SELFISH!
it's always about me me me and my feelings just how hurt things were,
but what i didn't realise was,
i'm actually hurting you the most.
trying your best to cheer me up, making me happy all the time.
thanks, sorry i wasn't in the mood these days.
somethings, i'm still unable to get it out of my mind.
maybe you are right, why should i bother.
it doesn't bother me that much now, but it's just about how things ended.
it's just NOT FAIR!
(MAYBE NO ONE really understand, just no one. but i'm glad you are willing to try)
keeping things to myself, i dont wish to be known as THAT PITIFUL FREAK ON EARTH.
maybe for what happened, you feel as in "i dont know".
just hope things will turn out better after a few days.
keeping yourself away from those hurt,
just who would understand just how you feel right now.
just no one.
finally saying goodbye.
its the beginning og something new.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
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8:42 AM
yesterday's horoscope: (quite true)
Try saying what you feel instead of hoping someone close to you will read your mind. Not only will it save lots and lots of confusion, but you'll feel brave and adult for actually facing this situation head-on rather than trying to pretend it's not there. The other party may not respond in the way you would hope, but you'll have the satisfaction of knowing you did everything you could in the most honorable way possible.
yesterday went swimming, ikea, giant with Bfriend.
(thanks for being there)
hmmmm, feeling much better, in fact i dont really bother.
BiBi isn't well.... vomit!!!
its the beginning og something new.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
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2:23 PM
maybe if things were handed differently ,
if i didn't meet him that day.
things wouldn't turn out this way.
things are just so complicated.
i wish i knew.
i miss those days, i really do.
should just let it go.
Bye to the past.
OH FAIRY GOD MOTHER, I WISH I COULD JUST FORGET ALL ABOUT IT.
its the beginning og something new.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
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9:05 PM
a piece of my mind.
you never like me at all back then, not as much as i do.
but you are the one who i really fell for like crazy.
to make me think i'm really just a replacement.
you are never proud to post our photo on msn nor anywhere else, not even intro to a friend.
knowing that you are currently attached now,
i'm just so jealous.
it's not jealous because i still love you.
it's just that why can't i be treated like how you treat her, right now.
you can't bear to leave her, doesn't want to leave her.
and now it's always her her her.
but me! it all ended with just a word.
it feels like you are willing to give her the world, but for me, nothing!
BECAUSE OF THE PAST AND EVERYTHING WE DID I'M LIKE so afraid of getting hurt again,
scared of committing too much but you,
enjoying your love life like it's gonna last forever.
and what i feel?
like "what the fuck".
okay well, so now maybe i should just forget about all this F thing and move on.
( not as in i still love him)
cause i believe marc is never gonna be like you.
and i love him X3
anyway.
long john with boyfriend.
tori to meet leng.
movie with leng and boyfriend.
3 tickets and 1 popcorn and 3 drinks and 2 hotdog bun cost $15.
(1 ticket and 1 snack $5)
after that went home.
hmmm, leng saw us hugging. was like OMG.
anw, hmmm.
baby you know i love you :D
emmmm,
salt cheer up.
somethings cant be change.
maybe it would be better if things wasn't this way.
you can always find us if you need a shoulder to cry on.
we will always be there.
just move forward in life.
dont have emmhmmm nvm still got me :D
remember we used to be lesbian partner.
and noel cheer up too
its the beginning og something new.
;
8:12 AM
Sunday, 4 october 2009.
cs for a movie with Bfriend.

cinema was quite empty.
3 guys, Bfriend and i.
after that went suntec for lunch and etc.
saw alexander.
*fast forward*
went home.
monday, 5 october 2009
Darren brought 2 girls home.
(hongster)
Bfriend came over.
food palace for Bfriend's dinner.
and back home.
went super crazy because shadow was like super slim.
chat on the phone with Bfriend for awhile and off to bed.
hmmm well,
can you please stop all the nonsense.
people around you are like so worried and yet you pretend nothing happen.
please for once, think!
IT'S ALWAYS BECAUSE OF Boys!
CRAZY GIRL.
its the beginning og something new.
Friday, October 2, 2009
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8:13 AM








meet beibei over at my house.
went pizza hut to meet xiaoma and caileng.
after lunch went over to e hub, k box with beibei and caileng.
after that kim gary to find xiaoma.
saw puiman and xuewei.
and ya that's about all.
xiaoma is the joker of the day.
he say:"caileng xiao jie yi wan duo shao
its the beginning og something new.