SWEETsuicideLOVES

Monday, July 19, 2010
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7:31 PM
Sunday:
went out with adeline, clynston and weixiang.
I GOT KOII FOR BREAKFAST :D
thanks dar dar adeline.
clynston was late! weixiang late!
went k box at ehub and off for a movie.
i swear weixiang damn noisy!
LOLS... ok well i admit i was too.
and i went crying when i thought jacob was about to die LOLS
after that dinner with ade and back home and went slacking.
Monday, today:
i got breakfast from my precious baby girl.
sway day! lost my ezlink, problems and more problems.
harold say i very simple minded, stupid.
got chocolate from clynston :)
and den was like emoing the whole morning.
ok well thx sujata from listening!
me love you.
dinner with harold and jolynn.
got a so call advising in the train.
ok well this is what i felt.
after such a long time i am finally able to let it go and move on.
but it seems like no one is please with the decision i had made.
i know you guys are worried that something bad is going to happen cause i'm stupid.
stephen say boys like to act pitiful, harold say things started too fast.
and so all this keeps me thinking.
because of me, my friends are sad, because of this and that people are sad.
just because of a choice i made things just go so wrong.
all i want to do is just to run away from it, i don wish to face it. what if i got hurt again what if things arent'what i think it is.
what if my friends are right what if i am wrong what if all this is a misunderstanding.
i'm lost i really am. looks, height it's doesnt matter but all this really makes me think about it like no tomorrow.
trust faith. who the hell know what the hell am i thinking of.
acting like you know what i wan acting like i dont know what i wan cant i just have a time to really think about it by my self?
OMG! WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING!
its the beginning og something new.