SWEETsuicideLOVES

Saturday, October 16, 2010
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6:12 PM

D.D brought me out for lunch.
drove over to tampines mall and i told him , let's go somewhere else.
drove over to east point told him to go airport instead.
on the way there he suddenly ask why is my precious girl so moody today,
and my reply was i guess im still sleepy.
reach airport waraku de pasta for lunch,
all i had was just ice cream.
totally no appetite but since he insisted on me to get something, brought ice cream.
after eating i told him i'm tired and wish to go home,
and he say wait before that let's go to a place.
and so he drove me over to changi to see houses.
this place really remind me of a lot of things.
things which i really wish i couldnt remember.
it's also the place where he last say he love me, nice is on the 13 of october.
but i guess sweet things just have to end this way.
went home straight after the ride.
J came over.
teach my brother maths, played with bibi intended to watch eat pray love with J but too bad got plans so didn't.
i tried, i really am trying to bring him back.
it's not easy.
but like i told buddy, if the fear really came true, all i want was just to see him happy.
it doesnt matter if i m or not.
but i guess his feels has already faded and there's nothing i could do.
let's pray.
its the beginning og something new.