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But I'm not wasting my time,
Over something which is not worth it. |
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Friday, November 12, 2010 ; 8:05 AM
almost everyone in class is crazy over vampire diaries.
ok la not really crazy, only me i guess.
but almost everyone is watching that show now.
it became the main topic we talk about?
as usual girls will be like OH HE"S HOT.
and boys will be like SHE"S HOT.
hahaha.
but really, stefan hot! but i like damon character easpecially how he treat elena.
choing on gossip girls later on.
edited~~
ok well, got kind of sian after watching gossip girls.
well, didn't watched that for quite sometime so was like sian of it already.
hmmm,
downloaded some songs from vampire diaries :D
and i find it sweet if damon and elena end up together.
well.
stuck at home watcing drama.
i'm bored.
too lazy to leave the house, too lazy to even go down get lunch.
i'm hungry, no one to buy lunch for me :(
ok well, was more like im lazy to even pick up my phone to ask.
i know i havent been myself later.
i'm sorry about that, me being so rude keep scolding jancok, F*U and etc.
maybe im become what i am before?
a bitch?
idk, give me time, i will change back, trust me!
getting quite emotion about harold playing my feelings , for the past few weeks.
but i'm still alive, breathing!
thinking about it , cool down, UNDERSTAND maybe why this happened?.
he's not really the guy i love, love.
it''s just that, that time we both just broke up with our bf/gf and we were close.
so we kind of misunderstood think friendship for something more that?
i'm just a tool to spark his ex gf and now they are back together.
and maybe mine was also to spark my ex bf that i could leave even without him?
or something like that?
and maybe because he gave me a feeling i had before thinking that , that's love but it was actually that ?
maybe it's just that the little something is still in my mind, i couldnt let go of?
ya i know it's been so long.
but it still affect me a little, my im trying my best to get over it.
like hey come on, he is the first guy i really tried to have, but destroy it.
ok well, but i did enjoy those good times with him lah, if you know what i mean.
this kind thing comes and go , oso make a person stronger right.
maybe i should stop rushin gthings and let nature takes its place.
recently a good friend ask me
" when are you intending to settle down like really going into a serious relationship"
the truth is, there's still a little something i'm still unable to let go of .
like for example, i thought i like this person, ended up together, when we argued it's not my bf who i think of, it's actually the memories of the past which i was reminded of, the words he say, and all. so it's like i still have someone in mind and i'm just treating my bf as a replacement. something like that. love my bf not cause i really love him but actually because his actions remind me of him thats why i like him.
get it?
so now i just wanna be alone, until this thing ends.
ps: not tt i still love him but more of memories, actions and words which i cant forget?
its the beginning og something new.
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