SWEETsuicideLOVES

Wednesday, October 27, 2010
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7:09 PM
guess what im doing now?
i'm laughing my lungs out all because of my precious baby.
he's like barking when i try to take his toy away from him and guess what,
he hide his toy inside the cage.
ok well let's talk about today.
as usual harold's father brought me to school.
breakfast with ah yang and harold.
meet wilson, off to school for supervision.
it's a cold day.
harold didnt really pay much attention cause almost the whole lesson he's playing the pig game.
lunch time, canteen with jane, harold, azmi, shanhua, sean, junyang, wilson, bernard, kartono, gerwyn and i dunno how if i have miss out some?
sang a song and suddenly ask jane if she want me, love me etc.
and azmi was like ask shanhua and so i did i ask him , you love me ?
and he was like shy shy ignore me LOL
(ok well, dont really remember this part, STM)
ok walk back to school with jane, azmi, shanhua while the rest took a bus.
beverage lesson.
i swear freaking cold! plus 2 gays behind me.
joseph and gerwyn.
and somehow joseph got angry and left, went home first.
xiao qi bao.
bite harold's hand, forget what happened.
second time -.-
the previous one still blue black , so i guess bite quite hard?
sorry.
ah yang put stick on my ba, i dunno den kartono told me and i was like scolding ah yang and suddenly harold and i got into a little so call argument?
harold start to ignore me,
dunno what to do
at that time my mind was blank , the only thing i could think of is
" OH MY GOD HOW HOW HOW, should i talk to him, or should i just leave him alone, what if i talk to him he feel irritated den hate me? den what if i nv talk to him , we will never talk to each other again"
and i m really very scared that he will hate me.
you know why?
cause i have already lost him as a x3, i dont wish to lose him again.
went home, got a news from eugene there's a hip hop competition , wonder if i should join or not.
hmmmm.......
well the reason why a girl wouldn't let a guy go after all they been through is because all the effort will be washed down the drain, every sour relationship is something the girl would want to treasure even more as in created a better memory? but guys just hate sour relationship, sick and tired den say bye bye i dont love you anymore. but have guys ever thought wwhy girls are so stubborn, why girls always push you to someone else even when they know you love them? CAUSE THEY LOVE TO BE PAMPER , THEY WANT YOU TO TELL HER THAT YOU LOVE HER AND ONLY HER, once is never enough.
TSK!
now time for my love sick part, ignore!
especially GERWYN!
ahhahahaha.
start:
I REALLY DUNNO WHAT'S HE THINKING OF! I REALLY LOVE HIM A LOT, TILL NOW FEELINGS DIDNT FADE, BUT IT IS REAL THAT HIS FEELINGS HAVE FADED CAUSE HOW CAN FEELINGS FADE SO FAST ONE, OR WAS IT THAT HE DOESNT LOVE ME FROM THE START. OH MAN! I DUNNO LAH. HE GOT HIS PRINCESS LIAO, NVM . TOGETHER CAN BREAK, MARRIED CAN DIVORCE.
I AM TRYING TO CHANGE INTO SOMEONE BETTER, CAN'T YOU SEE IT ? BABY?
its the beginning og something new.