SWEETsuicideLOVES

Saturday, May 1, 2010
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8:16 AM
today really really need to go hospital to visit grandpa liao.
cause yesterday i NV go, lazy.
OK well many things had happen.
and the most unlucky thing is that all of it falls on the same day.
which is 29 April 2010, Thursday.
grandpa(dad side) warded hospital on that day and grandma(mum side) sister pass away.
OK well, I'm not sad about it cause i don't really know them.
this grandpa of mine don't really like me cause the thinking is still the old fashion one.
what boys are way better den girls thingy.
and for my grandma's sister, i didn't see her for a very long time. ever since i was a kid.
so it's like OK sad for one thing but not because they are close to me.
sad for grandpa cause dad must be very worried and sad over him.
and the hospital bills he is going to pay must have been giving him a hard time.
hopes everything will be fine real soon.
and for grandma's sis.
i am sad cause i think grandma must be crying day and night cause the people around her are leaving her day by day.
first is her hubby , den her mum and now her sis.
she has a very bad leg problem, all the pain she is suffering is already enough why adding more pain.
if there's really god in this world, WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO HEARTLESS.
(sorry i don't believe in all the god bullshit)
if you are telling me that you will pray for me or something, just save it cause god is not going to do anything.
he is not going to give my grandpa(mum side) back, he is not going to give me a complete family and he is not going to make everyone around me to not suffer.
when i say complete family is dad coming back not another mum or dad.
when i was young grandpa(mum side) dote me the most but when i was 2 he left me,
the image i had towards him was all blank, i knew grandpa was close to me cause mum told me and it's not because i remember it.
and know what i dont even remember how he looks like.
all i could remember being in a complete family was mum and dad arguing every single day.
so what? and why?
why must this keep happening.
its the beginning og something new.