never
Let you see my tears
Even if you don’t know my heart
Even if from afar.
I can see you smile I’d feel very lucky
Can you come one step closer to me
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jun pyo went over to hug her,
and said:" it's still not too late now, just say this one sentence. say you like me. just that".
(OMG, if i am that girl i will sure say de LOL so touching)
and guess what she push jun phy away ):
but i still prefer her to be with my aiai kim Hyun Joong.
cause he is cute.
LOL.
(i know i should just shut up and watch the show)
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after school house pratice, vino and etc were funny,
laugh nonstop.
after sch went plaza sing with school friend moses and alex.
and than home
its the beginning og something new.
Monday, May 18, 2009 ; 4:59 PM
School was like per normal,
after school went out with school friends, moses, alex and arron.
arron was like funny.
after that went yishun with moses and alex.
and than back to tam to get carl's JR.
love ice lemon tea with a lot of slices of lemon (:
and than back home,
later meeting K to pass him staff ((:
LOVE Kim Hyun Joong
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Name: 김현중 / Kim Hyun Joong (Gim Hyeon Jung)
Profession Actor, singer
Birth date: 1986-June-6 (older than me by 6 years ^^)
Birthplace: Seoul, South Korea
Weight: 68kg
Height: 180cm
Blood type: B
Star sign: Gemini
Education : Kyonggi University (Graduated from Hanyang High School, Seoul)
Religion: Christian
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bye bye wu jun yan, wo bu ai ni le. LOL. no more taiwan boyband it's now korea/japan.
jun matsumoto, oguri shun and Kim Hyun Joong^^
its the beginning og something new.
Sunday, May 17, 2009 ; 7:37 AM
all i can say is,
i never expect G to be such a perv.
telling kids about all those things,
it's like, what are you trying to show off.
can find videos in your room almost everywhere,
and you was like asking small kids if they want to watch!
telling them that your mum brought c***** for you too.
as in why will she buy that for you ???
asking you to F your GF? or Learn it so when you grow older you know how to use it?
you mum is like so strict, why will she buy all this for you?
think we are dumb??
and telling them that it is your GF who intro you all this, oh ya right.
your GF is a tutor and with a very high cert, do you think she will do all this.
she is like so guai guai okay.
omg, trying to pollute their minds???
okay shouldn't say it anymore,
JUST TO LET YOU KNOW, EVER SINCE LAST YEAR OVER AT GENTING I HAVE STARTED HATING YOU.
and last of all dont try to pollute my brother's mind i tell you.
shall call you "P.G" from now on (:
perv . G*****
(: buaiis buaiis...
(i don't care, and i know you viewed my blog )
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last night intend to go over to T1 for dinner,
but it's like so packed so TM instead.
had swensen.
fish spa and mum was like, YOUR LEG. OMG A LOT!!
haha.
30 minutes for $15,
it's like expensive!!!
should go over to qian hu it's like much cheaper.
30 minutes for $10, they even include bigger fish.
after that went over to buy pillow, cow for cousin(benedict) and horse for me.
and went back home.
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photos: http://s120.photobucket.com/albums/o176/deadlyme1992/16%20may%2009/
its the beginning og something new.
Saturday, May 16, 2009 ; 5:48 PM
i pangseh friends again over family,
sorry~
promise them i would join them for gym today but in the end out with dad, bro and cousin.
maybe it's time to really manage my time,
losing out in time,
time spend with friends are like getting lesser.
all i can say is I REALLY DO MISS THEM REAL MUCH.
as you can see NO ONE TAG ME ALREADY.
caileng and some others bo jio me out liao.
(onli marcus good, got jio ONCE not like leng got jeff jiu forget me liao)
over familys and studies, i'm really losing the time spend with friends.
oh God,
how i wish days would last longer.
this year pass fast, and it's like going june now!!!
and it's like a year older soon.
which mean going to be death soon.
so i'm going to treasure life real much.
i know i'm thinking far too much.
but who knows maybe i will die tonight, tomorrow, no one knows.
maybe when i die my friends don't even know i'm dead cause NO ONE really contact me that often.
okay i know my stupidness...
what will it feels like when no one knows that you are dead,
left all alone in the dark world with no one to see the last of you.
omg, how sad. I DON'T ONE!!!
HAISH.
went over to sing avenue for lunch, and it's steamboat (:
fish (:
after that east coast park riding,
ben took my bike so dad long pang me (:
and than back home.
tomorrow home the whole day to study.
its the beginning og something new.
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