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But I'm not wasting my time,
Over something which is not worth it. |
SWEETsuicideLOVES
Thursday, August 4, 2011 ; 9:26 AM
Think the worst out of me, and you will get over me very soon :)
i had you once, i don't ask for more.
im just being someone you wanted me to be, just to please you .
but me myself i don't feel easy at all.
it's like me lying to myself that i'm like this but in fact im not.
i did tried, its not that i didn't.
it's the best for the both of us.
we would be happier this way.
i love you but sometimes, we have to let go.
it's not always about hold.
sometimes the more you try , the more tired u get in the end.
its the beginning og something new.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011 ; 10:57 AM
Okay well.
there's always a point in time where people have to let go not because they want to but because they need to.
and they would be happier that way.
i choose to be happy and forsake this relationship.
this relationship is always about argument, disagreement.
no one is willing to give in and ended up none of us are happy.
just feel all tie up serious, i don't have a space to breathe not even for a moment.
we did, we got back together but after a week it's still the same or should i say things gotten worst.
trying my best to focus and give in everything i got,
but the fear of getting played, i couldn't control.
before we were together he told me she's more important, he likes her, he's happier with her and as for me he hates me, he feel so irritated when I'm around.
and all of a sudden he just came back out of the blue because i beg him to .
i seriously don't know what to believe, i tried to i really did tried to believe that he's not playing.
but everything just got up into my head and keep flashing back about what he say.
worst of all, THAT moment, THAT part really makes me doubt that he's serious.
he promise me he would watch wu xia with me but ended up going with her,
how i felt ?
will he ever understand?
and another incident was we intended to meet on a thursday 2 weeks ago,
he told me he couldn't make it because he's sick and ask me to meet him friday.
but on friday he went clubbing with friends and he say on sat but sat he totally forgotten about it
and ask me to meet him on sunday , and sunday he told on monday because he's tired.
and yes he did turn up on monday , but a spoil mood.
and somehow we got together on that day.
how will you feel if you were me ?
just feel so not important right?
somewhat like he's playing right?
and you know what, so what if we got back together..
he say it's not him who wants me back, it's me who beg him.
so all this really make me doubt him a lot.
he can even call me a bitch , a slut, retarded, stupid, fucktard and ask me to fuck myself.
how could i endure all this seriously, it's happening everyday.
i am a human as well, i have feelings.
and to him getting me back was just some play, asking for break so easily.
so just what am i ?
he's controlling me to the extend whereby i couldn't take it as well.
he's not such a control freak back in the past but why now like this.
maybe the difference is because i ask him back and not because he wants to.
so now since its really over.
i shall just let go.
so much for everything, happily ever after.
relationship really is a pain.
its the beginning og something new.
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